*YAwn*.
still sleepy. but got to get up.
cause later going expo robinson sales

fast updates:
Fri is my graduation day.
Got to wake damn early to get to school.
That very night. i sleep and 8pm and wake 8am the next morning.
Anyway, i finally graduated. Whats next?
LOL.
Sat... which is ytd. went to watch Grrove in the West Hiphop competition at West Coast Plaza. GOt 40 groups sia.
When we reach there is abt the 4th group liao[ i think].
I uploaded 10 of the groups' video.
still got a few with xuan.
my cam batt die on me so i cant record all.
xuan's cam got no more memory space. so also cant record more.
LOL
Semi finals on 11th April. Those who free can go down.
But sad thing is i wont be free.

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recently i am suffering from insomia.
whats happening.
i am so FREE.
slacking at home.
and i am suffering from insomia?.
WHY?
my mother keep asking why i always sleep so late.
but thats only because i need to lie on the bed like abt 1 hour to fall asleep.
and through the night i will keep flipping.
I am a light-sleeper but previously i can still sleep at night without flipping so much.
Must be the stress from not working.[ i guess]

....
got to STOP.
and think of the happy shopping later.
[ ... but try to not spend so much on useless stuff..]

WARNING*****
NO advices nor solutions needed.

incoming hard-feelings
do not continue reading
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confuse~@@~

what is right and what is wrong.
is there a defination?
does it mean that things that you think is wrong.
you will nv do it? OR
there are times where you have to do it even if you know its wrong.

No 1 forcing you.
YES. thats very true.
BUT the situation is forcing you.
things that relates is forcing you.
your heart is forcing you even if your brain tells you the other.
the surroundings factors are forcing you.

Its all abt making choices.
but why cant i say NO.
when i say NO, ppl blame me.
but when i say YES.
anything that happens next is all my responsibilities.

Why is it so unfair?
Why am i so soft-hearted?
Why cant i bring myself to say NO?
Why my mouth say NO. but my action is still being force to do it?
Why must force me?

I just want to be normal.
I just want to be clear from it.
I dun wish to risk my future.
No 1 can promise nth will happen.
I just want to be able to sleep soundly at night.

Who is going to help me when things really happens?
The answer will be NO ONE.
Ppl will say: " You make the choice yourself and no 1 force you. You can say NO. It your responsibilities to know what you have to bear in the end."

WHY CANT LEAVE ME ALONE?

WHY ARE YOU ALL NOT HELPING ME?

AM I HELPING PPL OR AM I JUST PURLY HURTING MYSELF?

I DUN LIKE THIS FEELING.

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Hmm.
I have not been posting for almost coming to a mth.
Basically cause nth special to talk abt.
But here are some recent updates and random thoughts.
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Currently working on a freelance project for DP.
editing the concert video[basic editing only. more can be done if requested]
but with just the basic editing requirement. there is already alot of work.
Not difficult but alot.
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Overstrained my arm during dance all due to the injuries on my elbow from the falling of stair previously.
Elbow still pain then using more power on left arm. and over strain.
Damn.
During cold weather. especially recently raining alot.
ankle, knee cap. all feel the pain. [Rheumatism]

[Injuries List]-only includes from after sec 4 onwards, by sequence.
Left lower last rib
Left ankle
Left knee cap
Left thumb
Right albow
Left arm

Haiz.............
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Haven found a job yet.
To think again.
If i dun have any basic expectation for my job. i can simply find any job and there is quite a handful outside even when the market is not good.
But i believe that it is due to the qualification and expectation for the job and what kind of career/ job we going to work for etc, that make us hard to find a job.
For me. given the certs i have and the actual skills that i possess, it is totally not equivalent.
PPL/ Bosses/ Companies tot i am a IT person. knows how to program.
But actually i took mostly multimedia electives when i am in poly. and in SIM, i only know how to do basic Arts work for games.
Programming i cant do it. Arts i am not good enough.
What can i do?
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Last time i dun like blogging.
Cause i feel.

Blogging = tell ppl things you want them to know = selective informations about yourself = some true, some might not be true.

but i still start to blog after awhile.
cause i slowly feel that there is still a need to give recent updates of myself to friends from pri, sec, poly, uni etc.
As we move on to another part of our life, chances to meet/ keep in contact with friends are really rare.
So blogging is a good way to know whats going on in your friends life.

But again to be frank.
I dunno how others blog.
But according to myself, like i mention above.
I only blog abt things i want ppl to know abt.
I dun blog abt some other things.....
Some feelings and thoughts going through my mind every now and then.
Thats also why recently i nv blog. cause i got nth to say.

but in fact there is a lot going on in my mind.

So i have decided.
From now on. whatever i feel or think of at that moment.
I will blog [provided i remember].
Its going to be a totally NEW STYLE for the way i blog.
I am going to treat it as if no 1 is reading.
From now on

My Blog = as if no 1 is reading = my private diary = writing everything that i can think of and going through in my mind = Unselective Informations = to speak the truth, all the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth

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