Just got home

Today got a performance at JW SRC.
At the very beginning, the news we got its that the performance is in the morning.
and then the plan was to perform morning,give brochure for 2 hours then go wild wild wet.
no clash at all.
Then only last week that we found out its going to be at around 1.10pm.
So its either go give brochure or go wild wild wet.
since we nv confirm abt wild wild wet event, i agree to give brochure.
then last min. got enough ppl going wild wild wet again.
so i cant go give brochure.

But today, we finish our run through, our warm up etc. and we waited and waited. and still not going to perform yet.
we have another appt with julia to go to wild wild wet after perfromance.
never expect drag till around 2pm.
then finally we perform(i also dunno at what time). then we have a quick lunch(pizza ordered by jacky for all of us) and its abt 2.45pm.

Then still got to go back to xuan house to get her stuff for wild wild wet.
but we all so tired. we reach her house at 3pm.
then i called julia(already waiting since 1.30pm at JP), mentioning that why not we not go. as the time travel and etc. at the end will have no time to really enjoy.
why not meet up with the rest and do something else.
In fact she already sms leon awhile b4 i call her. mentioning abt the same thing.
but still from the phone i can sense her down tone.
She ask us to meet up with jacky they all 1st and will call me later after she done at JP.

Xuan leon me. went all the way back to JW SRC.
We plan that we will go give brochure and meet at clementi for ktv.
so off we go to giving out the brochure.
xuan leon at JP.
edith me bernice at clementi.
we meet up with xuan and leon for dinner at clementi and while waiting for jacky, we went to song & song to shop for shorts/pants for dance. and after which we wnet to check out the KTV.
and we realise too ex for singing on sat.

then we decide to find a place sit and talk and drink water.
then we really settle down at mos burger.
then jacky came and the 6 of us talk talk talk talk.... till 12am.
Abt all sorts of things...funny and interesting... and its ends with with bernice's laughter and jacky own pronounciation word list.
LOL~~~~

Its quite happening for all plans to go wrong but still in the end make it a happy day.

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Dunno if you all do realise that every time when you have a appt, most stuff tend to be clashing on the same day.
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这个世界有很多种人。
不同皮肤，不同种族，不同语言。
更有上千百亿万种不同性格之分。

有些人，你刚开始很讨厌他。
但相处久了，却发现他其实很不错。

有些人，你刚开始觉得他是个好人。
但日子久了，却发现他其实是个大烂人。

还有一些人，从一开始就很讨厌他，
而希望时间久了， 你会发现他的好。
但事实上，不管过了多久，或是你发现他有多少优点，你始终还是看他不顺眼。

有些人天真得让你好气又好笑，
有些人心计重得让你觉得可怕。

有时、人会在无意间做一些让你不开心或对不起你的事，但他纯粹是无心之失。
可是这世上也有人会刻意地做一些让你不开心或对不起你的事，那却是经过精心策划的。

人、说有多可爱就有多可爱 ；说有多恐怖就有多恐怖。

其中，有几分是真，几分是假。
只有 人 自己才清楚。

但，你 清楚吗？

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Got my new specs today.
Same design as huiling's,
we went to make it tgt.
but color diff of course.

But i not very used to it.
i mean my eyes.
too Bright for me.
the optometrist say need some time to get used to the new specs.
for those who often use computer, might need even longer time.
i tried wearing it just now, and i feel like as if i am drunk.
dizzy and headache.

damn.
shall try again tmr.

Thank you yaxin for helping me choos ethe speca and intro me her friend's shop.
Thanks Lester for this offer.

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why is there this kind of ppl?
treat strangers as if you know there very well and treat family members like maids and personal assistant

please do think hard. and make it clear.
we are not the one who betray you...
instead, you are the one who is doing it the wrong way now.
$ is not everything . thats very true.
but then why are you so calculative towards family members and so generous to strangers?
you jolly well know we are not working now and dun have much savings.
does it ever come to your mind that you need to give home allowance?
did you ever think of returning the $ for the mis-use of loan for MLM?
especially the HALF of that amount that is already been refund.
why is it not return to mother but into your pocket?

i cant say i have no responsibility over that matter.
but taht not the main point now. cause i did bear that debt in mind and will return once i have the ability.
You might say you also think of it....
but judging by the situation now,
you dun even give home allowance even when i reminded you.
so you think will you remember that loan and Half of amount?

I learn more things as i slowly turn older.
and there are good and bad things.
i realise what i want is simple and
i realise this family is selfish.
dun blame me for being selfish.
cause i live in a family like this.
i can totally understand why the incident in USA happened at that time.
Cause in some ppl eyes i am selfish and do things my ways occasionally OR
in fact maybe most of the time but i did not realise then.
When i finally try and change to be more sensitive and be considerate for ppl,
i found myself being make use of.
and when i try to balance both,
i suddenly discover that. NO.
i shouldnt do that.
I am totally confused.

I really do think i have split personallites.\
But due to my very well control of my 脑前叶(frontal lobe) , that is why i can keep both to balance very well.
I really cant imagine what will happen if 1 day, i just cant help it anymore.
I really need to get out of this.

I give up on this family and from now on, its only me i am going to think of.
and friends of course. they did not do anything wrong to me..so i will still be loyal.

人生哲学RULE No. 1: Pay back 10 times of what you get.

p/s: not in terms of $ la

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