Saturday, June 12, 2010

why do i feel so ..... lost? restless? aimless? confused? doubtful? emptiness?
i dun even know what word can describe that feeling.
i can be busy and fill with lots of things in mind.
but there will be " this moment" every time that i will stop and ask...
what am i misssing?.
what kind of feeling is this?.
then i will turn to god.
i will ask if he's really there.
does he notice my existence?

then i will recall the "msg from god" from fb.
"god wants u to know that he have been listening and answering u.. its time u stop asking and quiet down to listen to him."

and then i will tell myself to listen hard...
whats the msg for me?..
can i find it?. can i understand it?

i am always so confused.. wondering...
i dunno whats wrong and i dunno how to fix it..

i think i am just like the tv series.- LOST..
the seasons continues but still lost.


i realise i only thin of blogging when i am feeling down..
when i am happy, i am too busy enjoying that moment that i am too lazy to write it donw.
when i am sad. the only place/ person i can talk to is the other me..
thats why i only blog when i am sad/ lost/ angry...but not happy.

guess thats not a good way to blog..
cause in this case... i will be storing sorrows and not happiness..

i am learning and trying
to understand myself.. what i am doing. what i wanted to achieve at the end.

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