~+ Welcome to my Utopia < ReLaX_WoRLd > +~

2011-07-07T00:19:00.002+08:00

today again, i am hurt by a simple comment.
from someone who thought he knows me.
ppl always think they know me.
they thought what they see of me is the whole part of me.
but how many really do want to know the real me?
how many understands me?
this applys to all friends.
i have no soulmates to talk to.
the only thing i thought i am best at, which is dance.
i realise i am losing it.
my knees and joints are all breaking up.
my brain cant remember as well.
i am getting older.
my complextion is getting worse.
i am getting fatter.

i know i am strong on the outside. but i am very fragile on the inside.
ppl hurt me without knowing it. cause they thought i am strong.
i know i am a very straight forward person. but i nv make a comment on the person personality to the person direct,
as if i know that person inside out.
at the most i will just discuss / talk to a 3rd party abt how i feel abt that person.
but i wont go to the person and say, i think u too self-centred.
i think u too selfish to behave like this etc.

so thats why i also cannot take it if someone just tell 3rd party INFORNT of me that;
i think she(which is me) not good at talking, why not u do it"
cause thats totally not true.

ppl who really really knows me,
know i am a scssior mouth but soft-hearted person.
i can say it like as if its nothing but i dun bear to do it.
i am good to all my friends,
i nv reject their request for help.
though i might nagged(stress)

i need to reflect on the outterself that i am showing ppl and how ppl think of me.
in fact , i only feel that my sec friends knows me better.
they know me, i am very happy when i am with them.
but i am still hoping for a soulmate.
someone who i want to listen to and wants to listen to me.

i am telling myself not be affected by a small comment.
but i am.
cause i am very shocked every now and then when i heard what ppl think of me and i know thats not true.
i dun understand why is ppl with a bad character but nice outlook can have someone willing to tahan them and think they are great.
while cause i dun look as good. then my character will be double times bad?
though i fact i know i am a generally kind person.

looks really means alot.
it gives you extra credits to clear the other parts of ur unperfection.

i seriously dun understand why is the world create to be like this.
god ,can u tell me?
can u answer me why my life is being plan and plot this way(by you)?

can u give me a preview is there is still hope?

2010-06-12T23:55:00.003+08:00

why do i feel so ..... lost? restless? aimless? confused? doubtful? emptiness?
i dun even know what word can describe that feeling.
i can be busy and fill with lots of things in mind.
but there will be " this moment" every time that i will stop and ask...
what am i misssing?.
what kind of feeling is this?.
then i will turn to god.
i will ask if he's really there.
does he notice my existence?

then i will recall the "msg from god" from fb.
"god wants u to know that he have been listening and answering u.. its time u stop asking and quiet down to listen to him."

and then i will tell myself to listen hard...
whats the msg for me?..
can i find it?. can i understand it?

i am always so confused.. wondering...
i dunno whats wrong and i dunno how to fix it..

i think i am just like the tv series.- LOST..
the seasons continues but still lost.

i realise i only thin of blogging when i am feeling down..
when i am happy, i am too busy enjoying that moment that i am too lazy to write it donw.
when i am sad. the only place/ person i can talk to is the other me..
thats why i only blog when i am sad/ lost/ angry...but not happy.

guess thats not a good way to blog..
cause in this case... i will be storing sorrows and not happiness..

i am learning and trying
to understand myself.. what i am doing. what i wanted to achieve at the end.

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2010-02-05T22:10:00.001+08:00

Finally manage to login using iPhone. Not very sure how to use that why have to try . But seems weird without seeing those layout .

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2010-01-04T19:55:00.002+08:00

I finally got my Speedland PHOTO BOOK today. =]

i will have to book my sppedland concert dvd soon.
get my iphone.
packing my room.
get fitter- train cardio
buy new clothes.

TW trip awaits
save up some $
....
....
more to update as time goes along

~

2010-01-03T01:37:00.003+08:00

i have stop writing blog for quite awhile and since recently [ during my free time + when i am kind of emotional] i will write again.
ANd i think no one will be reading my blog already as they think i stop writing blog.
which is good. cause then i wont worry abt who is reading and write for the sake of writing for the ppl reading.
i wanted to write for myself. my feelings.

today is the party at jacky's place. overall its fun, and happiness all around. but still i can help to see the flaunt of it. maybe just because i am a perfectionist. i wanted to see if things can be done better and sometimes i get tensed up.
but many of the time i wanted it better not just for myself but of the benefits of others. thinking of how other might feel and voice it out . sometimes i think maybe i should just be more passive and not so empathic.

i just randomly read pick a friend blog to read .. just like what i did this morning.
i read zhao rong blog this morning and i read julia blog just a moment ago.
i feel that i am easily affect by emotions. ppl emotions. from their words.

from zhao rong blog i feel that i can feel my pain of not being loved enough. me needing more love. i get more emo and feel like crying for that i know i am always alone when i cry and i am smiling on the surface.

from julia however, i learnt that. i must learnt to love myself more.
i care too much abt ppl around me. and i lost myself. do i love myself enough?
i am a free thinker. i do want to find my own spritual attachment.
but maybe its just not the time yet.
i really envy julia for her chlid-likeness. some times that characteristic of her can be really irritating, damn annoying. but i just cant be mad at her for long as i know for that is just JULIA. i know her long enough to have accept it even though she sometimes make me feel she dun appreciate me a a friend much enough ... but sometimes, she can be "FUNNY" enough to make me [ dunno to laugh or to cry]
but whatever it is. i envy her. for she love herself enough, she got her HOME when she feel LOST.
and from her recent post.. of what she have learnt.. obviously i have also learnt the same.

how many time have any of you wake up from a dream crying?
i know that i have experiences it many times.
the other part of me knows how to keep it down.
so i guess i still sober enough to control my emotions.
sometimes i think i really have spilt personalities. for what i know i really am and for what ppl think i am from how i project myself out.
Protection layer we call it.

Only soulmates will know.
so far i guess i dun have any.
but i do know who can see inner me. namely, the sec gang. you know who you are.
i can tell them everything frankly.
My best, wonderful, NO.1 god-bro in taiwan. chung ting. He knows me.
Another 1 who i think i can tell anything to him is Erick Alvamart, currently in US.
and of course, weird but amazingly- Julia is one of them.
dunno why i feel that i can tell her anything and she understand.. or did she not?. LOL

Am i not satisfied to already have them?

What do i really need?.
I know i definately need a SIGN.

-ok. dun say you want give me signboard. ...

oh no. my 2 brains" are talking to each other AGAIN.

i guess i am confused by myself. and i am not sure what i am writing already.

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2010-01-02T08:45:00.002+08:00

I had a dream.
my heart is pain, i cried.
sad for a reason that only i can see.
there is 2 of me while you only see 1.
wondering if the end to my dream is a happy ending?
i have wake up back into the reality.
confused by the feelings that my heart can still feel.
but i know for one thing that its no longer the same as before.
its getting weaker as the years pass.
for i think it might be of that cause.
i wonder if there is really a Pandora?
as i will really want to go.

~

2009-12-21T19:34:00.005+08:00

have not been updating the blog lately. cause simply because i am too busy.

of course my birthday party turn out to be a success,
jacky edith, ling qing, bernice all stayed in the end. including emily weilun,aaron, eric, and of course xuan leon julia me. it really fun and all of us had a great time tgt for the 3 days 2 nights.
thanks to all friends who attend and their company.
we play, we drink, we make noise, we ktv, we bowl.. it purely FUN.

and starting oct, i have been working night shift. it is tiring and i have to get use to the odd and late hrs.and of course its sad to have to stop dance due to the timing. but i really learn alot alot. its a great experience.
soon it will be coming to an end. and i have to look for a job soon. and hope i can be back at dance with my fellow dancers.

time flies and its dec. just attended edith and jacky wedding on sat-19 dec @ grand hyatt.
my 1st time being sisters. 1st time wearing a dress to dance on the wedding.
1st time feel that true love does exist.
thanks to jacky and edith.
i am happy that i know them both.
i am so touched by their vows for each other during Solemnization that i teared.
really happy for the both of them.

its coming to dec end and soon it will be jan and then my project will end mid feb.
its a new year and a new beginning.

i hope for the best and that everything will be smooth for everyone... especially myself.

~

2009-09-15T22:44:00.003+08:00

HAIZ...
very sad...

at 1st i just want to have fun with my friends.
then i realise i only create more problems for myself
i purly wants to have a party tahts all.
nv expect that it will be so troublesome.
if i knew earlier.
i will have just still to my sec friends plan.
they will plan everything. i dun need worry.

now that i have my own chalet,
form booking of chalet to ordering fo bbq food etc.
all i settle.
very stress.
trying to make it good.
trying to kind of make up for my 21st birthday.
although now most things is confirmed,
BUT 1 big problem is.
no 1 is staying
if i know then in teh 1st place i will just be ordering buffet at my house.
now the chalet is booked and no1 is staying.
wasted

at 1st thought only 2nd night is bad...
only julia and me for my chalet
only yaxina and huiling for sec chalet
..
but now i realise.. 1st night is nth better.
got xuan leon me julia.
qing and ling probably not staying as ling got to work..
edith and jacky also not staying liao.
limei cant stay cause wnat study exam.
bernice not staying if there is no1 going back with her for 20th.
although xuan and leon night be going back on 20th.

seriously after knowing all the problem that suddenly arised..
i brain -blocked.
i cant think liao.
i feel so tired.
now so last min. cant find ppl to come 2nd day .
even if have ppl, no plan at all for 2nd night.
really cant think liao.
i think i need a break then come back to think abt this.
if not, i will break out.

i only have 3 days left.
and i am trying to tell myself ..
I have 3 days MORE. not that i ONLY have 3 days

~
speechless.
.........
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2009-08-29T23:35:00.001+08:00

today we celebrate bernice birthday.. she is 18 already.
ya. 18.. the best age to be..
i feel so old. haven been seeing many candles on the cake since pass the gate of 21.
LOL

going to have a parth this year for my birthday.
kind of making up for not celebrating my 21st.
why this year then make up lei?.
dunno ...just a random reason for having a party. cause this year the date is special to me.. 20 09 2009.

Today i finally bought the facial wash and stuff.
have been going to faceshop a few times but just cant bring myself to buy. cause very 心痛 to spend so much on that.
but i finally convince myself that i should 宠一宠 pamper myself.
its abt $100+. and i get free membership for life.
LOL.

Got 1 friend told me. Gals should always be at top form.
Dress up. Touch up. Tone Up.
Although i really dunno how to do so. but i do agree to a certain extend, gals really got to look good.
But i dun agree if guys use this as an excuse to stray and like another gal.
cause then the main problem is on the guy not on the gal.
the Guy shouldnt liek the gal for just looks. or being able to look good.

a friend i know from sdu msn me again.
i regret keeping contact with him.
not that he is very bad or what. in fact he is kind enough to have plan treating me a dinner for my birthday. even b4 that. he have been asking me out for dinner and movies.
but i already say clearly the 1st time that i dun mind go out alone with guy cause its not my 1st time anyway.
just to make it clear taht just friend only.
but everytime i seems to get myself into trouble in 1 way or another.
a couple of weeks ago, we argue over on msn . he actually blame me for not free to go out with him as a friend. which i feel ridiculous at that time.
i think to myself if i had once again give wrong signal.
anyway since we argue. i thought thats the end. and its also in a way good for me. getting myself out of trouble.
but a moment ago, he msn me again. ask me to goout for dinner as my birthday treat.
its very nice of him. but... i seriously dun want to make it worse.
but i dunno how to reject.
i dun have a bf i know..
but cant i just be single?
and i seriously dun think we click.
even if just being friends, its also based on a 1st rule.. whether we click or not.
长痛不如短痛
can anyone advise me how to end this?

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2009-08-25T12:43:00.003+08:00

Without realising it,
it have been almost 1 mth since i last update the blog.

work "started" since 27th July.
But not the actual project.
have been coming in for work though.

1st 2 weeks is practising on AVID and do our own edits.
then its national day and right after mon holiday,
we are post to diff dept to work on something else since the project we suppose to be working on has been postpone again.
i am lucky to be post here.
learn new stuff. FInally touched on FCP.
play around and practice re-doing some old edits.
learn abt the flow of a actual work/project.... etc etc

as usual, every night still go dance... ok. not every night.
every mon wed thurs sun. total of 6 classes.
tues is RCIA church class.
sat are for those exhibitions- STGCC, NATAS, COMEX, BIRTHDAY CHALETs .. etc
Left Fri night...
my only rest day and also the only available day for gathering.
depends on my work of course.
might need to work shift and stay a little bit later whenever needed.

Still happy abt it as i am doing what i wanted to do all along.
it might not last long. all depends on my luck.
but at least i have it till Nov.

-------------------------------
moody this week. PMS.
those who want to irritates me. please do find a better time to do so.

and YOU. .. YES YOU... if you have no choice but to cross my path. i can understand that.
BUT do not keep stepping on my tail.
And DO NOT pick up my WORDS wrongly and thought that you got it right and thinking you are REAL SMART.
DO NOT act PRO cause we know you are not.
井水不犯河水。
天下太平。

~

2009-07-26T20:19:00.000+08:00

today i went trekking with my sec friends.
yaxin huiling weiting.
very nice of yaxin and huiling to have prepare the sandwiches and the [ham cheese cucumber].
LOL. dunno what is it call.
though i dun really love cheese that much and dun like cucumber.
but she used jap cucumber[which i dun hate that much] and the cheese is not to cheesy.
tgt with ham. taste nice.
and of course yaxin's tuna sandwiches.

along the trek . we saw many animals.
the komodo?. am i right. dunno the name la..
the monkeys.
the snake.. which is kind of rare.
cause its quite a long 1.... not very fat though.
just right in front of me.. crossing the path into the leaves and grass area beside the trekking path.
i was walking infront and i realise where there is this "black strip" that moves.
LOL
then my eyes just follow the tail to the head and realise its a snake.
wahaha. i know. I very slow.
haha
dun really dare take picture.
regret.

we took another route that is a bit diff from the route that i trek b4 with TAS.
and we came out to the roads opp bukit timah shopping centre.
then we went for late lunch cum dinner at Al-ameen.
and finally- HOME SWEET HOME.

anyway, picture of the trip is uploaded to facebook. as usual..
:P

~

2009-07-25T17:55:00.001+08:00

24th july
dinner with edith and jacky @ holland v. crystal jade steamboat.
its their treat for me helping with their bridal shooting.
nice food and nice chat.
Thanks

25th july
which is today.
early morning 9am meet xuan leon bernice aaron at the jurong spring cc.
went mac for breakfast and nv went in for the BGM talk.
yong da came at around 1030am.
and its abt time that the BGM talk ends.
therefor we went up.
the admin at table say we can go in from the back door.
so we slip in.
and in just 5mins, the BGM talk ends. and they want everyone exit from the back door.
so we naturally becoem the 1st to exit too.
LOL
ya. last to go in. 1st to exit. haha
then its time to collect the free nalgene bottle.
haha. the 6 of us seems very kiasu.
actually transport is provided. haha
again we seems very kiasu.
casue we 1st to collect the nalgene so we proceed to jurong safra[kbox] in own own transport and again,
haha. we are 1st to reach.
damn funny.
the k box not even open yet.
ok. finally we all get seated in the k box room and started singing.
the k box session came with 1 free drink and klunch box too.
and also we had a surprise cake and celebration for leon birthday[ which is tmr].
Aprt from the cake.. the nalgene and k box session is only $5.
All thanks to the Jurong Spring YEC.
thanks for organizing such a fun event.
and of course thanks weiting for informing me abt this event.

after k box,
we went Jp coffee bean for a drink and chat.
and after which at 4pm, we left Jp and reach boonlay. xuna need exchange currency while i check on my bro handphone which have been sent for checking.
and guess what the shop say the phone its not there.
they question whether i did left teh phone ther in the 1st place.
please la..
in teh 1st place my bro brought the phone and haven even use. its spoil.
its our fault that we haven use it and till it over warrenty tehn sent for check.
but that also why the gal say the only thing she can help is to sent to supplier to chek what worng.
she took my number and put it inside the box. and nv give me a new receipt.
she told me might need quite long cause my case special.
so yup. i did wait a little too long. cause its almost 3 mth since then.
and today i finally went back.
but thats not teh main point.
the phone shouldnt be just missiing..
i mean they also nv give me a call back to inform me abt the phone on their respoonsibility.
NOW the phone is mysteriously missing. and tehy actually thinks i lying?. the way they look at me as if i am lying.
as if i nv leave th phone there.. totally RIDICULOUS. the phone just dissappear into thin air?
She ask me go home and give her 2 days to find the phone and if the phone is still with the supplier. tehy will get me back a new 1. but nv mention if cannot find then how..
whatever. i will wait till mon then call them again. Crazy... 莫名其妙。RiDICULOUS.
.....
and finally here i am, back at home.
tired.

tmr still got a trekking session with yaxin huiling and weiting.

overall its still a fun day.

~

2009-07-25T17:39:00.000+08:00

UPDATES
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9th july
Edith & Jacky Bridal shooting
Studio and Outdoor
Me being their PA- Juan Jie.

Left them and went for movie[Ice Age 3] @ PS around evening time.

10th july
Meeting with my insurance consultant.
haiz. although no $. but there are some things that still must spend on.
upgraded my policy with more illness , accidential and hospitality assurance.

11th-12th july
Pengerang trip with Sisi, huiling, nelly, gab and his friends.
get to know many new friends.

13th-17th july
planned to check out bro hp status,
go da vinci exhibition,
dinner with edith and jacky,
facial appt that i already paid for.
etc...
BUT none of it is done.

18th july.
Ballet under the stars @ fort canning with hiphoppers.
heard and knew some shocking news. but apart of that.
all of us still have fun.
and we supper at the xing wang HK cafe.
love their company. its always fun and enjoyable.

21st july.
finally went to do my facial.
as usual. sales... ask me do teh better 1 at another $$.
whatever. but i did not agree.
so she did not squeeze much of my 黑头.
but still 1st time squeeze. very pain ok.
and although she nv do a full squeeze[due to my package price] but still i end up with my face red red here and there.
but in just awhile. its fine already. so still not that bad la.

22nd july
finally went for my da vinci exhibition.
planned the time nicely. to reach at 3pm. and end at 6pm.should be enough time.
sway sway " aunt visit", need go shop buy "stuff".
wasted 30 mins.
in the end i still manage to finish the exhibition on my own pace. but with no extra time to rewalk 1 round or even to shop some of the souvenirs etc.
its quite a tight schedule.
therefore i advise those going the exhibition. to go no later than 3pm. Best timing is 2pm.

2009-07-04T01:48:00.005+08:00

Gee -SNSD Girls Generation

PumaShock Version

2009-07-04T00:41:00.016+08:00

today is a happy day.

i go ktv with bernice at jurong safra.
at 1st we plan go there for the k happy k student tapas promo.
but when we are there, the person say that promo is not available there as the cooking materials ,pots and pans are not ready yet.
so we say nvm. then we go ahead with teh normal package which is $13++ for 2-7pm.
but they charge us $11.50++ which is till 5pm only caus ethey say got quite alot of booking for today.
but nvm in the end we sing till 6pm. total cost $19.10
our room number is 20.
the room is very big. i nv notice it till bernice mention it..
she said: " hey, 1st time i get this big room with just 2 person"
haha. by then, i realise.. :oh ya hor.
She very funny and cute as usual.
Had a really great time with her.
apart from the- scaring me a few times while i am choosing the songs from the monitor.
if i got heart attack...haha. Choy!
LOL~
DEAR Bernice,
pls dun do that again next time.. I am old.
cant tahan the scare. got heart attack.

~LOL

then she went for for her ballet teaching at JW.
while i go walk walk at JP for 30 mins b4 i went to meet my primary school friends at lakeside.
had dinner with them at a vegetarian shop near our house.
table number/ rather it is actually a numbertag for our food.
its number 20 .. AGAIN.
didnt know got that shop till just now.
nice food there.
after dinner we sat at the park to chat for awhile b4 we took the bus home.

happy to be meeting up with primary school friend after such a long long time.

aprt from the above,
i realise my day is link with number 20.
and 20 is my birthdate. not this mth though.
but my birthday is 20 sept - 20 09.
and this year is 2009.
my friend say must but 4D.
haha

thats bascially my day.

heard from weiting there is a jurong spring promo to kbox on 25th july .9-2pm
will find out more from her and look forward to the next kbox session.
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photos from KTV

2009-07-02T18:24:00.006+08:00

Utada Hikaru - "Come Back To Me"

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Love her -
First Love _ Majo no Jouken
Flavor of Life_Hana Yori Dango
Distance
Can You Keep a Secret_Hero
Prisoner of Love_Last Friends
Eternally_Innocent Love

and now her - Come Back to Me

She is really a talent.
Love her voice, Love her music.

~

2009-06-30T23:18:00.002+08:00

today, i meet ling to bring her go make her specs as lester's shop at queensway.
then we proceed to the hair salon at the market at my house.
perm or rebond?
always the same question when i going to the salon.
and as usual. i did rebond.
LOL
just like the previous time.. which is just last year during new year [we did our rebond and dye at june's aunt salon]
this time same thing, i did a rebond and i cut the fringe as banks.
the only diff thing is that instead of dyeing my whole head red like previous time.
i highlighted it. .. still in red ... LOL
haha
no choice. RED is just so my color.
turn out looking like bernice's hair.
haha.
but pardon me. i did not copy her..
i already did my hair this way since last new year.
wahaha.

as for ling,
her hair turn from grass to feather.
haha
smooth and soft silky.
in fact my hair also become smooth soft silky.
ling hightlighted her hair copper bronze(am i right again?)
lol.
whatever. its is just a matching color to her current color(she dye it bronze in taiwan tgt with the perm that "grass"ed her hair)
and with the ending cut, her fringe is cut slanted to 1 side.

there is actually lots of diff package and brand for the chemical used.
we chose the better brand and package.
SPA REBOND. $159.
Highlight. $54. (mine is $54 + $10)adding in dunno what extra stuff to make my red more obvious.

we sat there from 3pm till 9pm.
ya. correct... its 6 hrs.
LOL

but happy to have the hair nice nice now.
oh.. and because of being at the salon,
i missed my RCIA class which is suppose to be at 8pm.
didnt expect to be at the salon for such long hrs.
so tired. fall asleep a couple of times.

thats all folk!.
update next time.

~

2009-06-30T02:05:00.002+08:00

Updates
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Last week is a Busy weekend for me

To start off, I will like to mention that Thurs is the end of my training and ready for the work to start anytime.
Tentatively, we know we should be starting work 1st july.
But i got a new today that the whole project will be delay. and our work will be delay too. will be postpone till 22nd July.
Will have to wait for further notice.

Then on Fri, its Lena's wedding day.
She is now officially MRS Tang.
the wedding dinner is at night.
buti went there early iwth jacky and edith.
cause jacky is the MC. and edith and me taking his car. so we went early
we had luch tgt then we go back to meet jacky.
and while the rest is having their rehearsal, jacky and edith need to go try out jacky suit for their wedding.
Jenn went with us as she got to go run some errands for the lena's wedding.
we went to settle lena's stuff 1st. cause its her wedding day.
then we went to try jacky suit.
then we get back to the wedding at fullerton.
its around 5pm already , at around 6pm, me and edith go dress up and get ready.
Thanks limei for making the nice hairdo for me.>Love Ya
Thanks edith for lending me the handbag
and Thansk julia for lendin me the necklace.. and of course
thanks both of you for being my fashion consultant.
LOL
Great job to all dancers (and their bf too).
The wedding ends kind of late.
and although we intend to do something afetr day. but to be frank i am so tired.
and the next day still got dance workshop.
so in the end we all went home.
limei went bernice house.
and aaron stayed at my house.
he played wii for teh whole night till next morning around 10am.
completing the whole siperman RPG game. plus continuing to play the mario sonic olympic game. [ i am a light sleeper. thast why i know].. LOL
i cannot tahan my tireness . therefore i wnet to sleep at 6am.
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Sat...
Workshops is at 1pm.
i wake up at 11am.
i know aaron just went to sleep.
so i only wake him up at 11.45
i intended to leave house at 12.
but in the end. we are almost late.
so we share a cab down and reach there abt 10 mins early.
and guess what we are the 1st to reach.

workshops ends around 5pm. we went back to xuan house and get ready for the appt that night.
its a belated birthday celebration with chonglin and gang (xuan sec friends)
we went to watch transformers II that night.
nice food at billy bombers, and Nice Movie.
the movie ends at 1230 plus.
by the time i reach home its around 1plus.
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Sun...
TBG 2009 @ Expo.
We arrange to meet at 6pm.
Xuan & leon come fetch me at around 4 plus 5pm. to her house.
then they change and get ready as morning they got another appt at bird park.
we left house at around 5 plus. and went to mac drive in to grab some food.
we reached expo at 630pm.
there are lots of ppl already there queuing.
The show is good. very good. damn good. DOPE.
Love All-Stars, WCO, Cool Mint, SD crew...
overseas crews and local crews.
Great show.
whole thingy ended at around 10 plus 11pm... am i right?. lol
then we went changi village for supper.

thats abt all for my weekend.

~

2009-06-21T04:13:00.014+08:00

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just doing some random browsing online and found out that nike got design a dance shoe specially for womens.
might be already out there for some time.
but no matter what, i just get to know abt this now.
and guess what...
i make a promise to myself.
i am going to get 1.

Nike Womens Air Troupe Mid Metallic Silver/Pink

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quoting from the web:
The "Nike Air Troupe Mid Women's Dance Shoe" was designed for women who like to get down on the dancefloor. After two years of research conducted in collaboration with Hip Hop dancers and b-girls of New York, LA , Paris, Seoul and Tokyo.

It was inspired by the Dunk or the Air Force One generally used by the dancers, but still much more flexible for greater flexibility of the foot. It also has a reinforced outer sole, a heel-slip surface and its opening on the back of the ankle; lighter thanks to its midsole. The Troupe can be completely customized with Nike ID as well.

The Nike Air Troupe Mid is the first shoe designed especially for hip hop dancers. The Air Troupe is deceivingly lightweight and flexible.
Features include: dance specific flex grooves in the sole, Nike Air technology, padded tongue, & raised center pivots for the most complex dance moves around!
It may not be the best looking sneaker around, but the tech specs more than make up for it.

Dancers need shoes, not just ballet dancers but all dancers!

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for nike store online- USA,
they can even customise the colors for the entire shoe in detail parts.
but not available outside USA. so sad.

i make sure i get 1..
no matter what colors.
....
..
very soon

~

2009-06-12T02:56:00.003+08:00

Its FRIDAY..
(Being Random)
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just now.. erm...
ok. thurs, ytd
after training, meet julia at jp for dinner.
then walk around.
ask julia to share with me the NEW YORK CHEESE CAKE.
LOL
cause its on promo.
the exact same cake we bought for limei bdae.

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last few week my schdeule is starting to get a little more occupied for me.
but thinking of my up coming stuffs..
i will change my mind and say that i am not that busy now. as YET.
-
updates of my past few weeks
mon: dance(Night)
tues: training @ IFW (DAY), RCIA @ church (Night)
wed: dance(Night)
thurs: training @ IFW (DAY), Masters class(Night)
fri: free
sat: 1st sat performace plus giving brochure....
2nd sat workshops plus limei bdae celebration
coming this is 3rd sat.

Busy weekend for me.

Appt List:
Fri
Dinner appt at PS. 6pm.

Sat
Danzpeople workshops 1230pm
I ling bdae dinner @ sakura 6pm

Sun
Performace at JW SRC 1230pm
Xuan's bdae picnic @ botanic garden
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next week, continue same schedule as above.
following week, starting mon 22nd, end of training, apprenticeship work officially starts.
I am getting prepare to work odd and long hours.
but at the same time, worried abt whether it will affect my dance and RCIA classes.

hope everything remain as it is. perfect. no change.

~

2009-06-05T02:39:00.005+08:00

latest choreo for dance class,
we learning Nobody by wondergirls.
will be added into 14th june Nanyang Family Day performance.

Quite interesting to do the dance with everyone.
And to see the Boys become Wonder Boys.
LOL.

below is a remix version of the song i found during my research for the Nobody".
Love the way it is being mix.
New Feel.

This gal is great.
She sing lots of songs in remix version.
I love her style. the way she 从新诠释 those songs.

Check her(Pumashock) out if you also like her style.

2009-05-31T00:37:00.002+08:00

Just got home

Today got a performance at JW SRC.
At the very beginning, the news we got its that the performance is in the morning.
and then the plan was to perform morning,give brochure for 2 hours then go wild wild wet.
no clash at all.
Then only last week that we found out its going to be at around 1.10pm.
So its either go give brochure or go wild wild wet.
since we nv confirm abt wild wild wet event, i agree to give brochure.
then last min. got enough ppl going wild wild wet again.
so i cant go give brochure.

But today, we finish our run through, our warm up etc. and we waited and waited. and still not going to perform yet.
we have another appt with julia to go to wild wild wet after perfromance.
never expect drag till around 2pm.
then finally we perform(i also dunno at what time). then we have a quick lunch(pizza ordered by jacky for all of us) and its abt 2.45pm.

Then still got to go back to xuan house to get her stuff for wild wild wet.
but we all so tired. we reach her house at 3pm.
then i called julia(already waiting since 1.30pm at JP), mentioning that why not we not go. as the time travel and etc. at the end will have no time to really enjoy.
why not meet up with the rest and do something else.
In fact she already sms leon awhile b4 i call her. mentioning abt the same thing.
but still from the phone i can sense her down tone.
She ask us to meet up with jacky they all 1st and will call me later after she done at JP.

Xuan leon me. went all the way back to JW SRC.
We plan that we will go give brochure and meet at clementi for ktv.
so off we go to giving out the brochure.
xuan leon at JP.
edith me bernice at clementi.
we meet up with xuan and leon for dinner at clementi and while waiting for jacky, we went to song & song to shop for shorts/pants for dance. and after which we wnet to check out the KTV.
and we realise too ex for singing on sat.

then we decide to find a place sit and talk and drink water.
then we really settle down at mos burger.
then jacky came and the 6 of us talk talk talk talk.... till 12am.
Abt all sorts of things...funny and interesting... and its ends with with bernice's laughter and jacky own pronounciation word list.
LOL~~~~

Its quite happening for all plans to go wrong but still in the end make it a happy day.

~
Dunno if you all do realise that every time when you have a appt, most stuff tend to be clashing on the same day.
~

2009-05-13T02:58:00.009+08:00

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人

-----
这个世界有很多种人。
不同皮肤，不同种族，不同语言。
更有上千百亿万种不同性格之分。

有些人，你刚开始很讨厌他。
但相处久了，却发现他其实很不错。

有些人，你刚开始觉得他是个好人。
但日子久了，却发现他其实是个大烂人。

还有一些人，从一开始就很讨厌他，
而希望时间久了，你会发现他的好。
但事实上，不管过了多久，或是你发现他有多少优点，你始终还是看他不顺眼。

有些人天真得让你好气又好笑，
有些人心计重得让你觉得可怕。

有时、人会在无意间做一些让你不开心或对不起你的事，但他纯粹是无心之失。
可是这世上也有人会刻意地做一些让你不开心或对不起你的事，那却是经过精心策划的。

人、说有多可爱就有多可爱；说有多恐怖就有多恐怖。

其中，有几分是真，几分是假。
只有人自己才清楚。

但，你清楚吗？

~

2009-05-12T23:00:00.004+08:00

Got my new specs today.
Same design as huiling's,
we went to make it tgt.
but color diff of course.

But i not very used to it.
i mean my eyes.
too Bright for me.
the optometrist say need some time to get used to the new specs.
for those who often use computer, might need even longer time.
i tried wearing it just now, and i feel like as if i am drunk.
dizzy and headache.

damn.
shall try again tmr.

Thank you yaxin for helping me choos ethe speca and intro me her friend's shop.
Thanks Lester for this offer.

~

2009-05-12T02:27:00.003+08:00

why is there this kind of ppl?
treat strangers as if you know there very well and treat family members like maids and personal assistant

please do think hard. and make it clear.
we are not the one who betray you...
instead, you are the one who is doing it the wrong way now.
$ is not everything . thats very true.
but then why are you so calculative towards family members and so generous to strangers?
you jolly well know we are not working now and dun have much savings.
does it ever come to your mind that you need to give home allowance?
did you ever think of returning the $ for the mis-use of loan for MLM?
especially the HALF of that amount that is already been refund.
why is it not return to mother but into your pocket?

i cant say i have no responsibility over that matter.
but taht not the main point now. cause i did bear that debt in mind and will return once i have the ability.
You might say you also think of it....
but judging by the situation now,
you dun even give home allowance even when i reminded you.
so you think will you remember that loan and Half of amount?

I learn more things as i slowly turn older.
and there are good and bad things.
i realise what i want is simple and
i realise this family is selfish.
dun blame me for being selfish.
cause i live in a family like this.
i can totally understand why the incident in USA happened at that time.
Cause in some ppl eyes i am selfish and do things my ways occasionally OR
in fact maybe most of the time but i did not realise then.
When i finally try and change to be more sensitive and be considerate for ppl,
i found myself being make use of.
and when i try to balance both,
i suddenly discover that. NO.
i shouldnt do that.
I am totally confused.

I really do think i have split personallites.\
But due to my very well control of my 脑前叶(frontal lobe) , that is why i can keep both to balance very well.
I really cant imagine what will happen if 1 day, i just cant help it anymore.
I really need to get out of this.

I give up on this family and from now on, its only me i am going to think of.
and friends of course. they did not do anything wrong to me..so i will still be loyal.

人生哲学RULE No. 1: Pay back 10 times of what you get.

p/s: not in terms of $ la

~

2009-04-28T19:31:00.002+08:00

Once again its emo time.

hey, i am not a free labour.
although i am free at home, doesnt mean i have to help do those editing and let you make use of it to earn $.
for designers and editors, all these works and time spent is assets.
we shouldnt be doing for free.
please do really understand this Fact.
i have already do those design for free during my time at work. which is not my job scope and in the 1st place i should be paid for it. but nv.since its over, i close 1 eye and just tell myself to learn from the lesson.
but again, i stupidly make the smae mistake again.
i have already sent the original work out. and even if further editing need to be done to it for other usage, the new worker should be the 1 doing it.
if want me to do it, its another deal.
make it clear, that cd cover and label,is also not included in the video editing job scope.
Yes ,... it is just simple editing and given that i have the original working files[ as i am the priginal creator of that design] it should be even a easy job for me.
But i still need to spend time doing it.
whats more, after i done it then more changes came in. which mean i have to redo and spend even more time on it.
why not mention all things from the start . why waste my time.

I know my biggest problem is.........
i dunno how to say NO.

but true friends wont make use of me.
Dont you see you becoming more like S-11.
He also making use of those who is useful to him.
You might say you are innocent and that you just dunno this multimedia market work this way.
But now i am telling you straight and i hope you stop making use of me.
if you want do it business way, then please do it throughly.
stop using friends for business purpose.
Think of how ppl contribute and help you,
you should also give back some benefits.
the earth is not just turning upon you as the centre.

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OK.
Given the fact that i am the one who is stupid enough to make the same mistake over and over again.
and Considering the possibilities that she might not be really having that(making use of ppl) in mind(although in fact she already did it without realising.
I will just let this rest.

But please.... we are all human. please do consider my feelings.

~

2009-04-22T12:53:00.002+08:00

watching Jap drama- Ghost Friends. Ep1.
seems not bad.
after relaxing so long, its also time to THINK.

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confused abt what i should choose.
to go on the course/programme full-time, getting low-pay as apprentice[total of 6 mths but the course is free-sponsored] OR
to wait for replys for resume i sent [without pay while waiting, but if i got the job will be of course of higher pay than being apprentice]

Next step/ decision to make will be whether i should go take up the 1 yr full-time dip... although sponsor by WDA still must put total of abt $8600+.
really interested in the dip but when i grad with that and work in that area, will not be as high pay for a new grad as compare to what i might be already be working as.
wanted to put that aside and not choose now. but the WDA sponsor might end anytime.

What do i really want?
I have got no idea.
stable salary with fix schedule and doing something that is not that boring. best if i am interested in it.
i guess thats abt what i want in a job.

the 1st programme i mention is 6 mths. its neither very long nor short period of time. many things can happen / change.
but i am really not confident i can get a job i want in 6 mths.
then again i got to worry that i still do not have a stable income,CPF and savings.
i have nth.
makes me worry.
....
confused...
................
thinking...
pondering.........
...........

~

2009-04-19T21:04:00.002+08:00

Still as sick.

my mother asking try chinese physician instead.
so i finally tried it.
seems not bad.
but to know whether its does cure me. will need some time to show.

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stop irritating me..
you are not the only one who is right.
i am not your personal assistant.
if you want to pay your bill at the very last min, and cant even give me instructions clearly. and become uncontactable.
then dun come back and make it seems like its my fault.
saying that i should call you long-distance when you nv reply sms.
or saying sms cant get through and as if i will know that too.
you jolly-well can ask me pay for you earlier and not last min.

By the well. i am doing you a favor.
and AGAIN. i got to state: I am not you Personal Assistant.
and i dun always passby the AXS machine and ATM.

I am not trying to be selfish or as if i cant even help do a simple task.
but please do not make it sounds like i owe you that.

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2009-04-17T00:04:00.003+08:00

SICK again
why so sway..
just started work for only 1 week

thinking back and analysing the condition
i think i nv really get well since the concert.
i just seems to be ok liao. but deep inside the body .
the virus is still not totally clear yet.

thats why during new year, relapse again. then.
seems to be better and cure.
then now another relapse.
keep coughing. at night cant sleep well as i will just keep coughing.
morning need to clear the throat and nose as i will feel as if something is stuck there.
cant talk much. as i will tend to feel the condition getting worse if i speak too much.

really need to rest well to regain the body immune system.
i use to be very healthy.
seldom got flu or cough or fever.
but since the concert period. i have been coughing and having flu, lost of voice . on and off.
this seems to show that my body immune system is no longer strong and what it used to be.

i have to get better and regain the body immune system fast.
if not, this will really affect my work in future..
lucky now i am working part time and i can just take off and stop work.
but its does still affect the work and colleagues.

I am so sorry.
but i am really not feeling very well.
i dun mean to sabo you all for this job.
hope i can get well fast and thenget back to finish up the project.
feel so guilty.

2009-04-09T12:28:00.004+08:00

at work
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currently working part time as telemarketer.
project-based.
this current project i dealing with is for abt 3 weeks.
not really my cup of tea.
probably wont continue with the next project.
but i got to mention that the colleagues here are all very nice.

meanwhile sending resumes, looking for job.
preferred digital media, multimedia
but dun mind dealing with events, customer services.

if got any lobang .. pls inform me. thanks

enough of updates. then it will be my complaints time.
those who not interested can stop here.

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from now on.
i can go for the extra dance class.
just because she accidentally realise i going that class.
but.. everyone else is also going extra class.
not only me..
so dun treat it as if i am the only 1 "zhan pian yi".
actually also no " zhan" any " pian yi"
all learning same thing. just getting extra chance to use studio to practice more on the "same steps
dunno why must so kaykao.

if want kaykao then i also can kaykao.
... long stories.....
i know... no matter what.. its a business...
but cannot be all good things you BAO.
then ppl no benefits at all.
if want kaykao law by law then i also can do that from all the work i done.

Greed is one of the biggest sin in this world.
pls do think again, if greed is more important than.....blah... many stuff...
what will be you be left at the end of the day.

I realise that point just not long ago.
what i want now is just a stable job that i dun really hate or better if i like it.
Dance while i still can.
earn an amount that is enough to pay off my debt, bills, insurance, daily life and some savings.
Just nice will be enough. dun need too much..
Happy will be the no.1 point i am looking at now.
i wont want to earn alot.. but dragging myself to work everyday. and always moody and stress.

2009-03-29T11:31:00.003+08:00

*YAwn*.
still sleepy. but got to get up.
cause later going expo robinson sales

fast updates:
Fri is my graduation day.
Got to wake damn early to get to school.
That very night. i sleep and 8pm and wake 8am the next morning.
Anyway, i finally graduated. Whats next?
LOL.
Sat... which is ytd. went to watch Grrove in the West Hiphop competition at West Coast Plaza. GOt 40 groups sia.
When we reach there is abt the 4th group liao[ i think].
I uploaded 10 of the groups' video.
still got a few with xuan.
my cam batt die on me so i cant record all.
xuan's cam got no more memory space. so also cant record more.
LOL
Semi finals on 11th April. Those who free can go down.
But sad thing is i wont be free.

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recently i am suffering from insomia.
whats happening.
i am so FREE.
slacking at home.
and i am suffering from insomia?.
WHY?
my mother keep asking why i always sleep so late.
but thats only because i need to lie on the bed like abt 1 hour to fall asleep.
and through the night i will keep flipping.
I am a light-sleeper but previously i can still sleep at night without flipping so much.
Must be the stress from not working.[ i guess]

....
got to STOP.
and think of the happy shopping later.
[ ... but try to not spend so much on useless stuff..]

2009-03-17T00:25:00.003+08:00

WARNING*****
NO advices nor solutions needed.

incoming hard-feelings
do not continue reading
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confuse~@@~

what is right and what is wrong.
is there a defination?
does it mean that things that you think is wrong.
you will nv do it? OR
there are times where you have to do it even if you know its wrong.

No 1 forcing you.
YES. thats very true.
BUT the situation is forcing you.
things that relates is forcing you.
your heart is forcing you even if your brain tells you the other.
the surroundings factors are forcing you.

Its all abt making choices.
but why cant i say NO.
when i say NO, ppl blame me.
but when i say YES.
anything that happens next is all my responsibilities.

Why is it so unfair?
Why am i so soft-hearted?
Why cant i bring myself to say NO?
Why my mouth say NO. but my action is still being force to do it?
Why must force me?

I just want to be normal.
I just want to be clear from it.
I dun wish to risk my future.
No 1 can promise nth will happen.
I just want to be able to sleep soundly at night.

Who is going to help me when things really happens?
The answer will be NO ONE.
Ppl will say: " You make the choice yourself and no 1 force you. You can say NO. It your responsibilities to know what you have to bear in the end."

WHY CANT LEAVE ME ALONE?

WHY ARE YOU ALL NOT HELPING ME?

AM I HELPING PPL OR AM I JUST PURLY HURTING MYSELF?

I DUN LIKE THIS FEELING.

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2009-03-10T00:56:00.010+08:00

Hmm.
I have not been posting for almost coming to a mth.
Basically cause nth special to talk abt.
But here are some recent updates and random thoughts.
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Currently working on a freelance project for DP.
editing the concert video[basic editing only. more can be done if requested]
but with just the basic editing requirement. there is already alot of work.
Not difficult but alot.
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Overstrained my arm during dance all due to the injuries on my elbow from the falling of stair previously.
Elbow still pain then using more power on left arm. and over strain.
Damn.
During cold weather. especially recently raining alot.
ankle, knee cap. all feel the pain. [Rheumatism]

[Injuries List]-only includes from after sec 4 onwards, by sequence.
Left lower last rib
Left ankle
Left knee cap
Left thumb
Right albow
Left arm

Haiz.............
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Haven found a job yet.
To think again.
If i dun have any basic expectation for my job. i can simply find any job and there is quite a handful outside even when the market is not good.
But i believe that it is due to the qualification and expectation for the job and what kind of career/ job we going to work for etc, that make us hard to find a job.
For me. given the certs i have and the actual skills that i possess, it is totally not equivalent.
PPL/ Bosses/ Companies tot i am a IT person. knows how to program.
But actually i took mostly multimedia electives when i am in poly. and in SIM, i only know how to do basic Arts work for games.
Programming i cant do it. Arts i am not good enough.
What can i do?
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Last time i dun like blogging.
Cause i feel.

Blogging = tell ppl things you want them to know = selective informations about yourself = some true, some might not be true.

but i still start to blog after awhile.
cause i slowly feel that there is still a need to give recent updates of myself to friends from pri, sec, poly, uni etc.
As we move on to another part of our life, chances to meet/ keep in contact with friends are really rare.
So blogging is a good way to know whats going on in your friends life.

But again to be frank.
I dunno how others blog.
But according to myself, like i mention above.
I only blog abt things i want ppl to know abt.
I dun blog abt some other things.....
Some feelings and thoughts going through my mind every now and then.
Thats also why recently i nv blog. cause i got nth to say.

but in fact there is a lot going on in my mind.

So i have decided.
From now on. whatever i feel or think of at that moment.
I will blog [provided i remember].
Its going to be a totally NEW STYLE for the way i blog.
I am going to treat it as if no 1 is reading.
From now on

My Blog = as if no 1 is reading = my private diary = writing everything that i can think of and going through in my mind = Unselective Informations = to speak the truth, all the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth

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2009-02-18T14:30:00.002+08:00

My latest Fav Song on my Playlist.
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Mei You Ru Guo MV - Liang Jing Ru

2009-02-12T19:29:00.004+08:00

SWAY DAY..

Fall from Stairs AGAIN.

Dunno why i always fall from stairs..
3rd time in my Life.
this time is the stairs in ShengSiong Mart.
and i landed on my back.
my right elbow straight away got i big patch of Blue-Black.
my lower back got big area of red patch. probably going to be blue-black too.

Damn.

Very pain. Hope no internal injuries.

So Far, i feel the elbow more painful.

..................
SWAY

2009-02-02T12:31:00.005+08:00

Finally free to Update
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Nothing much since the last post. therefore, i will jump straight to CNY.

CNY is damn boring this year.
why is that so?.
cause of recession?
cause its came too soon right after x mas and new year?

2 day before new year, suddenly caught a FLU.
then day 1 suddenlt on "hold" then day 3 FLU back again.... weird

Day 1
As usual,
went to 3rd uncle house... bring vcd to ktv.
my uncles and auunt went to our 姑婆 house without informing us.
so in the end we just stay in the house whole day.
At night, i went to xuan house, as we want to have other plans for the night.
In the end, movie is out, mahjong is out.
We went Lan Gaming- Left 4 Dead.
It is fun. but i cant play 1st player shooter game for long due to the 1st perspective view.
hence, i got serious headache and i feel like vomiting.
they played for 1 more round and the shop its going to close too.
Then we left.

Day 2
Go 3rd uncle house AGAIN.
stay there whole day AGAIN.
vcd and ktv AGAIN.
went back to xuan house, have dinner.
played PEEK, watched studioDanz showcase '08 DVD.
stayed overnight at xuan house.

Day 3
Work @ DP.

Day 4
Meet francis and leon , go sentosa photo shoot for Sentosa flowers festival.
The sun is damn hot.. and we went during 12-3 plus pm.
Got a little sun burn.
Evening meet emily. suppose to go running. but all of us is damn tired. And i need open door for DP. So in the end, they sat down and we talk.
Ate Malteses and leon said must "Suck" it to taste better.
so i do so..
and who knows... the next day...

Day 5
Sore throat and headache.
All thanks to the malteses and sun.
But i still insist i go for work at DP cause its the last day.

Day 6
Getting more sick.
Cancel all appt to stay home--Alone.
Sorry my dearest TAS and TASA for not able to attend CSM.
Sorry my JUDO peers for not going JUDO.
Sorry to my Aunts for not joining them for Lunch appt.
Sorry to EMILY and LEIA for not going for MODERN.
Sorry to my Sec Clan for not joining the gathering at Ms Lam House.

Day 7
Feeling so much better
Got to go kaiqi house.. long planned.
suppose to meet 130pm. in the end push to 3pm.
so i meet huiling at JP 2pm to settle our stuff then go meet kaiqi.
Played Wii...Mario Sonic Olympics damn fun.
Thanks Marie helped me to massage my stiff shoulders and it helps alot for my headache.
So hungry.. but all heaty and fried food.
No choice. i eat..
Dinner at her house with sec Clan.
Curry,Bee hoon,french loaf bread, chicken wing.
Back home. my throat was DYING.
DAMN DAMN DAMN PAIN.
probably the only way to let you understand how pain its to put a fish bone or needle into your throat.
Thats how pain i am now.

DAY 8- TODAY
Going to see a doc later. cause i wake late at 12pm. its clinic lunch time.
Cleared my nose and realise my mucus from white become green and in lump.
Meaning i am getting over heaty. and Yes. i do feel i am on heat all over.
And i feel pain when i try to speak.
Should be the 2ND time i going to lost my voice.
Doubt i can go dance tonight.
almost 2 weeks nv dance already.
Whole body feeling weird.
i want to dance.
.. but i know i am too sick..
i should concentrate to get well soon. to be able to dance asap and for upcoming gatherings... job interviews.. etc

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2009-01-18T19:20:00.004+08:00

1st time so early home on a SUN.
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Time for updates
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WED--->Work at JW
as usual.. nth to say.

Thurs , meet up with emily to go VT get her keys.
While b4 that i went Sim lim to buy my new Camera.
->Canon ixus 80[brown] reserved by steven[june's bf]'s friend named BEN[Qingli].
LOL
Love my new "toy".
Then after VT, we going to meet limei and john for gym.
Then just when we are abt to reach, john sms us to inform that whole SRC and gym closed due to their annual dinner & dance.
-.-"
but nvm. We still meet up with jacky at JW. cause emily need to learn the high school musical choreo for her school mass dance workout every fri morning.
Me and limei joined in and learn it too.
Then all of us realise that its too simple that all 3 of us got problem with the steps.
WAHAHA.

Then john came back from JP[he from JW-JP-JW]. Then we went for dinner at nihon mura.
After which, its the breaking class which got only 6 of us.
Me, Xuan, Limei, Emily, John, Sean.
We learn some foot work, the steps are not easy ok.
then its the freeze. Shoulder freeze till i got bruise on my shoulder.
and head freeze till my head got BALUKU.
which reminds me of my hk mini head freeze and BALUKU.

Then its fri----> WORK @ JW.
nth much too.. usual stories.

SAT
morning went judo.
kim too tired so cant wake on time.
in the end i went in tjeon car to RI.
Amanda drove me home after that.\
By then its already 2.30pm.
Then i took a short nap. Left house @3.30pm.
almost late for MODERN @ 4pm.
Emily and Rachel joined me for MODERN too.
Then we went down to Aaron house while rachel need to continue working.

AT aaron's house.
his house is amazing.
Got KTV ok.
really can select songs accordingly.
Then of course its the nice food. Curry and bread plus chicken wings and bee hoon.
His mother can sing really very well. Got lots of trophies and achievements inside the glass cabinet.
Then we played cludeo.Which is very diff from mine version.
And the new version is so many nicer in design.
New design, new rules, new list, more weapons, more cards
Totally Newly Integrated Version.
Who won? Its JOHN.. heard from aaron he won the previous time too.
Anw, by the time we finish teh game its 10.30 pm.
got to leave early as still got to work at JW the next day...
Which is TODAY.

Last Sun i run 2 branch. JW - TJ - JW.
Today i predict will also have to do that.
And just like what i guess, i morning at JW, afternoon go down to TJ.
But i only work till 6pm at TJ. Thats why i am home early.

I went to market to walk walk,
Deposit the cheques,
Go get the telephone- 2 line spliter.
Buy Little Nonya pack 2 for my mother.
The TS gal was irritating.
When i use my mother TS membership card.
She look at me as if i am stealing someone's card.
Halo. i patronize them to buy so many HK vcds OK.
She forget nvm.
But HEY. do i look like a baddies?
I told them JP let me use the card and redeem the points and i sign on my mother behalf. They insist NO initially. then they see my irritated face. and i wanted to call my mother. Then another bigger "rank" sales came and said . its ok..
In the end, i got my voucher redeem.
I am paying anyway. not as if i redeem and get the vcd free and run away.
I bought 2 more other shows.
Sleeping beauty-disney 50 ann edition
The Eagle Shooting Heroes
[In fact it should be call - The Legend of Condor Heroes 射鵰英雄傳]
China,HK,TW combine version-2008

BUT NOW... i damn angry...
I really cannot tahan my mother.
The say she wants the little nonya.
i want go buy my vcd. so i bought it for her.
then now she ask abt dunno what free gift with teh show.
how will i know when the sales nv mention and she nv told me when i bought the pack 1.
She is always annoy over some simple stuff like no no free gift .. when it is not even my fault.
Then she said she want buy it herself why i go buy for her.
DUn buy kena scold. BUY also kena scold.
IDIOT..........
很难伺候.

i so damn tired from work. come back still must listen to her nagging.
i know when and how to do my own stuff.
Dun need her keep nagging.
it is VERY VERY VERY VERY IRRITATING.
i believe i am going to go crazy and have mental problem very soon.
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2009-01-13T00:54:00.002+08:00

today actually wanted to do lots of things.

but i make a wasted trip to jp. cause i though go there in the evening then go straight for dance. but i forgot its peak hours.
So i spent quite some time there. without getting much things done
or rather, the things i settle or not my personal stuff.

i nv manage to get my things done. and the queue is damn long everywhwere

the ticket office for changing ezlink, popular, ATM, buses...

Then i made limei wait for me very long.
Sorry Dear.

Then had dinner with limei.
on the way back for class.
Then saw her.
Scare me for a moment. thought she joining our class.
later i tio heart attack sia.
Then realise 1 more fact.......*secret-Sensitive*

Finish learning Elevator today.
got bruise all over my knee cap.
Damn.
At the same time, me xuan julia make the studio floor all over with black "strips" with our adidas shoe- black soles... due to friction.
But lucky its is removable la.
LOL

Light Supper at the market with xuan leon julia
Update them with INTERESTING stories

Back home

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2009-01-11T21:53:00.021+08:00

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My Dog - Chilli [ Female,Silky Terrier, Age-abt 3 to 4 yrs.]
My bro bought it 2nd-hand from his friend. And he dunno any info abt the dog.
Ketchup & Tomato:
23rd birthday present from a friend ,using "Make a Bear" Vouchers

Wasabi:
24th birthday present from my Hiphop Gang

Mustard from Ocean Park HK [got it by playing "bull eyes"],
Mayonnaise from 7-11 Mart.

Family photo without Chilli. As chilli dun really like to pose for pictures.

2009-01-10T13:19:00.003+08:00

I always cannot remember, 主観 in english is Subjective or Objective?
So i must make a point to remember.

主観 is Subjective.
pertaining to or characteristic of an individual; personal; individual: a subjective evaluation.

Objective
Uninfluenced by emotions or personal prejudices: an objective critic.

I learnt 1 more new word.
Procrastinate
To put off doing something, especially out of habitual carelessness or laziness.
To postpone or delay needlessly.

OK. I shall not procrastinate.
I will have to get my things done.
Chinese new year is coming. i dun have much time.

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Tidy room
Categorize my stuffs
Buy new year clothes
Find a job
Do more dance
Slim down
Do my multimedia portfolio
Go holiday
Learn Guitar
Learn Drums
Find a Career
Find a BF
Revamp my Room
Continue to Slim down

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Why is there only 24hrs in a day?.
Why do we have to spend so many hrs sleeping?
I wish someone invent a Teleport Machine so that we dun waste time travelling around.
Why is everything increasing in price but PAYROLL nv ever increase?
I wish i can be financial free. I promise to do lots of good deeds with the $ i have.
I wish i can find a career which is also my hobby so that i will enjoy going to work everyday.
I wish i had someone who really understands me without me saying a word.

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2009-01-09T22:19:00.002+08:00

random
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feeling curious, create wordpress.
cause it can set individual post to private and other post to public.
Can blogspot do so. Maybe can but i dunno abt it.
Wordpress doesnt seems user friendly, will try to figure out how to use before moving to it totally.

Sianz
Last min got to work tmr.
Helping rachel cover her shift.
Anw i will be there for modern trial so nvm la.
Just help whatever i can lo.

Double Sianz.
Got to postpone my things again due to work tmr.
Always got to keep postponing my stuff.
By when can i get it done then?

Feeling Emo.
Must be as usual...
I know.
So... i must control...

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2009-01-08T20:18:00.002+08:00

Updates of this week.
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Mon 5th Jan 09
As usual, stay home, at night go dance.
Jacky continue teaching Elevator.
Its fun.

Tues 6th Jan 09
Meet Limei go IMM buy her IPzone Stuff.
Saw BodyShop Discounts.
But i manage to control and not buy anything.
Continue with itinerary to meet John and Leon @ JE 3.45pm.
Going down California Fitness tgt for the free 2 week unlimited trial.

At 1st, all of us very excited abt it.
but the sales promoter was kind of irritating.
Probably due to those slimming centre and MLM experiences,
Leon and Me was sort of Immune to these.
So we are not affected by him.
We only care and know 1 thing in mind.. we dun intend to join at all.
we just want the 2 weeks free trial.
But the sales keep beating round the bush acting he dun understand our hint and
in his words, i feel that he forcing and insist that we join b4 giving us trial.
Then a 2nd promoter came. and he is so much better. if he was the 1st to serve us, he probably understand what we want and issue us those pass straight away..
Dun even have to waste his time, waste our time.
The 2nd promoter talk to us for less than a 5 mins and he said wanna issue us those pass for trials.
But by then, Limei and John was kind of turn off totally already.
So as we went in as a group, i insist we decide as a group and so we left without
going trial.

Then we went HK cafe for dinner. i can finally use my card for point and my voucher.
I forgot that the vocher is not free voucher. it is a cash voucher.
Previously i pay that amount and i got it in voucher back and at the same time get the member card.
So i used the $10 voucher for the bill and i still pay $20 for the dinner.
So total i pay $30 and told myself, since everyone out to dinner tgt then nvm la..
As long as everyone full and happy.
Thats all that matters.
Dun misunderstand. I am not rich.

Anw, we are kind of late for class. especially limei.
So we seperate into 2 cab and get ourselves down to TJ for masters class.
We only realise that it is Girly instead of Breaking.
And it was reallly FUN.
Next week -Masters class back to thurs
but i dunno what style will it be for next week.

Wed 7th Jan 09
As usual, Whole day work at DP.
settle quite a few stuff.
Limei Emily John Rachel meeting for gym.
So sad i working cannot join them.
Hiphop class @7pm only 4 came. 3 terminating.
Just happen that edith return me my shorts.
Therefore i join in for the class.
The 8pm class doing "Ben & Jerry".
I nv join in cause need to settle some work and close acc.
the gang came down after their dinner to have a look but left shortly.
As usual, jacky sent me home.
Really thank him for that.

Today
Thurs 8th Jan 09
Wake up late.
Bring Chilli for grooming.
The pet shop owner told me chilli is on heat.
I nv even realise.
I am such a bad owner.
I really need trainings on that.
I dunno what to do when she is sick.
the pet shop owner also nv advise me.
and i cant force chilli to drink more water like what a human will do.
Back home, I finally start tidying my room.
Not really looking into the things . but rather just sort and put it on to the shelves.
At least now its is better.[ still a bit messy la.. but better]
probably need another 2 days to clear.

Feel very sleepy the whole day.
and very hungry for the past few days..
Ya.. i know what it means..

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2009-01-08T00:26:00.007+08:00

Cassie-Is It You
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I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you
And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there, Wants to share, shows he cares Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for
Is it you? is it you? Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you? Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? (Could you be?)
Could you be the one I need?
I'm looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)
Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with through the night
Someone who I can trust who's heart is right And I'm looking for someone
And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always Baby I like to have you in my way And I'm looking for someone who takes me there, Want to share, shows he cares Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for
Is it you? is it you? Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you? Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? Could you be the one I need?
Take for grant How much I care (How much I care)
And appreciates that I'm there Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of thought to share
Is it you? is it you? Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you? Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? Could you be the one I need?

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Youtube- Cassie_Is It You

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2009-01-07T00:26:00.003+08:00

Confused feelings
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recently the problem of $ come hard on me again.
in fact all along, the problem is there. but somehow i managed to solved.
But as time goes by, interm of my passion for dance, the bond with the dance mates,
the fun i had etc. I wanted to do dance even more.

Then .. this is where problem rise to the TOP.
Mon class $180 per term.
Masters $100 per term.
Modern $180 per term.
Studio Wu $180 per 3 mths.
Judo $15 per mth.

In terms of per mth, i need pay ~~$230.
I does not have a job now. i only working part time... while looking for jobs and working on port folio.
and i only earn last than $400 per mth.

I still need to pay my insurance which is $75 per mth.
and i still need to eat, transport, entertainment..
not even considering of having any savings yet.

as for JOBs. what kind of jobs can i look for?
i am really LOST.
i thinking might as well go do gov job for 2 years and then see how.
market is not good now anw.

$, career, life

I really hope i am still a student.

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I am really glad that i had the company of my dance mates.
Whenever with them. I can forget my troubles for that moment.

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conclusions?

FOR now, i dun join Judo,Studio Wu,Modern.
I just go mon and masters.
Quickly decide on a plan for job.
Tidy my room for new year.
Bring chilli for Grooming on Thurs.

Other stuffs/plans will have to wait till i find my job 1st.
example:
Whether need stop DP work?
Join Judo ,Studio Wu, Modern.
Work on my port folio.
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2009-01-04T21:22:00.002+08:00

Yesterday
Sat 3rd Jan 2009 - Sentosa Outing with DP Gang
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We arrange to meet 10am at JP for Brunch. Then planned to be at sentosa by noon.
But ya.. we are late in our itinerary. haha
We ate Long john breakfast at jp then around 12 we left jp.
By the time we reached sentosa, its erm... lost count of time.

Anyway, we took damn long to settle down. Then we started playing frisbee. Each of the team win once.
Then we started playing Twister. Newly bought by John from toy'r'us in the morning.
Its very fun.
Xuan leg was stuck in between john and edith.
and julia literally sat on limei legs while she is doing her splits.
And i was in a position as if i am doing squats.
The losers of each round[who is julia and edith] got to do forfeit.
The forfeit- take the twister mat, use it as scarf and run to the next person on the other side of beach,fitting into the theme of a romance story. The next person got to run back the this side of the beach in the same "romantic" way.
Both of them are really funny. especially julia.

We started taking pictures. lots of pictures.
All of them are in bikinis and guys with top off.and because of some reason, me and julia nv take off our top.
Till its so hot that i cannot tahan then i went to 7-11.
And when i am finally back and intend to take off my top and join the gang in water.

I heard leon shorting aaron is injured.
Aaron slip off the rocks. and had some abrasions and a big cut on his toe.
I quickly ask aaron to lie down and lift his right leg and right arm.
As we do not have any antiseptic with us, edith faster went to look for the lifeguard to look for 1st aid box.
we waited a while and they are still not back.
So me and xuan went to islandlife to borrow the 1st aid box.
when we are back, we saw the nurse there trying to "help".. She is indeed very "helpful".
She not only argue with aaron, she even talk to us in a nasty way.
And she wrap the wound into a very ugly looking "bun"
and when we request to treat other smaller wounded areas.
She is like.... " that 1 nvm la"
Ya.. but halo, at least clean it la.

Its abt 5pm by then. we all sat down and started talking for a while b4 we packed up and go bath.
Aaron was like a king as he is piggy-backed by leon and john help him wash his hair.
LOL
we actually think he ahould still go see a doc to get injections and see whether the wound needs to be stitch.
But aaron insist tht he is hungry and will like to eat 1st.
So we all went vivo kopitiam to eat dinner. and john sent him back.

The rest of us decided to go watch movie-bedtime stories.
And anyway. it is not very nice. it is just OK. but my advise is not to watch it at night when you are really tired.. if not it will really be the bedtime stories for you.LOL.....

After movie. its 1 plus and i gave john a call to check on aaron status.
He got injections and 2 stitches.
Which means he is ok and the wound is not that bad.
As least he is fine now.
He really scared the hell out of us.

It is just too sad that he will not be able to join us for our studio wu plan and our weekly dance classes for awhile.
My advise: Lets all be really careful next time. safety 1st when playing. Dun ever cross out any possibility that you will be hurt in any ways.

By the time we reach home after movies, its already 2am. i nv even unpack any stuff. i just drop dead" on my bed. LOL.
Thats because i still have to work this morning at DP.
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4 Jan 09
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Today work at DP was fun too.
Since morning.. or rather noon. i had the company of rachel. she came to help as asst teacher for crystal class.
Then she got ballet at 5pm. therefore she did not go home.
Then Limei came in at 2.30 for her G8.
From 4pm till 5pm, we all are like crazy playing, laughing.
Me and limei was fighting over the msn and we actually make the "B" key on the keyboard flip out.
Then we look at the photos on facebook, added by julia.
Its so DAMN Funny lo.
LMAO.
I put some interesting comments on the picture of Julia and limei.
Damn Funny.

At the end of class, we look at the concert photos tgt. adn the ballerinas were very excited over their photos.

HAHA.

Its such a fun day.

Tmr no work.
Got to clean room.
Go Market.
Book tickets for BREAKOUT
Go dance at night.

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2009-01-01T20:18:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!
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Ytd the hiphop gang went to rachel's house for bbq cum 2009 countdown.
Her father cook really good,nice and delicious food.
That was the best BBQ i had ever.

Heard that her father was a b-boy last time.
And he is such a interesting father.
He even said want to move the dining table away and let us use the area[with giant-full length mirrors] for dancing. LOL
Of course he is just joking.

Its so hot after bbq and lucky i went limei's house to bath.
Suppose to go there get DP's keys and borrow novel from her. Instead i bath and forgot all abt it.

Back at Rachel's place, We played Wii and PS3- Guitar hero at Rachel's house.
Damn fun.

We played till abt 5 plus 6 am.
and we started to gather at the sofa and watch twilight.
many of us watched it b4. and we cant help but to fall asleep.
but all of us wake this morning @ 8 plus.
and we went mac for breakfast.

We ate and continue talking and discussing abt the sat sentosa trip itinerary.
cum watching "Breakout" tgt cum going studio wu for classes.
And then we all realise its already 11plus 12pm.
All of us become " Spongebob Squarepants"[Bottoms become flat for sitting so long.]
LOL.

I went limei house again to get teh Keys and novel i suppose to get the previous night.
Then i finally get home at 12plus. Tired but happy.

Then i decided to sleep 1st. to gain back my rest.
Jacky sms and call me at the same time.
regarding our plan to go studio wu.

Finally i get to sleep and i wake at 6pm.
Had my dinner.
And now its 8.30pm. and i am blogging here.
I haven really update on my chalet and DP dinner yet.
LOL
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2008-12-29T22:36:00.011+08:00

finally.. i have enough rest
and i have the mood to blog abt my trip, chalet, company dinner etc etc.
Dated 17th Dec 2008 - 27th Dec 2008

Lets start with the trip.
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HK Trip [macau-hk-gz]
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17th dec 10am,
we all gather at budget terminal, checking in and taking lots of photos.
Limei and Bernice came to send us off too.
They are so cute. they insist on pulling the luggages for us.
pretending they are also going for the trip.

Then we took lots and lots of photos in the budget terminal.
it is very small there but we can still make good use of it.. LOL

1st night at macau. we stayed at metropark hotel.
We went The Venetian @ Macau for Dinner and it is really worth the trip there.
The interior is design as if we are really in Vernice.
The whole building is a hotel cum shopping centre cum casino.
And during dinner, there is our very 1st surprise news....[ i shall not elaborate on that anymore].
But my 1st thought was that ." wow! my talisman really working too effectively"
HAHA.

18 Dec
Then its the next morning where we need to go take a ferry from macau to kowloon.
I was like dying on the ferry.
I started to feel dizzy when we were putting the luggage at the back.
The ferry have not even move yet, i already starting to feel dizzy.
Thats how serious my sea-sick is.
After we reach Kowloon. I was still feeling that shake. as if i am still on ferry the whole day.
we check in hotel[Harbour plaza, where ballerinas stays too] then got to rush lunch then dance class.
And we are all having a very late lunch due to the drag in time.
then i started feeling dizzy.. lack of sugar.
I thought i am too hungry thats why. but after eating it doesnt really helps.
Cause food are salty and what i need is sugar.
Then its dance class after that. Jazz Funk & Hiphop Beginners
The Jazz funk class[open level] really gave us a shock.
Hiphop beginners are still catchable.
But whole body started to cramped up.
But our itinerary is too rush..
I dun even have time to rest and get well from my sea-sick. and we had meals at very late hours.
Dinner was at around 10plus 11pm.
And ya.. i still have the sea-sick feel.
And back at hotel, the hot bath doesnt seems to help.
Then the very same night, chyna rachel weiling mabel come crush my room[me and julia].
So i stayed up a bit late with them. listening to their interesting class experience.

19 Dec
Purposely wake up bit early to have breakfast with ballerinas. cause the timing we hiphoppers suppose to meet is after when the ballerinas abt to leave. lucky i got info from the gals previous night.
So i make it a point to wake early to meet them.

Then its shopping at SASA-尖沙咀.

Then the same day, we having 4 dance classes.
2 private and 2 public.
Hiphop, Popping, Jazz hiphop, House respectively.
After the House, all of us cant feel our legs.
We all were like.. " Do we have legs in the 1st place..? " LOL
But the classes are damn fun. the warm ups are very good.
Jazz are hard for me as usual. but this time round still manageable.
Then we had dinner[ all of us have fast food as dinner].

20th Dec
Going to The peak with the ballerinas as our dance class is at noon.. or is it 2pm?.
what ever.
the fact is we went the Peak with ballerinas on a tram.
Anyway, along the way, the ballerinas was really rude.
Not really welcoming the hiphoppers.
But who cares. KIDS....
So after the PEAK, we got to leave 1st to rush for class.
again we having 4 classes on that day.
2 hiphop, 1 locking, 1 breaking.
the hiphop is fun. but when its time for locking, Kay can see that we are all very tired and he started teaching basics and theory. Its really very nice of him and observance.
Then we went dinner and was wondering if we want to go the breaking class.
thinking that we might just "Break" away in class.
LOL
anyway, tira was NOT feeling well for the WHOLE day. so she actually nv attend the 4 classes. and julia also give the breaking class a miss.
and the others decided that we want to do it " one for all , all for one"
So in the end we all did went for it..
and i am really glad that we did. cause its damn fun..
its a bit casual style as it is a relive class by another teacher. we learn new freeze and foot work.

And since its the last day of dance classes,
Jacky decided to buy us all the studio danz pants.
But sad thing , there is no size available. so all of us get L.
But i still like it alot.

21st Dec
Last day in HK, going ocean park with ballerinas.
Charlotte was with us for the whole of ocean park rides.
She is my official partner for rides.
And the both of us are creating Noise Pollution to the maximum.
And we won lots of soft toys over there.
I have got to say.. i am very good at the Bulls Eyes games. Every1 beside me was like talking abt me being so good at it.. LOL
Opps .. Humble. Must be Humble.

And the ballerinas are going back to Sg that day while the hiphopper got to get to the train station for train to GZ.

we reach Gz damn late and also check in hotel damn late.
the hotel is like very scary..
teh lvl 16 produce a veyr weird vibes.
then we change to lvl 20.. its is so much better. but those giant mirrors at the corridor are also not very right.
but the lvl 20 got free com and internet.
thats when i actually can msn and check my emails.

22nd Dec
Bought lots of stuff .. just keep shopping. Buy Buy Buy.
Any how buy and then realise i short if stuff to give to many ppl.
but i know i still have the next day to continue buying.. LOL

23rd dec
Continuing with our plan to shop.
But zixin was not feeling well.
right in the morning. she came to my room and tell me she vommited.
And although i am 1st aider. But what 1st aider do is to treat wounds only.
not to diagnose liek a doc. But with basic knowledge, i knwo we should not let her eat any medicines when we dunno her situation.
But my guess is the hot pot the night b4. as she drank lost of the spicy soup.
And my guess is that its too acidic in her stomach.
and milk , water can dilute it.
But in the end we gave her po ji pills.
and 1st bottle she vommited out.
We had breakfast tabao and ate in my room.
then we went shopping. but she feel really unwell again.
so leon send her back. while she back in hotel sleeping. we continue our 2nd part of shopping of the day.

Then we need go back hotel unload our stocks. then go out for 3rd part. LOL
So zixin join us again. as she is feeling a bit better after the sleep and she wants o shop.
But during 3rd part of shopping, while we having dinner, zixin feel very unwell again.
This time round, jacky and edith send her back tohotel in a cab and tira followed.

Leaving Sean Leon Xuan Julia Me Shaoyi to shop for our very last round.
As the next day its time to come back SG.
I buy so many stuff till i blur liao.
I accidentally gave RMB5 More.
Whatever. i too tired to think also.
Just anyhow liao.

24th Dec
Got to check out at 730am.
What we did is just rush rush and rush.
We did not had breakfast.
So damn hungry.
All of us had breakfast on the plane. NOt free.
we are taking budget air, remember!
Ya. so finally we are back in SG.

The very same night, i still go xuan house for a family christmas celebrate.
1st time cut log cake. Stayed till 3am at her house then leon send us back.
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DP Chalet -> 25th Dec to 27th Dec
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Went to the chalet at around 7 plus. with pris, mel,deb. in deb's bf car.
Stayed for 2 nights.
and the stories begins.

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to be continued..........
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2008-12-11T22:11:00.009+08:00

Concert is finally over.
Great job to everybody.
And thank you all friends who came to support.

I love this concert so much.
The costumes,
The dancers,
The team,
Other than those hardwork B4 concert... LOL
BUT its all worth because of everybody.
Everyone looks very pretty.
The princesses,
The little ballerinas,
The hiphoppers,
ETC ETC...
of course including me.

Will nv dress and make up like that if not for this concert.
1st time put fake eyelash OK.
i look damn diff.
LOL

Must specially thanks a few ppl.
THANK YOU
Princess Pocahontas- Limei for helping me out on the planning and design.
My dearest cousin- Xuan for helping with my Mics part.
My greatest Hate&LOVE in ONE- Julia. for helping out with my Props part.
My hiphop babes who makeup for me and make me look good.
Thanks Leia for her special good luck flower.
Without all of them, i cant do this.

Oh ... my BABY charlotte really impressed me with her great organizing and planning skills for her ballet kids.[ms foo and jacky think so too]
You are the best, BABY.
The prettiest Princess Cinderella ever.

1 and only pity thingy,
me xuan julia dun have time to take pictures for the whole concert.
its very very very very sad.
i want to take pictures with all the princesses.
and my hiphop dolls, and my friends who came for the concert.

A bit 舍不得。but 天下没有不散的筵席。
Magical Wonders is finally over.

Getting ready for HK trip soon.
And Welcoming 2009.
Might not be able to continue at DP once i found a full time.

Sad if i wont be able to see them again.
Love those ballerina gals.
All of them. They are very sweet.
They make me enjoy my SUN work at DP.

Love my hiphop gang too.
Always so ON.
Worry if class will have changes.
Worry if i wont be staying with the class.

Hope the happy moments will stay as it is.

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2008-12-04T00:41:00.003+08:00

saw this from a email.
It is funny but kind of true.
Its titled:
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ME AND MY BOSS
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When I take a long time to finish,
I am slow,
When my boss takes a long time,
he is thorough.

When I don't do it,
I am lazy,
When my boss does not do it,
he is busy,

When I do something without being told,
I am trying to be smart,
When my boss does the same,
he takes the initiative.

When I please my boss,
I am apple polishing,
When my boss pleases his boss,
he is cooperating.

When I make a mistake,
I'm an idiot.
When my boss makes a mistake,
he's only human.

When I am out of the office,
I am wandering around.
When my boss is out of the office,
he's on business.

When I am on a day off sick,
I am always sick.
When my boss is a day off sick,
he must be very ill.

When I apply for leave,
I must be going for a job interview
When my boss applies for leave,
it's because he's overworked.

When I do good,
my boss never remembers,
When I do wrong,
he never forgets...
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LOL
~

2008-11-25T19:04:00.002+08:00

Its tues liao..
1 week pass by again.
I am still sick.
But definately getting better.

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browsing through friends' blog and realise their lifes are so interesting.

got to mention ZR somehow.
Seriously, i am glad for him that he finally found what he looking for in love.

But it makes me start to wonder.
If i were him, can i start a new relationship that fast?.[not long after ending the previous 1]
I will probably be still in pain and cant forget that love i had for that ex.
Hmm.
Diff ppl, diff perspective and ways we do things.

Maybe just because i am those kind of stubborn ppl.
When i choose something i will really be very 死心眼。
And i really mean it. I can actually 暗恋 a guy for 10 yrs. even when we start to see each other lesser and lesser, but each time i heard news abt him or even by chance saw him on the streets, my heart will still pump fast.
I guess he is the only 1 who can make my heart pumps that way [at least up till now].
I might have crush on other guys but its kind of short term and my heart dont beat the same way it does for that 1st guy.
LOL

ok
enough of that.
friends will be surprise to hear me mention abt my crush on guys.
LOL
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Judo 1st grading is on 11 dec. my concert ends on 10 dec
i did not go trainings since OCT. so therefore i not able to go for grading.
Damn Sad lo.

i am going to be 1 grade lower than my batch.

Concert day getting nearer, things still not done. Still sick.
Stress. Kan chong.

Why my weight nv get lighter from the illness?
still as fat.
Hais.
more stress

2008-11-19T14:02:00.017+08:00

MC
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today on MC.

This morning i woke up coughing and vomit out the phlegm and mucus that is affecting my breathing.
For the past few days, i got to "Clear" my throat every morning.
To force-cough out the mucus-phlegm stuck inside.
It is green in color and its alot and alot.

Ok i should stop being disgusting. LOL

anyway, this morning i woke up vomiting and i know i got no choice.
I cough till i got headache. I cant breathe properly. I lost my voice.
I got to see a doc.
Anyway, the system at the polyclinic is better now. dun really got to wait that long as compared to last time.
Back to the point, the doctor was telling me that he can see this being big. as himself also got the same symptons and also a few of the doctors and nurses there also. He say this will be dragging for some time b4 i can totally recover.
I ask him if i can get well b4 dec concert. he gave me a very unsure face.
But anyway, he gave me a prescription and at the same time ask me to buy the lozenges that the doctors will take went they have sore throat.

Each @ $2.20

Then the pharmacists told me they run out of 1 of the medicines, so i need went back to the doctor to get a external prescription.
So i went up again, get the prescription then came down to the pharmacists to get the rest of my medicines... the doctor really give me alot of medicines.

But lucky its cheap. All @ $5.60. Plus consultation $9.

then i am back at my market, went to the Unity NTUC Healthcare pharmacy to get the medicine. and i realise it is a poison. to be exact, those consider posion medicine are those which can only take 1 tablet a day. if overdose will be dangerous.
And it is normally smaller in size as compared to normal tablet.

1 box of 10 tablet @ $9.95

This is not the 1st time i took a "poison" anyway. the 1st time i had "poison" was during poly when i got a virus cloning bateria on my right leg.
I had to take the "poison" to stop the cloning and spreading on my skins.
That "poison" is in diamond shape and 1 tablet in 1 box only.

So back to the point again.
I hope i can be well b4 the concert.
i seriously need more practice before the concert and i want to dance.

~

2008-11-16T08:55:00.000+08:00

I LOST MY VOICE.
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Due to not enough rest and sleep. Plus not enough intake of WATER.
I officially fall sick.
I cant really remember when did i last see a doc.
I am just like those who mention as 抵抗力超强的笨蛋.
Wont fall sick easily.
But once i really fall sick.. Damn.... its going to be serious.

on thurs, i woke up with a sore throat.
I quickly drink honey, lots of water.
But it doesnt help.
Fri i started to cough a bit.
Then Sat i have problem speaking.
Then Today. I lost my voice.

SIANZ.

2008-11-12T19:25:00.002+08:00

Quick updates
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Sat after work at 3pm, went bugis again to shop for costumes.

Sun work then go JP for chicky club performance then back to work.

Mon went shop for costume again at JE and IMM.
Saw the OSIM roadshow. Went to try the uCrown, uRobic, Blood pressure measuring system and uYoyo.
The uYOYO is damn good.
there is this stiff shoulder function.
The sales demo on me. full 15 mins.
After that my shoulder is so MUCH Better.
But it cos $5000++.
-.-""

Tues .. nothing much. work as usual. till 10pm. ms foo drive me home.

Wed.. read friends blog and june mention abt eyelid twitching.
Which i also have the same symptons. I even have my cheek muscles twitching OK.
YES..Its super super irritating!
Quoting from her blog.:>
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This syndrome that is referred as eyelid myokymia. It is said to be caused by lack of sleep and stress.

To avoid or help put a halt to the eyelid spasms:
- Get your full rest.
- Reduce or eliminate stress.
- Cut back on caffeine.
- Reduce alcohol consumption.
- Reduce computer time to cut down on eye strain.

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Ya.. i really need lots of sleep and rest..

2008-11-08T23:19:00.002+08:00

Damn tired

Cant "feel" my shoulders anymore.[ache like hell-super stiff]

I am just like a Panda who escape from the Zoo.

Too many things to be done AND Too many things still not done.

Moody-every mth

Stressed.

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Some parents are driving me crazy.
Super nonsense- no reasoning at all.
Not understandable at all.

Some parents are very understanding.
Considerate and Fun.

Heaven and Hell. Both @ DP
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~chill~

2008-10-26T15:00:00.005+08:00

What type of personality do you have?

Here is the analysis:
Kind and Gentle
Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

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am i like that?
i thought i am very rough and the word "sweet" can nv be use on me.
maybe that personality test means my inside. while what ppl see its my outside.

DUNNO what i mean?.
refer to the previous post on "Get to know yourself better"
I have 2 different personalities.

~

2008-10-26T14:58:00.002+08:00

MORE Test
What’s your personality love style

Here is the analysis:
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

damn... this is so TRUE

~

2008-10-26T14:54:00.002+08:00

Personality test - The Real You
Here is the analysis:
1. You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.
2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
3. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
4. Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.
5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

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2008-10-26T14:43:00.003+08:00

Done a Personality Test on - Get to know yourself better
Below are my results. i think its very true.

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Check it out @ Quizbox

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2008-10-26T11:48:00.003+08:00

day after day,
weeks after weeks,
and my life is just attached to Dancepointe.

I miss my judo peers.
I miss the thurs judo class.
I miss being slam on the mats, trying to practice the break fall.

I miss my G's club.

I miss going to school.
.. but not the exams. LOL

I miss all of them.

Not that i dun like dancepointe.
I will like most of my time dancing.
but now i am working. and alone.

Ya.. everyone got to work anyway.
But i need more life.. probably its the working hours that makes me feel....
the work is not hard till i got to complain... so what is it actually?
I dun know.
I just feel i cant be with my friends and got to miss the gatherings most of the time.

I feel ironic and contradicting sometimes.
i dunno what i want.
when i am free, alone, i dun go out. i am a total introvert. i dun like the feel of walking alone outside. i hate the 压迫感.
but i like going out with friends. doing lots of activities. regardless of judo, outdoor, ktv, Dance. ...etc.etc
i definately need a job.
A job which allows me to do that and still earning the $.

how i wish i am good enough to be a dance teacher. then i can make dance as my job.
Thats is totally diff from working as a admin operational personnel at a dance school.

but thats is like... DREAM.. on.. ya.. DREAM ON.
`LOL

Currently,
i am only free,
every mon thurs b4 7pm and every sat after 2pm.
or tues wed fri b4 12noon, SUN after work at 7pm.
Other timing, i will be at DP for either dance or work.
But i am lucky that during these period of time[till end dec] at Dancepointe, it will be a stress but enjoyable time.
Why i say so?
Cause we are all working on the concert and it is a good experience for me.
And right after the concert, will be the HK trip.
And back from the Trip will be xmas chalet for all hiphopper.
~Damn Happening~

So what am i trying to express then?
Like i said, I DUNNO.
Confusing and Contradicting Feelings.

Market is definately bad now.
so its not easy finding a job.

I shouldnt think so much. even though i should.
I shall just 走一步，是一步。and 走一步，算一步。

The ultimate things i need to focus on is..
Give my best to the concert- in terms of work and dance.
Enjoy during HK trip- in terms of dancing and shopping.
Have fun at the xmas chalet.

Come back then worry abt other stuff.
By then, it will be 2009.
New Year, New Resolutions, New Plans.

~
Cheers

2008-10-03T22:33:00.001+08:00

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work
tired
PMS
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2008-10-01T21:43:00.003+08:00

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Lost in Emotions
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watched 我爱黑涩会。
this EP is talking abt best friends.
every gal got to write a name who they think is their best friend.
then if there is a match, the pair can come down to play the 默契 game and earn $.
and there are some who wrote the name of the one, but that person nv write her name.
That is really very sad.

And i started to think..
if i am the one sitting there, whose name will i write and who will write my name.
And will there be a match.
I started to feel emotional.
Cause i got to say i still have not find that person.
i do have lots of friends but i realise there is none that i can feel the mutual feelings.
Lets make it this way, the name you write down, is the one you think she will feel the same abt you. Mutual feeling.
But sad to say. i really dun have a name to write down, same as i feel no 1 will write my name.

More Emotional
Totally Speechless

~

2008-10-01T14:42:00.003+08:00

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random
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FYP finished. finally.
Working more hours at DP.
Haven go look for job yet.
HK trip still not confirm due to numbers.
Master class not able to go.
Want to go KTV but...
Eat a lot in the past week, getting fatter.
Constipation-.. how to get it out sia. who know where got sell 泄药?
Planning to go see Doc regarding......

Trying to find the lighted path
Maybe i should commit to a religion.
Emotional
Speechless

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2008-09-21T16:34:00.006+08:00

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Finally.
At home . wanted to have a rest b4 getting back to FYP.

This year is the only time i actually blow so many birthday cakes.

15 Sep_Mon - with DP gang, celebration after class

19 Sep Fri - with xuan family, uncle birthday is on 22th, so we share a cake. Then its pizza DIY and VCD movie time. Stay till about 4am. then leon and xuan, driving me home. [ birthday present- clover care bear, and rubix icon]

20 Sep Sat - Meet supervisor for FYP in school for mock presentation.
Then after that its JUDO club, pioneer batch BBQ cum my birthday celebration. Bought a mini rubix to play play. $1 only
What a coincidence to have the exact same cake with i had with my uncle.
Reach home at around 3.30am.

21 Sep Sun - KBox K Lunch with Sec friends. With a total of 5 persons where 3 of us are birthday gals. LOL. Bought a cheap skate Rubix Square-1 for myself... Back home blogging now. [birthday present - Christian Dior_dior addict 2 perfume]

Really appreciate the effort that all friends and family has given in.
Happy and Touched.
Love you ALL. *muacks*

Happy birthday to all SEP babies:
Charlotte, Huimin, Alle - 11 Sep [PLUS S.H.E. 出道]
Kale - 13 Sep
Carmen - 14 Sep
Weijian - 17 Sep
ME - 20 Sep
Nelly - 21 Sep
Jasmine, 大舅 - 22 Sep [PLUS Eriko birthday]
Weiling - 23 Sep
Kaiqi - 25 Sep
ZiWei - 26 Sep
Rachel, Wah Chun, Angela - 27 Sep

~if there is more friends of mine also sep babies, pls let me know.
thanks

~

2008-09-14T22:26:00.003+08:00

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today is a happy day..

--morning--
go church help out for blood donation drive.
intended to donate.. but due to having judo training in the late afternoon,
i give it a miss. but still planning to go to the donation centre sometime to do it.
But i register myself as a potential bone marrow donor. where they will take some sample of my blood to run some test[abt 200 tests] and then keep it as record. If anyone in the world compatible and needs my bone marrow, they will then contact me to donate.
I really do want to spread the words and increase the public awareness of being a bone marrow donor.
there are actually 2 methods to harvest the bone marrow now.
Those who are interested to be a bone marrow donor
or to know more on that, just simple click on the link.
Give others the chance of life!

-- afternoon--
left the church and wnet for judo training in RI.
keep practising on my break fall and throws. plus learn more new throws.
it was really fun.
then we all had dinner together. It is mid autumm festival today.
So its kind of consider a 团圆饭 for our judo gang.
during these last 2 trainings, we really do bond alot.
hope everything will keep this way.

It is a happy mid-autumm festival.

----AOB----
got to meet supervisor for FYP on my birthday.. sianz
think again... nvm la.. anyway i have nothing on[no appt].
wonder what the horoscope will say on tmr i-weekly.

~

2008-09-10T18:55:00.004+08:00

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sianz.. just recieve the credit card statement.. late payment by 2 days only..
tio late payment fees of $40. with $2.50 finance charge.
and the point is.. my total amount due is only $54.14(the amount that i pay 2 days late)

Then now got to pay $42.50 for nothing.
-.-""
No warning at all.

~Sianx

2008-09-07T10:51:00.004+08:00

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at work - DP JW
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its sun again. another day of work.
hate to be too free and hate to be too busy.
wanted to find something to be busy with.
not just today but everyday.
Not work but other commitments to do after work.
Currently dun have permenant work so i hope to have something to do every evening.

Mon- Dance
Tues- Accompany Julia to Church temporary
Wed-
Thurs- Judo
Fri-
Sat- AOB
Sun- Part time[full day] @DP

Planning to go for a jog/ gym on wed and fri evening.
gym need $.. so means jog in the park will be the final choice..
hmm. but can i jog?.. try ba.. slow jog lor.
occasionally go gym should be affordable.

Once i found a full time job, then probably i will feel tired if i every evening got something on. but thats is to be worry when i actually got a full time job ba.
hmm.
Ok . that should be the plan.
A start of a healthy lifestyle.

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Birthday coming.
Started writing blog last yr. about in sep near to my birthday.
Another yr older
Hopes & Wishes: Many Many....
Future thoughts and plans: Blur, Unsure, Lost, Confused
Birthday Resolutions: Slim down, Get my room tidy and organized, Find a job that i like and enjoy doing, Create a healthy lifestyle
Friends asking me what i want for birthday.
I should go prepare a wish list for my blog hor.
But what i want is all too ex..
so better give me cash then i gather tgt the $ from each gang to get the things i want.
isnt it better?

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FYP ending soon too.

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Remember Birthday mth
Stay Happy K.

Will post some horoscope thingy during next blog.
-ONLY for Virgo

~

2008-08-31T17:50:00.005+08:00

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Angry again
By that *Mr Bitcher- Jian Wei

Let look at what he got to say this time.

1st, he said," met 2 of my team members......the other is the girl Regine...."
Why does he have to say "the other is the girl regine."... and not, "the other is regine"
Trying to make it personal right... F*cker.

Then he continue saying " she say want to handle the doc... blah"
halo.. everything you 2 do lor.. as the leader you are suppose to update us on the changes and things. DID YOU?

Rememebr in the previous post, he said" you dunno then dun come put your nose into the codes, hate it when you ask whats the problem".
Halo... Cannot ask. then you expect us know abt the game?.
YOU nv update us too.
And i nv say i settle all the docs.
its just that you 2 busy debugging, then jimmy and 1 can work on the docs.
ISnt it.
got wrong meh.
When you mention that we dunno the changes and updates , cant do, i actually agree.
but did you put up with a better solutions like for example. showing us the game demo etc, at least let us know whats going on. it will help for the presentation at the end of the day too. isnt it.
..NO. a big NO.
Everything you want do yourself La. F*cker.

Really Damn PISSED.

What he say doesn't make sense at all lo.

~

2008-08-26T16:36:00.005+08:00

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angry....
pissed....
a Idiot F*ucker
Jian Wei

1st lets see what he say on his blog that makes me angry.

Regarding the movies file, halo.. b4 that the original plan is to make it in game ok. then last min say make a movie to prompt to mission. then i think thorugh it. town models i dun have, NPC models also dun have. and no time liao.
how to make it simple?.. then got this idea which is simple yet fits the idea.
i got ask gab also ok. he say can.
and i show the tutor, explain to him that words is like a AI computer taking to the player.
he also understand the logic there. also ok with it.
Only Jianwei Bitching there.
animation.. think very easy without the models ready.
*fuck off

pictures all wrong size...
i nv even touch the code part.. how the fuck i know what size he need when he nv even say. this 2nd editing he got tell me what size he need then size is correct isnt it.
and whats so big deal abt resizing the picture. Already send the picture done and edited to you. You mean you dunno how to resize the picture? If you really dunno, cannot tell me resize meh..
need to BITCH on the blog?
so again. go eat shit la..

my leg injure is true and since mon dance class. and worsen after judo on thurs... but why i still go meet supervisor.. cause its important la.
if i nv meet then jimmy also nv meet then what the supervisor will feel.
fri is our own meeting.. and usually meet without agenda. i dun feel why need to tahan my pain waste 2 hr back and fore for a meeting wthout agenda. or if the agenda can be easily done online.
He mention he cant express properly what he need me to do so thats why need meet.
HALO.. please la.. not as if meet liao you can express properly.
NO diff OK.
so once again --Jianwei. fuck* off

Codes i dunno then cannot ask la... then why you ask me to go through codes at times when i already tell you i cant open script or why do you say the sentance"... dunno also can try ma" previously on your other posts.
IF i dun ask, how will i know the latest update on your programming side...
WHEN you fucking nv even update us.
you think only members need update leader then leader dun need update members la.
Its communication between 2 ways. not 1 way ok.

Cant express properly is not the biggest problem.
Biggest problem is he is confusing himself, contridicting himself with his own words.
Brain think this, mouth say that.those taht will probably stab ppl at the back kind.
He talk as if like creating a puzzle... in bits and pieces.
need ppl to try very hard to put it tgt to get the picture.

I HAVE NV SEEN a WORSE leader than Jian Wei in my whole life.

YOu think your programming so good?
I guess the programming most also gab do 1.

Please la.. you know what is 自我反省 not.
i did .
i know i did not do a very nice picture/ interface.. cause i am not a art student ok.
but at least i got something to hand in..
not as if your programming side is so good and my interface is the thing that ruin the whole thingy.
please go 自我反省.

If you think the above post is rude,
This is just a Pay Back time to that MALE BITCHER.

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2008-08-10T13:25:00.003+08:00

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At Work~

today working half day till 2pm.
attending june's belated b'dae dinner.
Hmm.. I wonder have she seen the surprise video we made for her.

Added a few links under my " Check it out" section
Nothing much other than that.

Very excited towards Next thurs - 1st judo lesson @ RI.
More excited for the End of Year trip to HK with DP.

Worrying for FYP.

Stressed abt jobs after graduation.

$ issues.
Prospect issues.
Career and Future issues.

Peace Out~

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2008-08-01T22:18:00.007+08:00

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I just visit a friend's blog.
He got this particular post abt 宅男 VS 干物男.
Makes me feel interested to know the diff between the two.
Then i realise. opps i might be a 干物女.
Then notice the web link listed below and i click it.
There is this article abt 干物女.
http://www.520nx.cn/ViewInfo.asp?id=3106
after reading the 10 characteristics. I feel... chey..
i only abt almost half TIO only ma.. haha
then the next sentence "如果有四项就得小心，是干物女的预备军了。"
Wah.. scared me sia.
Then but continue reading the article.
it says "放弃谈恋爱，每天下班后直接回家，一个人看着漫画、喝着酒，假日躲在被窝，过着无所谓的轻松生活。认为这样生活就很幸福的女性就是“干物女”......... blah blah blah。
especially this .."认为这样生活就很幸福的女性就是“干物女”".
I dun think life like that is 幸福 at all .

Last but not least .
Since my friend already mention whats 宅男 VS 干物男.
So I will tell the gals diff between 宅女 VS 干物女 .
宅女与干物女的差别：在于是否想谈恋爱.
宅女虽然在房间，但是对于爱情仍然保持着憧憬，喜欢籍此由看日剧幻想。然而，
干物女就不一样，她会说“放弃恋爱过着自我悠闲的生活，太美好了！”

So .. conclusion.
refering back to my older post - 07 May 2008, last section.
Where i already said.
At most i am only "almost a 宅女".
So after today. i must add...
At most... I am only a " Almost宅女+Almost干物女"
Opps then this rojak. add together become....
干物宅...
Wahaha.

K la. still got work this weekend..
May everyone enjoy their weekends.
Cheers

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2008-07-31T00:20:00.004+08:00

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just back from movie
Money Not Enough 2
Free tix from xuan father to GV Max at vivo.

I personally thinks the show mantain the standard of Director jack neo.
Touched PPL hearts with the most reality storyline.
Make us laugh, cry and think at the same time.
There is always something, some topics and issues of the reality, mentioned in the show that will let all of us sit down and ponder through.

Other than that, I will like to mention on the Computer Graphics done by Crystal CG.
I want to learn that lor. i really will wish if i can do something like that as a job.

All of you should go watch the show.
Maybe some might share same views as me. some might not.
But i still think its worth to watch once at least.

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Just surf my friend's web.
Realise 原来 weijian album is out today [D-Day]. or rather YTD [cause now over 12am and its consider 31st July].

All friends must try to support K.
Cause i really think the his album has got the worth.
Unique and good voice.
Heard that he got his own composed song inside too.

I will probably get mine by this weekend ba.
Will feedback again on the album after i finish listen to all songs.

~Congrat Weijian!~
All the Best

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2008-07-24T16:01:00.003+08:00

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sianz.

-hidden blog-

anyway,
these few days i helping to do some video editing for a friend.
its a surprise.
quite fun plus can practice my skills in premiere pro and photoshop.
but i will like more chance to do 3d max or lightwave.

Anyone got good script for a short animation?.
can contribute?. Best if you can draw well.
Probably can pass me the storyboard and char design.
but i must say 1st ar.. i really not good in 3d max.
Just need to practice more. and of course i rather do it with a proper storyboard.

k la..

back to my FYP docs- ADD and fri presentation.

2008-07-13T12:49:00.003+08:00

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yawn~

i realise i damn long nv update my blog.
why?. dunno. nth interesting to say?.

just read my friends' blog.

i very sleepy for the pass 3 days.
not enough sleep.

still working on FYP.

weekly work @DP on every Sun.

YTD we got a performance at east coast.
erm..how is it..
see no evil.
jacky says.. worse than practice.
the stage floor is very rough, all of us not use to it.
plus we reach on the dot[consider late]. no much time to calm down and get ready.
adding on to the previous experience @ECP when we are under shaun.
We thought we could overwrite that, but we actually added more bad experience to it.
EAST COAST.. our nightmare.

ate steamboat after that till 9plus PM.
planned to go cycling but we ate till damn late. Shop closed.

I miss Cycling, Trekking, Camping, Pitting Tent, Cooking in the wild, the forest, the Nature, the egg yolk sun at the beach.
Bascially i miss my times back in TAS [including those hard times during training].

Sleepy. how?
Still got 7hrs to go

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2008-06-27T22:24:00.002+08:00

Yeah..
exam results finally out.. and VERY lucky... i manage to PASS.
Now just need to focus FYP and get it done and over with...
YEAH

~

PaintBall namelist

Currently got ONLY

ME
Julia
Kim Hoo

KIV - Xuan & Leon
Ling & Qing
Zong

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2008-06-23T13:21:00.006+08:00

Paintball

YTD went for a paintball session at TAG paintball[orchid country club] with Xuan and Gang.
Damn fun. I am really lucky as i only got 2 shot which happen to just scratch across my finger and forearm.
And i hit 1 target down...YEAH...dun make faces at me... it is already consider a difficult task.
Friends in the group got many other more serious injuries.
The Paintball they using are exact marble size and hardness.
Scary ok.
The guys all wearing Army uniform. which is the best clothings for the game.
there are only 4 gals in the whole group including me.
But the guys lend us their uniform jacket.
If not, i think we will be all wounded by now.
Overall, its a really FUN night.
I really think its worth everyone to try at least once.

Hey all friends,
when will it be our paintball session?.
Planned to go since ........ dunno when... million years ago.
i will liek to try the 1 at SDC. Crossfire Paintball.
Using diff gun and gear. That will be less painful as of what i know.
i just checkonline and they mention they will cease individual booking form 23 july.
Only open to Coporate and TeamBuilding Booking.
Those who interested, Please get back to me asap.
I will try plan for 1.

Desired
Location: SDC Crossfire Paintball
Date: Try to be before 23 July. Depends on availablility
Time: Should be morning 9am - 12pm. also depends on availability
Price: should be <=$50
Min no.of pax: 6 pax
Max no of pax in 1 round: 10 pax[5 on each side]

Other Alternative Location:
TAG Paintball
Orchid Country Club

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2008-06-15T00:35:00.017+08:00

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Some Random POST.
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Teacher Jacky bought us cap from his GuangZhou Trip
Left one is for Baby Char, Right one is for me.

Saw my friend appear on Newspaper.
His Photography exhibition is at National Library.

Guess what is this?

The Reasons why Couples got problem giving having Kids.
-See. so many reasons for women are link to age.
Now you know how risky is it for those 高龄产妇.

SIM on newspaper. regarding the cancelling of refreshment.
Which side are you on?

Went to my friend's de exhibition at National Library.

My new HDD 2.5inch , 250gb, $139, 5 yrs warrenty. with free decal

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2008-06-13T20:19:00.004+08:00

WOO~

Exam finally over.
Slack for 2 days since then.
But for the exam, both i got no confident at all.
Can only depends on the GOD's decision.

After Exam, we have a last min plan of going KTV.
then after KTV, ZR.. JIN and Me go arcade to play.
Using my TAPP card with $60 free credits[using my mum's vouchers from union].
But the person say must pay $3 GST. hmm

NV wanna think much abt the unhappy things.
Cause my friend say: Happy Everyday
hahaah.
Basically i did have fun the whole day. thats enough.

Next to worry is the FYP.
FULL FORCE ahead.
Still working[DP] on SUN since we discuss and decided not to work[FYP] on SUN.
But i only promise Boss by per mth basis.
Just in case, we need to rush the FYP.

Talk to my friend ytd, he record his voice as ringtone for me.
so cute and funny.
Will use it.

Just view another friend's blog.
She simply use picture to represent her blog, sometime adding a few words.
Simple and yet the meaning is there.
Its ART.
Sometimes words make it complicated.
A picture shows it all.
And everyone see the picture with a diff interpretion.
But there is no right or wrong.
Cause all along its the same picture.

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2008-06-07T00:52:00.002+08:00

time to blog again.

Just back from a YuHui's Wedding dinner with Yaxin.
I really got to say that the guys on the same table with us are real gentlemen.
1st, they took the initiative to talk to us 1st.
then they offer to let the ladys eat 1st
and they will help to turn the plates to us so that we dun have to reach out too far.
during photo session, although the photographer request the gals to stand behind while the guys sit. Those Gentlemen on our table requested that the gals shall sit, and they will move to stand behind us.
Last but not least, they offer to give us a ride home.
Opps, but dun get it wrong, most of them are seniors to us and are married.
BUT WOW. those guys are really really nice.
Younger guys out there... please Learn.
Next month still got another wedding dinner to attend.
Haiz.
Friends all getting married.

The exams are getting nearer but i have not started studying.
its like a habit.
Dun feel the urgency yet ba. although i keep telling myself must started.
but somehow i will not move. but the heart still worries.
nvm. tmr i will study and sun too.
Everything will be fine. I hope.
GOD BLESS.

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2008-06-02T01:42:00.005+08:00

~YAWN~
Its 2am again.

Have been some time since i last blog.
Really busy for the past few weeks.
Everyone are not getting enough sleep.
Plus the Gals mthly thingy. - damn.
Totally wrong timing lo.

Gals out there. you know what i mean.
1)Feeling damn moody....no reason to it. its just common for gals every mth.
2)Feeling damn pain... cant explaint how pain it is.. if the level of pain is 10..i will say its 11 for this pain. Its even more pain than any wounds i experienced b4.
Tears came running down without control.[1st time pain till like that].
that day got to go home straight. Cannot stay in school any longer.
GUYS will NEVER understand how it feels.
3)No matter how much sleep , will still feel sleepy [especially when i really got not enough sleep].. I feel like a zombie. walking around without soul.
Above all these,
Still got to handle some irritating flies bugging me.

Adding on ... more... will be...
The things happen at home.
My bro CASE.
Finally come to an end and with a VERY lucky ending.
What should i said to him... haiz.. its just damn unlucky for him this time due to his ignorance.
But its over now.
Only 2 weeks... He will be refresh again.

So damn sorry to my team mates.. for not able to help with the programming part.
and my attendance to the group.[Although i know even if i go, i cant do much.. but i will still want to be there to at least show them i really got the heart..]
But there are other things that i mentioned above come into play and cork up the plan.

Whatever it is, finally we finish the Assgs. and now its study week.
and exam coming.. and the FYP.
I am determine to give my best to the FYP. although i know programming i might not be good. but other areas, i am doing my best.

Decided to continue working for july mth.. aug and sept still not sure yet.
probably depends on the FYP.
need the $$. no choice. But FYP is still no. 1

I often watch the 我爱黑涩会 and saw the 美眉 trying their best to do the show well, as well as working and schooling at the same time.
I am using their spirit as a aim.
I will push myself to the max.
Cause i believe that if i have to push myself to be able to see the growth.
Work hard now then the road will be easier up ahead.

For now,the no.1 thing i am worried abt is the EXAM..
how to study for it sia.. no clue at all.
totally ???????

Will practice my popping tmr...b4 the class at night.
Since last week class, i nv even try it at all.
That is also 1 of my important homework.

This week will be busy with exam studying, dance practise, friend's wedding dinner ,visiting my bro.. etc etc..
lucky for me.. working is out for these 2 weeks as i request for leave.

better go sleep now.

~YAWN~ bb

2008-05-23T18:15:00.003+08:00

Just read a blog of my team leader for FYP.
and i say team leader .. not friend...

He really pissed me off.
In the 1st place, my impression of him is just that he is not a very outspoken guy. and Maybe not as helpful and very passive and anti-social person.
But who cares.. i mean every1 got his and her unique characteristic.
Maybe we dun click but that doesnt mean he is a bad person. RIGHT?

NO.. i got to totally disagree to this now.
He sucks.
He is not happy abt somthing during the FYP discussion. He did not say on the spot..
he go back "Bitch" on his blog.
All of you should go read what he wrote on 16th May 2008.
He basically "bitch" about something that is not true.

He say we discuss abt roles and responsibility for FYP.
Anyway, just to let you all know, Our FYP is making a RPG game.
Back to it, He mention his name appear only once or twice and our name appear many times.
HEY, i am VERY sure each name appear equal times.

And he said if dunno can try ma, why we think he dunno anything.
But HEY... this is FYP .. you think a lot of time for you to try?.
Of course 1st step is to see who know how to do what then straight away assign that post 1st la..
then No choice kind then got to learn la.

Next he " bitch" about how we change the storyline totally.
HEY.. we did not change the storyline. We just give the story more details.
Previously we only got the basic outline of it lo.

Then he continue on "bitching" about us comparing some games that we played b4 to what we are doing. And that if we dunno how to do something .. just tell him, he will settle it.
Damn... Halo.. Isnt it how we research.. discuss... ok..
maybe we did not play that much games like he do.. but we are voicing our ideas out...
He should have just voice out that he played many games b4 and that he can handle that part etc..
GOD knows what he knows how to do.

[_ Dear Mr Bitcher,.. If you dun wanna voice it out, then dun complain at the back... cause it is not going to help with anything._]

And i really dunno what did we do to you that makes you DUN LIKE US...
but i just wanna let you know.. the feelings are Mutual.

Last but not least,
A sentance that i will like to return to MR Bitcher.... DUN BLOODY PISS ME OFF.
Go back to your SHELL if you hate the outside so much.

You think only you know how to bitch in your blog?..
Let me show you my power

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2008-05-22T00:33:00.003+08:00

halo, been a few days since i last update.
Therefore, i will update all at once.
Starting from latest..

Ytd my cousin told me that her friends' de friend.
Went ktv at Marina. Then there is only 2 of them singing. but at end of session,
the cashier demand they pay for 3. and she explains thats because there is a 3rd person. and the "friend" went in after they are seated in the room. and left b4 the session ends.
They even show the CCTV to prove. In the end, they got to pay for 3 persons lor. No choice.
But... dun you all think its weird?.... If i were them.. i will not pay. i will demand the cashier to call the police in lor. i am not afraid since i am sure that there is only 2 of us.
But i agreed that it is damn eery la. lol...

~Hidden Blog Written~

Too bad i cannot lock my blog for blogspot. Therefore, i choose to lock it manually. LOL

Tmr will have another practise. We definately need lots of practise sia.
ok.. Nighty... Hai.. 1am again.. When can i start to get some early sleep.

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2008-05-16T00:39:00.003+08:00

Damn... i worte a long blog just now.. and its shows me error...
then i got to post again with this....

forget it..i lazy to type what i wrote just now..
basically its a update of what i did today...

Morning rush to settle some urgent stuff.
afternoon go woodlands library with friends to do assg.
then went popular stroll for 1 hr.
then get home and dinner at 10pm.

then watch the news and focus point on the earthquake issue.

blah blah...
i shared a story in the previous typing.. but... nvm.. tell next time ba..

Let us all take 1 min to pray for everyone who suffer from this disaster.

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2008-05-16T00:03:00.006+08:00

This post originally written on 16 may 2008.
I thought its lost due to blog error.
Now then realise its auto save and kept inside.
Wahaha
So now 它终于重见天日了。
Wahaha

--> Reposted on 1st Aug 2008

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Haiz..

This morning, something urgent happen and i got to go and settle.[Long Story]

I went to meet friends at woodlands library to do assg together.
although i not good at it..
but i am really trying very hard to understand and do it.
still no progress at all. left the library at 7plus.
reach JE at 8pm.
Went to Popular..
I really like to visit bookshops. I can stay very long inside even if i have no intention to buy anything.
Just now i stay at popular till almost 9pm.
Bought some bread for tmr morning breakfast, and tabao food for dinner.

Reach home already 9 plus, finish dinner already 10pm.
Shouldnt have dinner that late.. very fattening.
but i really very hungry wor.

Watch tv for a while.
The News and Focus Point[another show after news] are all talking on the earthquake.
Feel really sad when i saw those videos and report on the situation.
Focus Point shows more details and analysis on the situation.
Suddenly at a point, my tears just came running down.
I really hope the rescue process will be smooth and more ppl will be safe.
And i sincerely pray for them.

Sometimes, i wonder... if god really exist.
Then why does he/she do this to humanity?

Then i think again.. Why that Mym Dian[dunno that english name] dont allow help from rescue team from other countries?.

Linking both together, i wonder.
Is it because god see us rejecting help to our own ppl and is testing our humanity level and how far we willing to give to help others.

I cant help but this reminds me of a story i heard somewhere.. it goes like this...
//
Once upon a time..... opps... nono.. too old school.
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There was a boy who is very sincere in his religion,living happily in a town.
Then 1 day there is a flood and the whole town starts to be fill with the water.
Everyone was running for life and climbing on to somewhere high.
The boy climb onto the roof of house, praying to god and hope the god will save him.
Then there was this raft that row by and offer to help him get out of there.But the boy insist that he is going to wait for god's help.
Then after a while, there was a small boat which pass by and again offer help, he rejected again.
He waited for some time and there was a Helicopter which fly pass and offering help. He does not want to responce as he deeply believe taht god will save him.
Finally, the water level reach the roof and he died.

When he found himself in Heaven, he ask god:" why didnt you save me?"
GOD answer: " i send you a raft and you rejected me... i send you a small boat, you rejected me again... i send you another helicopter and you continue to reject me... "

What does this mean?...
Different ppl might see it differently.
What did you realise from the story?

Everyone...just use 1 min to ponder and think.

p/s: by the way.. i am not a christian.

2008-05-14T00:59:00.002+08:00

~yawn..
its late again.
got to sleep early today.. by 1 hr.. haha

For today post, i will like to special featured the following.

1)
Friends.. please help me to click the google ads if your are currently reading my blog.

2)
introducing 2 songs of Hiro that i personally like alot.
scroll down to the imeem i have at my blog, song number 42 and 43 by Hiro.

3)Welcome you to leave me msg under the Chitty Chatty box.

4)Welcome you to donate $ to me.. HEHEHE

5)Private email me if you wan me to put you under my friends link.

thats all..

p/s: I really miss all my Primary, Sec and TAS friends al much.

2008-05-13T01:19:00.002+08:00

today in Dance class,
we learn the精舞门 of 小猪.
Its difficult.
Previously learn a bit of 孤单芭蕾 of 许慧欣.
Also very difficult.

Today i feel "Heavy".
i know in facts, i am ...in terms of weight.
but over here i mean i just had my dinner and i feel heavy and cant move.. lol.
but in the end. it turns out ok la..
think next time dun eat so full for dinner.
i got gastric pain almost near to end of lesson.

must really push myself to stop eating junk food.
make me get fat alot recently.
already so fat. still put on 2 kg more.
and that spare tyre like getting bigger.
causing problem to dance... and of course my health.

Halo.. Dear Regine,
i am suppose to get thinner by dancing.. not fatter lei.
No more junk ok..

basically i am what i eat la.. all fats mostly at stomach.
i tried 1 week eat porrridge, my stomach really become smaller.
Do any1 know the Facts abt fats?
if one with more fats gather at lower body compare to one with more fats gather at stomach,the one with fats at stomach got higher risk of getting health problem and diseases.
Therefore ... gals with lower body more fats, but other parts of body still ok..
Dun worry k.. cause the lower body need a bit of fats also for giving birth next time. i guess thats why old ppl always say.. big bottoms good for giving birth.. lol
but 1 pointer... remember to take lots of calcium... if not the bones cannot support.
While those with big stomach[except those who are preg].. take note of what you eating.

Ok.. a bit too off topic here.

hmm.. today in school. Discuss FYP lor. By thurs neeed to hand in draft of Pitch paper. Sat meet FYP Supervisor. 1st meeting only.. more to come along the weeks.
Fri got to hand in 356 lab 3 assg.--> haven start doing
Wed need to hand in 366 Ubuntu assg 1.--> this 1 DAMN diffcult.
still got the 356 Tank Game assg going on and due in 3 weeks after lab 3.
---> haven start yet.. plus its difficult.

the school think its so easy..
especially for 366. that idiot lecturer... who knows what he is trying to say in lecture sia. and totally not related to any of our assg. nv teach any programming then ask us to program that thing out.
all need to self study and all not enough time.

its again 2am now.. these few weeks.. i almost everyday sleep 2am.
tmr probably going school trying to figure out that ubuntu again.
---> i feel like an idiot. i totally do not understand the codes.. and ya right...
they make it sound so easy. when i said i dun understand i really dun understand la.

Whats the diff between you and the Lecturer if you all insist that i should be able to do it if i Slowly Look and Study the codes..[how do you know i did not try in the 1st place]

Regine... Breathe..
Go sleep now... get enough rest for the road ahead.

2008-05-09T02:14:00.005+08:00

YAWN~*

its 215am now.
just finish ANOTHER so-called LAST EDIT of the congrat video.
julia's bro and relative[specifically that ONE] really very inconsiderate.
Taking ppl for granted.

AM i being too good already?

NOT just editing will do ok. i need to RE_RENDERED the whole video.

OH MAN!!. Do you ppl know how troublesome it is not?

today i went to read a few friends de blog.
got a bit emo of my feelings.
there are lots of things in life that we have to realise and reflect on.
did i do that?
if i did, what have i conclude out of it?. whats changes have i made to improve?
makes me ponder a while.

maybe it is not the right time to pause and think now as....
i got lots of assg to be done by weekend.
and i DUNNNO how to do. DAMN

REGINE... breathe....
look into 1 thing at a time... opps
maybe a few things at a time but keep the line clear enough of each.
calm down and things will turn out better. dont panic.
Friends will be there to help.

OHOHOH.. and i found $4 on the floor just now on way home.

and..YAWN~*..
i got to get some sleep b4 tmr long day [ or rather today will be another long day]

2008-05-07T23:33:00.006+08:00

just got home from school

the damn lift spoil. someone so violent press the button till stuck there.
then another person more violent to actually force open the lift when it is already not working.
both lift Stuck.
I live 11th floor lor.
Old liao. how can make me climb.. haiyo

today at home...
finish the wedding montage finally. and i mean totally finish...
including the rendering.
left only to burn it out on a dvd and pass to the bride.
why dvd...? cause the file size damn big.. almost 2 gb for 10mins video
in MOV format and in 1024x 786 size.

today in school ....
work on the assg 2 for 356. still haven do assg 1 for 366.
plus today suppose to finish lab 5 and 6 together with tutorial 5 and 6 for 366.
damn difficult and all need to take very long. how to finish????

then got to stay for FYP briefing at 7pm.
talk of that, gabriel told me he read jianwei blog and feel/realise that jianwei is not happy to to same group as us.
What did we do that he dont like. And as if i like working with him in the 1st place. but i nv denied that he is able to work b4.
So whats the problem with him.
If he feel that we wasted the time just now and nv discuss anything ...then why not he take the initiative to start the discussion.
I mean... dun just keep saying what you dont like or why nv do this why nv do that... Take the initiative to do it 1st lor.
Waiting for some1 to do it 1st meh. i waiting for you, you waiting for me. who is going to do it then.
i hate this kind of ppl.
Ownself didnt even MOVE 1st then just complaint ppl nv MOVE.
I can be the Project manager [not as if i nv be leader b4] but i know i cannot commit the time and effort the supervisor expect due to my other commitment outside.
and i am very open to letting them[ the guys] do it,
1st point being i am the only gal in the group, letting the guys lead is a good thing for me to learn to be listening and work more, not talk more.
2nd point being, its good to let them LEAD/ TRY to LEAD. you nv try you nv know your abilities can be more than what you think.
SO. I REALLY DUNNO WHATS the PROBLEM with him.
HATE those ~ZAI2 NAN2.

opps.. i might be a bit of ZAI2 NYU3 too.
who cares.. at least i am more outdoor, more equal on both sides.

Dont try to mess with me... i can be angel this sec and devil at the other.

~ROAR~

2008-05-06T22:28:00.005+08:00

WOHOHO,
I got my MacBook ytd night, and i got those needed software installed today.
HAPPY..
BUT....today 1st day using , 1st day bring to school, i got a few scratches on it already. Heart feel pain sia.

Finish the editing of the whole wedding montage this morning.
Just shown it to the bride and groom a while ago.
Rendering now.. there are 12669 Frames to render ok. and thats not the end.

That julia just handed me 2 ADD-ON of the congrat videos.
She said just throw it behind..
but you think i will do so meh.
it will destroy the whole montage.
i have no choice but to RE-edit the congrat video and RE-Render it.
ALthough that is not a VERY LONG/HARD edit. but thats not the point.
I am using my precious school time to do this and PEOPLE please be more considerate.
It not that i am 24/7 free, waiting for you to be READY to pass the video to me.
Anyway, Thats that and it is going to be end of story by this weekend.

I can now focus on my FYP and other incoming assgs. averagely i got to finish 2 assgs each week. 2 only[you might think] but its all programming..OK.. its not easy.

CGOverdrive2008 conference 17-20 June 2008.
Really feel like going.. but under student price[early bird only] it is $280.
Where got that extra $ to go.
Haiz.

The weather recently is DAMN HOT ar.
Just sit there doing nothing also will sweat like hell.
Fan is not of much use.
I need a AIRCON.

kk. thats all for today.

last but not least.. picture of my macbook

2008-05-01T17:57:00.002+08:00

Wahaha,
I am very excited. I am going to get my MacBook very soon.
My bro offer to get the laptop for me. How did he know i need 1?......
Thats because i complaint that my old laptop is dying and i cant do my work.
So he actually notice that and on last Sun when i was about to go to work, he suddenly pop out that question. You wanna buy a macbook right, go check out how much and where can use credit installment.
And YTD, i actually placed my order witt APPLE already.
As today is a PH, they cant process my application. Fri morning, they will process it. and Since SAT and SUN is weekend, I will be getting my MacBook on either Mon or Tues. Lucky i do not have school that 2 days. if not i will have to arrange another day for them to deliver it. which mean to wait longer..... and i cant wait any longer. LOL.HOHOHO

YTD night and this morning is a long day for me.
YTD night went to clean my bro house[prepare for new tenant to be in]from 6.30 to 1am with My Bro, His GF, and Me. I bet no 1 can imagine the dirt LEVEL. The toilet is literally BLACK. and i mean BLACK. the window panel and wall tiles in Kitchen is YELLOW[from all the cooking]. My bro basically give the toilet a makeover. now its is at least a bit yellowish only. still not that bad. and his gf and i take charge of the window panel and wall tile now they are shining.

This morning however, i got to bring our old TV over for the new tenent. its heavy. cause i carry it with my mother. she dunno how to carry. i think if i carry with some1 else, it will be better. i hurt my finger because of that. and i can still feel the sore now. I am back home only at 1pm.

Now i am doing the final editing for the wedding montage for dominic and rachel.
Lucky the last rendering works. just now got problem with it sia.
Oh, i realise i actually know rachel SIS. Rebecca from my Work and Travel USA trip. What a small world.
K then. The 1st rendering just done. got to get back to the main video edit.

2008-04-17T23:54:00.002+08:00

WOW. just came back from NRA_FANTAZIA performance at NP convention hall. ITS Great. but only for 2 hrs. Wanna have more of it... but without the singers please...opps.

Regret nv join NRA when in NP. but again not that i wanna join i can get in. need to audition. Still remember when we are young, shimin liling xuan and me . we actually wanna try take part in a SPEED dance competition. HAha. but in the end nv go.
By the way, SPEED is our IDOL. JPOP Group. Somehow the 4 of us now are into the dance thingy. but me and xuan is beginner's beginner. lol. shimin and liling already expert. Time flies.... what am i doing when i am in NP?... OH...
I am in TAS[The Adventure Seekers]. Thats not bad too. But i still think i should have join NRA. What to do.. thats already the past and its not going to change.

Only hope that i can improve more on my dancing now. And of course just like what my msn nick says.:" .... to slim down..."
Kind of difficult though. I can see. My mouth just cant stop eating junk food..Opps

OK. Bye for now.. got to sleep.. early class tmr

2008-04-15T02:48:00.006+08:00

Damn Stress up these couple of weeks and i can foresee it to continue till May.

School started with 3 individuals assg and 1 group assg.
Other than the regular class time[by the way i am a full-time under-grad student],i need to find time for those assg if not i will not grad.
But i have no time to even start looking at the assg descriptions. Dunno HOW i am suppose to finish it. Got to spare time to meet with group for the assg too.

Dunno why i got accept the job or rather a favour for helping a friend in her cousin's wedding montage. Only making myself more busy.
Lucky still got a friend helping to do it too.
Consider it a experience.. i know but not at this moment where i cant even breathe.
School is definately more important on my point of perspective. Spare a thought for me. I am already trying my best to help. Give me time. Dont come stress me and add on to my stress. It doesnt help at all.

Got the work at Dancepointe. Although on surface only work 1 day.
But i am put to be in-charge of that branch. As mention in previous blog. Very hard for me to know whats going on the past week. I got to keep myself updated and doing the respective management and that means i need extra time to spend on this area too.

Regular Hiphop class. Although on 1 day for the class. But regular practice is also needed. Plus so many events and performance coming up. Need to Spare out extra time for it to0.

SPARE a bit extra time here, NEED a bit extra time there.
~BOMB~. Where to squeeze time?

Sorry to my group mates for not having quality assg time with them.
Sorry to myself for not able to do good for my part as a student.
Sorry to dancepointe if i have miss out some details during work.
Sorry to the bride and groom for not having enough meetings with you for progress of the montage.

Breathe.....
I really wonder how so many of my friends can handle even more stuff than me.
I guess there is still a diff for a Poly Student and a Under-Grad.

2008-04-04T12:15:00.002+08:00

Think my laptop no hope liao..
format so many time also still got problem. the standby button [at the "start", together with the shut down and restart] its not working[in grey]..
dunno why..
i dunno how to set up the connection cause i dunno the subnet mask and IP and default gateway. previously i only use SSID and WEP can work le.
it keep showing the wireless is not on. but my laptop dun have a button for me to on off. previously uses the IBM connection manager then can choose to on/off.
i borrow from my friend original win xp cd also still the same.

Time to get a new laptop.... BUT where got $.

Boss ask me work more days... BUT where got time.
i still got school and projects to handle. Plus the external project[Wedding Montage]on the number 1 list.

Damn. at this time the laptop crash. YES.. i can use my desktop to do. but when it come to time when need to discuss or work with my team, then i need the laptop. difficult to work without it.
My term in school probably need to use the laptop for the assgs and lab work too. school lab com sucks.

got to go get ready for school now.

2008-04-01T23:40:00.004+08:00

Tmr 1st day of new term. Sun my laptop crush. All my stuff inside. haiz.
Already got plans for the wedding montage. need to use the laptop after class to do it but...
i used my external hdd for laptop now. but haven format it. no more external hdd for me. should have buy 1 during IT show.

As for dance,another event coming up in 25th april. Got to work extra hard from now on if we wanna work towards getting paid for shows. But Always Remember ..dance is abt PASSION not $$.
Tmr after school got practise. then got to format the laptop tmr morning in order to get it ready for thurs use.
Lots of stuff going on.

Got to go sleep now. here are some pictures that i promise will post in previous blog.

2008-03-28T01:24:00.003+08:00

haiz....
last fri and sat , went back for extra work.
tmr got to go back again for extra work. Cause its urgent, got to get it done.
i only working sun actually.. but somehow i kind of in-charge of the branch. Anything wrong, i kena. difficult for me cause i might miss out things cause i only working 1 day.
But it is a challenge for me to get it done, balance school and work and external project, as well as handling the stress level.

past 2 days slack at home.
get ready some environment models that can be use for the wedding montage. but got to wait for my friend side to get ready the character models. Damn worry abt the progress too. 1st time doing this. Dont wan to ruin this.

Past few sat went for extra dance classes. every sat can feel the muscles ache like siao. Sat long dance, Sun whole day work. Mon dance again.
BUT... its fun, enjoyable. want more of it.

long time nv blog. tried to use a new skin..edit it half way only then lazy to keep editing it.
So not my character to do this.
Template still best for me..
Just post only. Got very nice template now also. save the trouble.

9th March.....
Big day for us_ Dancepointe Hiphop.
1st time i feel like we are a GROUP.
Should be due to our new costumes & the teacher... etc.

Recently dont really use my camera outside/ during events.
all my friends got camera. then every1 taking again & again.
1 camera after another... same image.. i think.. aiya. just get the pictures from them lor.
Slowly getting rusty in my photography skills liao.

Will upload some of the pictures we took that day during next post ba.

School term_ 3 starting soon 2nd Apr
Getting ready to be damn busy again. thats why feeling lazy these few day.
suppose to be rushing the montage but i just slow down..
MUST push myself to move liao.. no time..Wedding in MAY.. time flies
next term should be fun again.. according to the modules.. haha..
Multimedia Computing, Game Engine Fundamental

Regarding the diet. haiz.
due to the 9th march performance, i need energy, so i stop it.
intend to continue/restart after taht but... haha... you know la... lazy... no motivation...
okok...REGINE...MOVE IT..

2008-02-11T23:30:00.000+08:00

thats fast... new year is over( in fact not really over until YuanXiao) but got to go back to school tmr.

already change my nick back to normal. but is everything really back to normal as it seems... still got to observe a while. cant let my guards down.

kind of lazy. must be rest for too long.. got to do the animation. but i just started it just now. realise i dunno how to do video post in 3d max. whatever la.

Still got to try out the assg 5 & 6 for the next 2 classes for CSCI236-3D modelling and animation.

Sianz. suddenly like give everything back to teacher.. forgot how to do everything.. lack of practice and playing around with the software..
hmm.. think must really spend some time on practising liao.

wanna start my next round of detox diet soon.

a bit sore throat also.. must be the food from new year- BA KUA,love letter etc..

sleep a lot still feel very tired or rather just feel very lazy the whole day(in fact.. for the last 2 days)

2008-02-05T13:30:00.000+08:00

just a quick blog b4 i go out.
chinese new year is coming. to be exact. chinese new year eve is tmr.

the stupid incident have been bothering me for more than 1 week.
there is 1 friend who told me: why should i be angry if i dun care abt this friend.
and that everybody have a choice. there is a solutions to everything.

i agree that everyproblem got a solution. but that doesn apply to all cases.
in this case it is a bit complicated. it is not just 2 friends who argue. if it is, you can say that if 1 side give in 1st the problem will somehow be solved.
but in this case.. i simply dun have a choice. whether we can still be friends or not. depends on him.
if he thinks that " let be friends again = still have hope between us" then my answer will be " NO... NO MORE FRIENDS".. as simple as that... i wanna stop the cycle.
it have been 2 years. i beat around the bush for 2 years. hinting that it is not possible between us. But he dun get it... in his mind... he equalize friends as hopes between us..
how long can i tahan this. i got to stop this cycle from going all over again.
I want to be friends.. but there are ppl who dun wan to be just purely friends.
So do all of you still think i have another choice other than STOP this friendship?
Dun make it seems like its me that is too Heartless. I have No Choice.

2008-02-05T00:53:00.000+08:00

Have been long since i last posted... FINALLY.. know how to change the template... i actually know how to change .. all along its the blogger problem..
if you use layout- default template. you cant use the customized template.
got to change to classic template to be able to change to those blog skins available.

Anyway i did it.. BUT haven finish editing all stuff.
quite troublesome. so not me... i rather use a simple default template to post what i want to say...

Read from somewhere that... Life is already so messy and troublesome. will keep the blog as simple as possible...>> i totally agreed.

but its good to just try new things. if really not used to it.. can change back to template anytime.

Recently a bit Frustrated by an idiot who just dont understand my words.
Long story....really frustrating and irritating...
Haiz.
friends who got my msn will know..
my MSN nick is now...
GET A LIFE.... PLEASE... LEAVE ME ALONE or KILL ME INSTEAD.

yup... thats how frustrated i am..

2007-10-07T17:22:00.000+08:00

Back to Work @ Dancepointe. JW
8.30am - 7pm
Lots of updating to do.
But not a problem to me at all. ...Wahaha

1st week in school, having Systems Adminstration(SA)
IP addresss...subnet mask...nework address... broadcast address...sub network...usable addresses
...busses...protocols...daemons...TCP...SMTP...DNS......etc etc.
???
the lecturer teach 100%, i only absorb ..
1st day(wed 3oct) > 10%
2nd day(thurs 4oct) > 25%
3rd day(fri 5oct) > 45%
4th day(sat 6oct) > 60% plus almost KO in class( cause class started from morning 9am till 5pm)

lucky the lecturer give us a choice to go for shorter lunch so that we can end@ 4pm plus @ around 3.30pm, he gave us a choice whether to continue the lecture with a new topicand of course all our ans are "NO".
Ended class @ 3.30pm

Damn tired, sleep real early on sat night @ 9pm.
next mon and tues, SA again

will be busy with school and work for this coming year.
~Jiayou~

oh oh.. i just received my Citibank Clear Credit Card. its black in color. VERY NICE.
going to apply for standard chartered card too. its sliver in color. hehe

YEah.. finally.. dance tmr...

since fri .. or is it sat?... i have been feeling/hearing my right ear drum pumping/popping.... WHY is that so?
i always knew that my right ear is a bit different from left ear. but why is it like this now.. i dun have a problem for over the pass 22 yrs lei.
WWWEIRDDDD.........

2007-10-02T19:32:00.000+08:00

Back from my holiday.
Went to China- BeiJing, TianJin, ChengDe 22nd Sept to 29th Sept 2007

Went to lots of attractions... took lots of pictures..... learn lots of history.
Chose some of the best photos to show.

Really enjoyed the whole trip.

I WANT TO GO AGAIN.

I want to travel around the world.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

Rest for 3 days liao. Class starting tmr.

haven pack my bag.

Too long nv go to school. forgot the feel liao. dunno can cope not.

nvm.. tahan 1 year only.. hehe

2007-09-21T00:21:00.000+08:00

20th Sept 2007

Happy Birthday to Me --JuanZ

Thanks Xuan, Daphne, Julia, Baby Charr , Leon, Ling, Qing
Love the Bag....and the Colgate(for sensitive gum)

RED is my color---> lucky, lucky , lucky

Not forgetting our lucky number picking
---> 3137 (picked by Juanz)
---> 2256 (picked by Xuan, Daphne, JuanZ, Julia) plus.. its leon hp number
p/s: ppl faster go buy.