Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Once again its emo time.

hey, i am not a free labour.
although i am free at home, doesnt mean i have to help do those editing and let you make use of it to earn $.
for designers and editors, all these works and time spent is assets.
we shouldnt be doing for free.
please do really understand this Fact.
i have already do those design for free during my time at work. which is not my job scope and in the 1st place i should be paid for it. but nv.since its over, i close 1 eye and just tell myself to learn from the lesson.
but again, i stupidly make the smae mistake again.
i have already sent the original work out. and even if further editing need to be done to it for other usage, the new worker should be the 1 doing it.
if want me to do it, its another deal.
make it clear, that cd cover and label,is also not included in the video editing job scope.
Yes ,... it is just simple editing and given that i have the original working files[ as i am the priginal creator of that design] it should be even a easy job for me.
But i still need to spend time doing it.
whats more, after i done it then more changes came in. which mean i have to redo and spend even more time on it.
why not mention all things from the start . why waste my time.

I know my biggest problem is.........
i dunno how to say NO.

but true friends wont make use of me.
Dont you see you becoming more like S-11.
He also making use of those who is useful to him.
You might say you are innocent and that you just dunno this multimedia market work this way.
But now i am telling you straight and i hope you stop making use of me.
if you want do it business way, then please do it throughly.
stop using friends for business purpose.
Think of how ppl contribute and help you,
you should also give back some benefits.
the earth is not just turning upon you as the centre.

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OK.
Given the fact that i am the one who is stupid enough to make the same mistake over and over again.
and Considering the possibilities that she might not be really having that(making use of ppl) in mind(although in fact she already did it without realising.
I will just let this rest.

But please.... we are all human. please do consider my feelings.

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Wednesday, April 22, 2009

watching Jap drama- Ghost Friends. Ep1.
seems not bad.
after relaxing so long, its also time to THINK.

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confused abt what i should choose.
to go on the course/programme full-time, getting low-pay as apprentice[total of 6 mths but the course is free-sponsored] OR
to wait for replys for resume i sent [without pay while waiting, but if i got the job will be of course of higher pay than being apprentice]

Next step/ decision to make will be whether i should go take up the 1 yr full-time dip... although sponsor by WDA still must put total of abt $8600+.
really interested in the dip but when i grad with that and work in that area, will not be as high pay for a new grad as compare to what i might be already be working as.
wanted to put that aside and not choose now. but the WDA sponsor might end anytime.

What do i really want?
I have got no idea.
stable salary with fix schedule and doing something that is not that boring. best if i am interested in it.
i guess thats abt what i want in a job.

the 1st programme i mention is 6 mths. its neither very long nor short period of time. many things can happen / change.
but i am really not confident i can get a job i want in 6 mths.
then again i got to worry that i still do not have a stable income,CPF and savings.
i have nth.
makes me worry.
....
confused...
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thinking...
pondering.........
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Sunday, April 19, 2009

Still as sick.

my mother asking try chinese physician instead.
so i finally tried it.
seems not bad.
but to know whether its does cure me. will need some time to show.

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stop irritating me..
you are not the only one who is right.
i am not your personal assistant.
if you want to pay your bill at the very last min, and cant even give me instructions clearly. and become uncontactable.
then dun come back and make it seems like its my fault.
saying that i should call you long-distance when you nv reply sms.
or saying sms cant get through and as if i will know that too.
you jolly-well can ask me pay for you earlier and not last min.

By the well. i am doing you a favor.
and AGAIN. i got to state: I am not you Personal Assistant.
and i dun always passby the AXS machine and ATM.

I am not trying to be selfish or as if i cant even help do a simple task.
but please do not make it sounds like i owe you that.

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Friday, April 17, 2009

SICK again
why so sway..
just started work for only 1 week

thinking back and analysing the condition
i think i nv really get well since the concert.
i just seems to be ok liao. but deep inside the body .
the virus is still not totally clear yet.

thats why during new year, relapse again. then.
seems to be better and cure.
then now another relapse.
keep coughing. at night cant sleep well as i will just keep coughing.
morning need to clear the throat and nose as i will feel as if something is stuck there.
cant talk much. as i will tend to feel the condition getting worse if i speak too much.

really need to rest well to regain the body immune system.
i use to be very healthy.
seldom got flu or cough or fever.
but since the concert period. i have been coughing and having flu, lost of voice . on and off.
this seems to show that my body immune system is no longer strong and what it used to be.

i have to get better and regain the body immune system fast.
if not, this will really affect my work in future..
lucky now i am working part time and i can just take off and stop work.
but its does still affect the work and colleagues.

I am so sorry.
but i am really not feeling very well.
i dun mean to sabo you all for this job.
hope i can get well fast and thenget back to finish up the project.
feel so guilty.

Thursday, April 09, 2009

at work
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currently working part time as telemarketer.
project-based.
this current project i dealing with is for abt 3 weeks.
not really my cup of tea.
probably wont continue with the next project.
but i got to mention that the colleagues here are all very nice.

meanwhile sending resumes, looking for job.
preferred digital media, multimedia
but dun mind dealing with events, customer services.

if got any lobang .. pls inform me. thanks

enough of updates. then it will be my complaints time.
those who not interested can stop here.

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from now on.
i can go for the extra dance class.
just because she accidentally realise i going that class.
but.. everyone else is also going extra class.
not only me..
so dun treat it as if i am the only 1 "zhan pian yi".
actually also no " zhan" any " pian yi"
all learning same thing. just getting extra chance to use studio to practice more on the "same steps
dunno why must so kaykao.

if want kaykao then i also can kaykao.
... long stories.....
i know... no matter what.. its a business...
but cannot be all good things you BAO.
then ppl no benefits at all.
if want kaykao law by law then i also can do that from all the work i done.

Greed is one of the biggest sin in this world.
pls do think again, if greed is more important than.....blah... many stuff...
what will be you be left at the end of the day.

I realise that point just not long ago.
what i want now is just a stable job that i dun really hate or better if i like it.
Dance while i still can.
earn an amount that is enough to pay off my debt, bills, insurance, daily life and some savings.
Just nice will be enough. dun need too much..
Happy will be the no.1 point i am looking at now.
i wont want to earn alot.. but dragging myself to work everyday. and always moody and stress.