HAIZ...
very sad...

at 1st i just want to have fun with my friends.
then i realise i only create more problems for myself
i purly wants to have a party tahts all.
nv expect that it will be so troublesome.
if i knew earlier.
i will have just still to my sec friends plan.
they will plan everything. i dun need worry.

now that i have my own chalet,
form booking of chalet to ordering fo bbq food etc.
all i settle.
very stress.
trying to make it good.
trying to kind of make up for my 21st birthday.
although now most things is confirmed,
BUT 1 big problem is.
no 1 is staying
if i know then in teh 1st place i will just be ordering buffet at my house.
now the chalet is booked and no1 is staying.
wasted

at 1st thought only 2nd night is bad...
only julia and me for my chalet
only yaxina and huiling for sec chalet
..
but now i realise.. 1st night is nth better.
got xuan leon me julia.
qing and ling probably not staying as ling got to work..
edith and jacky also not staying liao.
limei cant stay cause wnat study exam.
bernice not staying if there is no1 going back with her for 20th.
although xuan and leon night be going back on 20th.

seriously after knowing all the problem that suddenly arised..
i brain -blocked.
i cant think liao.
i feel so tired.
now so last min. cant find ppl to come 2nd day .
even if have ppl, no plan at all for 2nd night.
really cant think liao.
i think i need a break then come back to think abt this.
if not, i will break out.

i only have 3 days left.
and i am trying to tell myself ..
I have 3 days MORE. not that i ONLY have 3 days

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speechless.
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