finally.. i have enough rest
and i have the mood to blog abt my trip, chalet, company dinner etc etc.
Dated 17th Dec 2008 - 27th Dec 2008

Lets start with the trip.
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HK Trip [macau-hk-gz]
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17th dec 10am,
we all gather at budget terminal, checking in and taking lots of photos.
Limei and Bernice came to send us off too.
They are so cute. they insist on pulling the luggages for us.
pretending they are also going for the trip.

Then we took lots and lots of photos in the budget terminal.
it is very small there but we can still make good use of it.. LOL

1st night at macau. we stayed at metropark hotel.
We went The Venetian @ Macau for Dinner and it is really worth the trip there.
The interior is design as if we are really in Vernice.
The whole building is a hotel cum shopping centre cum casino.
And during dinner, there is our very 1st surprise news....[ i shall not elaborate on that anymore].
But my 1st thought was that ." wow! my talisman really working too effectively"
HAHA.

18 Dec
Then its the next morning where we need to go take a ferry from macau to kowloon.
I was like dying on the ferry.
I started to feel dizzy when we were putting the luggage at the back.
The ferry have not even move yet, i already starting to feel dizzy.
Thats how serious my sea-sick is.
After we reach Kowloon. I was still feeling that shake. as if i am still on ferry the whole day.
we check in hotel[Harbour plaza, where ballerinas stays too] then got to rush lunch then dance class.
And we are all having a very late lunch due to the drag in time.
then i started feeling dizzy.. lack of sugar.
I thought i am too hungry thats why. but after eating it doesnt really helps.
Cause food are salty and what i need is sugar.
Then its dance class after that. Jazz Funk & Hiphop Beginners
The Jazz funk class[open level] really gave us a shock.
Hiphop beginners are still catchable.
But whole body started to cramped up.
But our itinerary is too rush..
I dun even have time to rest and get well from my sea-sick. and we had meals at very late hours.
Dinner was at around 10plus 11pm.
And ya.. i still have the sea-sick feel.
And back at hotel, the hot bath doesnt seems to help.
Then the very same night, chyna rachel weiling mabel come crush my room[me and julia].
So i stayed up a bit late with them. listening to their interesting class experience.

19 Dec
Purposely wake up bit early to have breakfast with ballerinas. cause the timing we hiphoppers suppose to meet is after when the ballerinas abt to leave. lucky i got info from the gals previous night.
So i make it a point to wake early to meet them.

Then its shopping at SASA-尖沙咀.

Then the same day, we having 4 dance classes.
2 private and 2 public.
Hiphop, Popping, Jazz hiphop, House respectively.
After the House, all of us cant feel our legs.
We all were like.. " Do we have legs in the 1st place..? " LOL
But the classes are damn fun. the warm ups are very good.
Jazz are hard for me as usual. but this time round still manageable.
Then we had dinner[ all of us have fast food as dinner].

20th Dec
Going to The peak with the ballerinas as our dance class is at noon.. or is it 2pm?.
what ever.
the fact is we went the Peak with ballerinas on a tram.
Anyway, along the way, the ballerinas was really rude.
Not really welcoming the hiphoppers.
But who cares. KIDS....
So after the PEAK, we got to leave 1st to rush for class.
again we having 4 classes on that day.
2 hiphop, 1 locking, 1 breaking.
the hiphop is fun. but when its time for locking, Kay can see that we are all very tired and he started teaching basics and theory. Its really very nice of him and observance.
Then we went dinner and was wondering if we want to go the breaking class.
thinking that we might just "Break" away in class.
LOL
anyway, tira was NOT feeling well for the WHOLE day. so she actually nv attend the 4 classes. and julia also give the breaking class a miss.
and the others decided that we want to do it " one for all , all for one"
So in the end we all did went for it..
and i am really glad that we did. cause its damn fun..
its a bit casual style as it is a relive class by another teacher. we learn new freeze and foot work.

And since its the last day of dance classes,
Jacky decided to buy us all the studio danz pants.
But sad thing , there is no size available. so all of us get L.
But i still like it alot.

21st Dec
Last day in HK, going ocean park with ballerinas.
Charlotte was with us for the whole of ocean park rides.
She is my official partner for rides.
And the both of us are creating Noise Pollution to the maximum.
And we won lots of soft toys over there.
I have got to say.. i am very good at the Bulls Eyes games. Every1 beside me was like talking abt me being so good at it.. LOL
Opps .. Humble. Must be Humble.

And the ballerinas are going back to Sg that day while the hiphopper got to get to the train station for train to GZ.

we reach Gz damn late and also check in hotel damn late.
the hotel is like very scary..
teh lvl 16 produce a veyr weird vibes.
then we change to lvl 20.. its is so much better. but those giant mirrors at the corridor are also not very right.
but the lvl 20 got free com and internet.
thats when i actually can msn and check my emails.

22nd Dec
Bought lots of stuff .. just keep shopping. Buy Buy Buy.
Any how buy and then realise i short if stuff to give to many ppl.
but i know i still have the next day to continue buying.. LOL

23rd dec
Continuing with our plan to shop.
But zixin was not feeling well.
right in the morning. she came to my room and tell me she vommited.
And although i am 1st aider. But what 1st aider do is to treat wounds only.
not to diagnose liek a doc. But with basic knowledge, i knwo we should not let her eat any medicines when we dunno her situation.
But my guess is the hot pot the night b4. as she drank lost of the spicy soup.
And my guess is that its too acidic in her stomach.
and milk , water can dilute it.
But in the end we gave her po ji pills.
and 1st bottle she vommited out.
We had breakfast tabao and ate in my room.
then we went shopping. but she feel really unwell again.
so leon send her back. while she back in hotel sleeping. we continue our 2nd part of shopping of the day.

Then we need go back hotel unload our stocks. then go out for 3rd part. LOL
So zixin join us again. as she is feeling a bit better after the sleep and she wants o shop.
But during 3rd part of shopping, while we having dinner, zixin feel very unwell again.
This time round, jacky and edith send her back tohotel in a cab and tira followed.

Leaving Sean Leon Xuan Julia Me Shaoyi to shop for our very last round.
As the next day its time to come back SG.
I buy so many stuff till i blur liao.
I accidentally gave RMB5 More.
Whatever. i too tired to think also.
Just anyhow liao.

24th Dec
Got to check out at 730am.
What we did is just rush rush and rush.
We did not had breakfast.
So damn hungry.
All of us had breakfast on the plane. NOt free.
we are taking budget air, remember!
Ya. so finally we are back in SG.

The very same night, i still go xuan house for a family christmas celebrate.
1st time cut log cake. Stayed till 3am at her house then leon send us back.
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DP Chalet -> 25th Dec to 27th Dec
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Went to the chalet at around 7 plus. with pris, mel,deb. in deb's bf car.
Stayed for 2 nights.
and the stories begins.

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to be continued..........
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Concert is finally over.
Great job to everybody.
And thank you all friends who came to support.

I love this concert so much.
The costumes,
The dancers,
The team,
Other than those hardwork B4 concert... LOL
BUT its all worth because of everybody.
Everyone looks very pretty.
The princesses,
The little ballerinas,
The hiphoppers,
ETC ETC...
of course including me.

Will nv dress and make up like that if not for this concert.
1st time put fake eyelash OK.
i look damn diff.
LOL

Must specially thanks a few ppl.
THANK YOU
Princess Pocahontas- Limei for helping me out on the planning and design.
My dearest cousin- Xuan for helping with my Mics part.
My greatest Hate&LOVE in ONE- Julia. for helping out with my Props part.
My hiphop babes who makeup for me and make me look good.
Thanks Leia for her special good luck flower.
Without all of them, i cant do this.

Oh ... my BABY charlotte really impressed me with her great organizing and planning skills for her ballet kids.[ms foo and jacky think so too]
You are the best, BABY.
The prettiest Princess Cinderella ever.

1 and only pity thingy,
me xuan julia dun have time to take pictures for the whole concert.
its very very very very sad.
i want to take pictures with all the princesses.
and my hiphop dolls, and my friends who came for the concert.

A bit 舍不得。but 天下没有不散的筵席。
Magical Wonders is finally over.

Getting ready for HK trip soon.
And Welcoming 2009.
Might not be able to continue at DP once i found a full time.

Sad if i wont be able to see them again.
Love those ballerina gals.
All of them. They are very sweet.
They make me enjoy my SUN work at DP.

Love my hiphop gang too.
Always so ON.
Worry if class will have changes.
Worry if i wont be staying with the class.

Hope the happy moments will stay as it is.

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saw this from a email.
It is funny but kind of true.
Its titled:
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ME AND MY BOSS
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When I take a long time to finish,
I am slow,
When my boss takes a long time,
he is thorough.

When I don't do it,
I am lazy,
When my boss does not do it,
he is busy,

When I do something without being told,
I am trying to be smart,
When my boss does the same,
he takes the initiative.

When I please my boss,
I am apple polishing,
When my boss pleases his boss,
he is cooperating.

When I make a mistake,
I'm an idiot.
When my boss makes a mistake,
he's only human.

When I am out of the office,
I am wandering around.
When my boss is out of the office,
he's on business.

When I am on a day off sick,
I am always sick.
When my boss is a day off sick,
he must be very ill.

When I apply for leave,
I must be going for a job interview
When my boss applies for leave,
it's because he's overworked.

When I do good,
my boss never remembers,
When I do wrong,
he never forgets...
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LOL
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Its tues liao..
1 week pass by again.
I am still sick.
But definately getting better.

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browsing through friends' blog and realise their lifes are so interesting.

got to mention ZR somehow.
Seriously, i am glad for him that he finally found what he looking for in love.

But it makes me start to wonder.
If i were him, can i start a new relationship that fast?.[not long after ending the previous 1]
I will probably be still in pain and cant forget that love i had for that ex.
Hmm.
Diff ppl, diff perspective and ways we do things.

Maybe just because i am those kind of stubborn ppl.
When i choose something i will really be very 死心眼。
And i really mean it. I can actually 暗恋 a guy for 10 yrs. even when we start to see each other lesser and lesser, but each time i heard news abt him or even by chance saw him on the streets, my heart will still pump fast.
I guess he is the only 1 who can make my heart pumps that way [at least up till now].
I might have crush on other guys but its kind of short term and my heart dont beat the same way it does for that 1st guy.
LOL

ok
enough of that.
friends will be surprise to hear me mention abt my crush on guys.
LOL
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Judo 1st grading is on 11 dec. my concert ends on 10 dec
i did not go trainings since OCT. so therefore i not able to go for grading.
Damn Sad lo.

i am going to be 1 grade lower than my batch.

Concert day getting nearer, things still not done. Still sick.
Stress. Kan chong.

Why my weight nv get lighter from the illness?
still as fat.
Hais.
more stress

MC
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today on MC.

This morning i woke up coughing and vomit out the phlegm and mucus that is affecting my breathing.
For the past few days, i got to "Clear" my throat every morning.
To force-cough out the mucus-phlegm stuck inside.
It is green in color and its alot and alot.

Ok i should stop being disgusting. LOL

anyway, this morning i woke up vomiting and i know i got no choice.
I cough till i got headache. I cant breathe properly. I lost my voice.
I got to see a doc.
Anyway, the system at the polyclinic is better now. dun really got to wait that long as compared to last time.
Back to the point, the doctor was telling me that he can see this being big. as himself also got the same symptons and also a few of the doctors and nurses there also. He say this will be dragging for some time b4 i can totally recover.
I ask him if i can get well b4 dec concert. he gave me a very unsure face.
But anyway, he gave me a prescription and at the same time ask me to buy the lozenges that the doctors will take went they have sore throat.

Each @ $2.20

Then the pharmacists told me they run out of 1 of the medicines, so i need went back to the doctor to get a external prescription.
So i went up again, get the prescription then came down to the pharmacists to get the rest of my medicines... the doctor really give me alot of medicines.




But lucky its cheap. All @ $5.60. Plus consultation $9.

then i am back at my market, went to the Unity NTUC Healthcare pharmacy to get the medicine. and i realise it is a poison. to be exact, those consider posion medicine are those which can only take 1 tablet a day. if overdose will be dangerous.
And it is normally smaller in size as compared to normal tablet.

1 box of 10 tablet @ $9.95

This is not the 1st time i took a "poison" anyway. the 1st time i had "poison" was during poly when i got a virus cloning bateria on my right leg.
I had to take the "poison" to stop the cloning and spreading on my skins.
That "poison" is in diamond shape and 1 tablet in 1 box only.

So back to the point again.
I hope i can be well b4 the concert.
i seriously need more practice before the concert and i want to dance.

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I LOST MY VOICE.
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Due to not enough rest and sleep. Plus not enough intake of WATER.
I officially fall sick.
I cant really remember when did i last see a doc.
I am just like those who mention as 抵抗力超强的笨蛋.
Wont fall sick easily.
But once i really fall sick.. Damn.... its going to be serious.

on thurs, i woke up with a sore throat.
I quickly drink honey, lots of water.
But it doesnt help.
Fri i started to cough a bit.
Then Sat i have problem speaking.
Then Today. I lost my voice.

SIANZ.

Quick updates
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Sat after work at 3pm, went bugis again to shop for costumes.

Sun work then go JP for chicky club performance then back to work.

Mon went shop for costume again at JE and IMM.
Saw the OSIM roadshow. Went to try the uCrown, uRobic, Blood pressure measuring system and uYoyo.
The uYOYO is damn good.
there is this stiff shoulder function.
The sales demo on me. full 15 mins.
After that my shoulder is so MUCH Better.
But it cos $5000++.
-.-""

Tues .. nothing much. work as usual. till 10pm. ms foo drive me home.

Wed.. read friends blog and june mention abt eyelid twitching.
Which i also have the same symptons. I even have my cheek muscles twitching OK.
YES..Its super super irritating!
Quoting from her blog.:>
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This syndrome that is referred as eyelid myokymia. It is said to be caused by lack of sleep and stress.

To avoid or help put a halt to the eyelid spasms:
- Get your full rest.
- Reduce or eliminate stress.
- Cut back on caffeine.
- Reduce alcohol consumption.
- Reduce computer time to cut down on eye strain.

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Ya.. i really need lots of sleep and rest..

Damn tired

Cant "feel" my shoulders anymore.[ache like hell-super stiff]

I am just like a Panda who escape from the Zoo.

Too many things to be done AND Too many things still not done.

Moody-every mth

Stressed.

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Some parents are driving me crazy.
Super nonsense- no reasoning at all.
Not understandable at all.

Some parents are very understanding.
Considerate and Fun.

Heaven and Hell. Both @ DP
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~chill~

What type of personality do you have?

Here is the analysis:
Kind and Gentle
Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.


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am i like that?
i thought i am very rough and the word "sweet" can nv be use on me.
maybe that personality test means my inside. while what ppl see its my outside.

DUNNO what i mean?.
refer to the previous post on "Get to know yourself better"
I have 2 different personalities.

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MORE Test
What’s your personality love style

Here is the analysis:
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

damn... this is so TRUE

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Personality test - The Real You
Here is the analysis:
1. You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.
2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
3. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
4. Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.
5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

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Done a Personality Test on - Get to know yourself better
Below are my results. i think its very true.

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Check it out @ Quizbox

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day after day,
weeks after weeks,
and my life is just attached to Dancepointe.

I miss my judo peers.
I miss the thurs judo class.
I miss being slam on the mats, trying to practice the break fall.

I miss my G's club.

I miss going to school.
.. but not the exams. LOL

I miss all of them.

Not that i dun like dancepointe.
I will like most of my time dancing.
but now i am working. and alone.

Ya.. everyone got to work anyway.
But i need more life.. probably its the working hours that makes me feel....
the work is not hard till i got to complain... so what is it actually?
I dun know.
I just feel i cant be with my friends and got to miss the gatherings most of the time.

I feel ironic and contradicting sometimes.
i dunno what i want.
when i am free, alone, i dun go out. i am a total introvert. i dun like the feel of walking alone outside. i hate the 压迫感.
but i like going out with friends. doing lots of activities. regardless of judo, outdoor, ktv, Dance. ...etc.etc
i definately need a job.
A job which allows me to do that and still earning the $.

how i wish i am good enough to be a dance teacher. then i can make dance as my job.
Thats is totally diff from working as a admin operational personnel at a dance school.

but thats is like... DREAM.. on.. ya.. DREAM ON.
`LOL


Currently,
i am only free,
every mon thurs b4 7pm and every sat after 2pm.
or tues wed fri b4 12noon, SUN after work at 7pm.
Other timing, i will be at DP for either dance or work.
But i am lucky that during these period of time[till end dec] at Dancepointe, it will be a stress but enjoyable time.
Why i say so?
Cause we are all working on the concert and it is a good experience for me.
And right after the concert, will be the HK trip.
And back from the Trip will be xmas chalet for all hiphopper.
~Damn Happening~

So what am i trying to express then?
Like i said, I DUNNO.
Confusing and Contradicting Feelings.

Market is definately bad now.
so its not easy finding a job.

I shouldnt think so much. even though i should.
I shall just 走一步，是一步。and 走一步，算一步。

The ultimate things i need to focus on is..
Give my best to the concert- in terms of work and dance.
Enjoy during HK trip- in terms of dancing and shopping.
Have fun at the xmas chalet.

Come back then worry abt other stuff.
By then, it will be 2009.
New Year, New Resolutions, New Plans.

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Cheers

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work
tired
PMS
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Lost in Emotions
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watched 我爱黑涩会。
this EP is talking abt best friends.
every gal got to write a name who they think is their best friend.
then if there is a match, the pair can come down to play the 默契 game and earn $.
and there are some who wrote the name of the one, but that person nv write her name.
That is really very sad.

And i started to think..
if i am the one sitting there, whose name will i write and who will write my name.
And will there be a match.
I started to feel emotional.
Cause i got to say i still have not find that person.
i do have lots of friends but i realise there is none that i can feel the mutual feelings.
Lets make it this way, the name you write down, is the one you think she will feel the same abt you. Mutual feeling.
But sad to say. i really dun have a name to write down, same as i feel no 1 will write my name.

More Emotional
Totally Speechless

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random
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FYP finished. finally.
Working more hours at DP.
Haven go look for job yet.
HK trip still not confirm due to numbers.
Master class not able to go.
Want to go KTV but...
Eat a lot in the past week, getting fatter.
Constipation-.. how to get it out sia. who know where got sell 泄药?
Planning to go see Doc regarding......

Trying to find the lighted path
Maybe i should commit to a religion.
Emotional
Speechless

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Finally.
At home . wanted to have a rest b4 getting back to FYP.

This year is the only time i actually blow so many birthday cakes.

15 Sep_Mon - with DP gang, celebration after class

19 Sep Fri - with xuan family, uncle birthday is on 22th, so we share a cake. Then its pizza DIY and VCD movie time. Stay till about 4am. then leon and xuan, driving me home. [ birthday present- clover care bear, and rubix icon]

20 Sep Sat - Meet supervisor for FYP in school for mock presentation.
Then after that its JUDO club, pioneer batch BBQ cum my birthday celebration. Bought a mini rubix to play play. $1 only
What a coincidence to have the exact same cake with i had with my uncle.
Reach home at around 3.30am.

21 Sep Sun - KBox K Lunch with Sec friends. With a total of 5 persons where 3 of us are birthday gals. LOL. Bought a cheap skate Rubix Square-1 for myself... Back home blogging now. [birthday present - Christian Dior_dior addict 2 perfume]

Really appreciate the effort that all friends and family has given in.
Happy and Touched.
Love you ALL. *muacks*

Happy birthday to all SEP babies:
Charlotte, Huimin, Alle - 11 Sep [PLUS S.H.E. 出道]
Kale - 13 Sep
Carmen - 14 Sep
Weijian - 17 Sep
ME - 20 Sep
Nelly - 21 Sep
Jasmine, 大舅 - 22 Sep [PLUS Eriko birthday]
Weiling - 23 Sep
Kaiqi - 25 Sep
ZiWei - 26 Sep
Rachel, Wah Chun, Angela - 27 Sep

~if there is more friends of mine also sep babies, pls let me know.
thanks

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today is a happy day..

--morning--
go church help out for blood donation drive.
intended to donate.. but due to having judo training in the late afternoon,
i give it a miss. but still planning to go to the donation centre sometime to do it.
But i register myself as a potential bone marrow donor. where they will take some sample of my blood to run some test[abt 200 tests] and then keep it as record. If anyone in the world compatible and needs my bone marrow, they will then contact me to donate.
I really do want to spread the words and increase the public awareness of being a bone marrow donor.
there are actually 2 methods to harvest the bone marrow now.
Those who are interested to be a bone marrow donor
or to know more on that, just simple click on the link.
Give others the chance of life!

-- afternoon--
left the church and wnet for judo training in RI.
keep practising on my break fall and throws. plus learn more new throws.
it was really fun.
then we all had dinner together. It is mid autumm festival today.
So its kind of consider a 团圆饭 for our judo gang.
during these last 2 trainings, we really do bond alot.
hope everything will keep this way.

It is a happy mid-autumm festival.

----AOB----
got to meet supervisor for FYP on my birthday.. sianz
think again... nvm la.. anyway i have nothing on[no appt].
wonder what the horoscope will say on tmr i-weekly.

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sianz.. just recieve the credit card statement.. late payment by 2 days only..
tio late payment fees of $40. with $2.50 finance charge.
and the point is.. my total amount due is only $54.14(the amount that i pay 2 days late)

Then now got to pay $42.50 for nothing.
-.-""
No warning at all.

~Sianx

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at work - DP JW
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its sun again. another day of work.
hate to be too free and hate to be too busy.
wanted to find something to be busy with.
not just today but everyday.
Not work but other commitments to do after work.
Currently dun have permenant work so i hope to have something to do every evening.

Mon- Dance
Tues- Accompany Julia to Church temporary
Wed-
Thurs- Judo
Fri-
Sat- AOB
Sun- Part time[full day] @DP

Planning to go for a jog/ gym on wed and fri evening.
gym need $.. so means jog in the park will be the final choice..
hmm. but can i jog?.. try ba.. slow jog lor.
occasionally go gym should be affordable.

Once i found a full time job, then probably i will feel tired if i every evening got something on. but thats is to be worry when i actually got a full time job ba.
hmm.
Ok . that should be the plan.
A start of a healthy lifestyle.

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Birthday coming.
Started writing blog last yr. about in sep near to my birthday.
Another yr older
Hopes & Wishes: Many Many....
Future thoughts and plans: Blur, Unsure, Lost, Confused
Birthday Resolutions: Slim down, Get my room tidy and organized, Find a job that i like and enjoy doing, Create a healthy lifestyle
Friends asking me what i want for birthday.
I should go prepare a wish list for my blog hor.
But what i want is all too ex..
so better give me cash then i gather tgt the $ from each gang to get the things i want.
isnt it better?

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FYP ending soon too.

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Remember Birthday mth
Stay Happy K.

Will post some horoscope thingy during next blog.
-ONLY for Virgo

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Angry again
By that *Mr Bitcher- Jian Wei

Let look at what he got to say this time.


1st, he said," met 2 of my team members......the other is the girl Regine...."
Why does he have to say "the other is the girl regine."... and not, "the other is regine"
Trying to make it personal right... F*cker.

Then he continue saying " she say want to handle the doc... blah"
halo.. everything you 2 do lor.. as the leader you are suppose to update us on the changes and things. DID YOU?

Rememebr in the previous post, he said" you dunno then dun come put your nose into the codes, hate it when you ask whats the problem".
Halo... Cannot ask. then you expect us know abt the game?.
YOU nv update us too.
And i nv say i settle all the docs.
its just that you 2 busy debugging, then jimmy and 1 can work on the docs.
ISnt it.
got wrong meh.
When you mention that we dunno the changes and updates , cant do, i actually agree.
but did you put up with a better solutions like for example. showing us the game demo etc, at least let us know whats going on. it will help for the presentation at the end of the day too. isnt it.
..NO. a big NO.
Everything you want do yourself La. F*cker.

Really Damn PISSED.

What he say doesn't make sense at all lo.

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angry....
pissed....
a Idiot F*ucker
Jian Wei

1st lets see what he say on his blog that makes me angry.


Regarding the movies file, halo.. b4 that the original plan is to make it in game ok. then last min say make a movie to prompt to mission. then i think thorugh it. town models i dun have, NPC models also dun have. and no time liao.
how to make it simple?.. then got this idea which is simple yet fits the idea.
i got ask gab also ok. he say can.
and i show the tutor, explain to him that words is like a AI computer taking to the player.
he also understand the logic there. also ok with it.
Only Jianwei Bitching there.
animation.. think very easy without the models ready.
*fuck off

pictures all wrong size...
i nv even touch the code part.. how the fuck i know what size he need when he nv even say. this 2nd editing he got tell me what size he need then size is correct isnt it.
and whats so big deal abt resizing the picture. Already send the picture done and edited to you. You mean you dunno how to resize the picture? If you really dunno, cannot tell me resize meh..
need to BITCH on the blog?
so again. go eat shit la..

my leg injure is true and since mon dance class. and worsen after judo on thurs... but why i still go meet supervisor.. cause its important la.
if i nv meet then jimmy also nv meet then what the supervisor will feel.
fri is our own meeting.. and usually meet without agenda. i dun feel why need to tahan my pain waste 2 hr back and fore for a meeting wthout agenda. or if the agenda can be easily done online.
He mention he cant express properly what he need me to do so thats why need meet.
HALO.. please la.. not as if meet liao you can express properly.
NO diff OK.
so once again --Jianwei. fuck* off

Codes i dunno then cannot ask la... then why you ask me to go through codes at times when i already tell you i cant open script or why do you say the sentance"... dunno also can try ma" previously on your other posts.
IF i dun ask, how will i know the latest update on your programming side...
WHEN you fucking nv even update us.
you think only members need update leader then leader dun need update members la.
Its communication between 2 ways. not 1 way ok.

Cant express properly is not the biggest problem.
Biggest problem is he is confusing himself, contridicting himself with his own words.
Brain think this, mouth say that.those taht will probably stab ppl at the back kind.
He talk as if like creating a puzzle... in bits and pieces.
need ppl to try very hard to put it tgt to get the picture.

I HAVE NV SEEN a WORSE leader than Jian Wei in my whole life.

YOu think your programming so good?
I guess the programming most also gab do 1.

Please la.. you know what is 自我反省 not.
i did .
i know i did not do a very nice picture/ interface.. cause i am not a art student ok.
but at least i got something to hand in..
not as if your programming side is so good and my interface is the thing that ruin the whole thingy.
please go 自我反省.

If you think the above post is rude,
This is just a Pay Back time to that MALE BITCHER.

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At Work~

today working half day till 2pm.
attending june's belated b'dae dinner.
Hmm.. I wonder have she seen the surprise video we made for her.

Added a few links under my " Check it out" section
Nothing much other than that.

Very excited towards Next thurs - 1st judo lesson @ RI.
More excited for the End of Year trip to HK with DP.

Worrying for FYP.

Stressed abt jobs after graduation.

$ issues.
Prospect issues.
Career and Future issues.

Peace Out~

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I just visit a friend's blog.
He got this particular post abt 宅男 VS 干物男.
Makes me feel interested to know the diff between the two.
Then i realise. opps i might be a 干物女.
Then notice the web link listed below and i click it.
There is this article abt 干物女.
http://www.520nx.cn/ViewInfo.asp?id=3106
after reading the 10 characteristics. I feel... chey..
i only abt almost half TIO only ma.. haha
then the next sentence "如果有四项就得小心，是干物女的预备军了。"
Wah.. scared me sia.
Then but continue reading the article.
it says "放弃谈恋爱，每天下班后直接回家，一个人看着漫画、喝着酒，假日躲在被窝，过着无所谓的轻松生活。认为这样生活就很幸福的女性就是“干物女”......... blah blah blah。
especially this .."认为这样生活就很幸福的女性就是“干物女”".
I dun think life like that is 幸福 at all .

Last but not least .
Since my friend already mention whats 宅男 VS 干物男.
So I will tell the gals diff between 宅女 VS 干物女 .
宅女与干物女的差别：在于是否想谈恋爱.
宅女虽然在房间，但是对于爱情仍然保持着憧憬，喜欢籍此由看日剧幻想。然而，
干物女就不一样，她会说“放弃恋爱过着自我悠闲的生活，太美好了！”

So .. conclusion.
refering back to my older post - 07 May 2008, last section.
Where i already said.
At most i am only "almost a 宅女".
So after today. i must add...
At most... I am only a " Almost宅女+Almost干物女"
Opps then this rojak. add together become....
干物宅...
Wahaha.

K la. still got work this weekend..
May everyone enjoy their weekends.
Cheers

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just back from movie
Money Not Enough 2
Free tix from xuan father to GV Max at vivo.

I personally thinks the show mantain the standard of Director jack neo.
Touched PPL hearts with the most reality storyline.
Make us laugh, cry and think at the same time.
There is always something, some topics and issues of the reality, mentioned in the show that will let all of us sit down and ponder through.

Other than that, I will like to mention on the Computer Graphics done by Crystal CG.
I want to learn that lor. i really will wish if i can do something like that as a job.

All of you should go watch the show.
Maybe some might share same views as me. some might not.
But i still think its worth to watch once at least.

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Just surf my friend's web.
Realise 原来 weijian album is out today [D-Day]. or rather YTD [cause now over 12am and its consider 31st July].

All friends must try to support K.
Cause i really think the his album has got the worth.
Unique and good voice.
Heard that he got his own composed song inside too.

I will probably get mine by this weekend ba.
Will feedback again on the album after i finish listen to all songs.

~Congrat Weijian!~
All the Best

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sianz.

-hidden blog-

anyway,
these few days i helping to do some video editing for a friend.
its a surprise.
quite fun plus can practice my skills in premiere pro and photoshop.
but i will like more chance to do 3d max or lightwave.

Anyone got good script for a short animation?.
can contribute?. Best if you can draw well.
Probably can pass me the storyboard and char design.
but i must say 1st ar.. i really not good in 3d max.
Just need to practice more. and of course i rather do it with a proper storyboard.

k la..

back to my FYP docs- ADD and fri presentation.

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yawn~

i realise i damn long nv update my blog.
why?. dunno. nth interesting to say?.

just read my friends' blog.

i very sleepy for the pass 3 days.
not enough sleep.

still working on FYP.

weekly work @DP on every Sun.

YTD we got a performance at east coast.
erm..how is it..
see no evil.
jacky says.. worse than practice.
the stage floor is very rough, all of us not use to it.
plus we reach on the dot[consider late]. no much time to calm down and get ready.
adding on to the previous experience @ECP when we are under shaun.
We thought we could overwrite that, but we actually added more bad experience to it.
EAST COAST.. our nightmare.

ate steamboat after that till 9plus PM.
planned to go cycling but we ate till damn late. Shop closed.

I miss Cycling, Trekking, Camping, Pitting Tent, Cooking in the wild, the forest, the Nature, the egg yolk sun at the beach.
Bascially i miss my times back in TAS [including those hard times during training].

Sleepy. how?
Still got 7hrs to go

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Yeah..
exam results finally out.. and VERY lucky... i manage to PASS.
Now just need to focus FYP and get it done and over with...
YEAH

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PaintBall namelist

Currently got ONLY

ME
Julia
Kim Hoo

KIV - Xuan & Leon
Ling & Qing
Zong

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Paintball

YTD went for a paintball session at TAG paintball[orchid country club] with Xuan and Gang.
Damn fun. I am really lucky as i only got 2 shot which happen to just scratch across my finger and forearm.
And i hit 1 target down...YEAH...dun make faces at me... it is already consider a difficult task.
Friends in the group got many other more serious injuries.
The Paintball they using are exact marble size and hardness.
Scary ok.
The guys all wearing Army uniform. which is the best clothings for the game.
there are only 4 gals in the whole group including me.
But the guys lend us their uniform jacket.
If not, i think we will be all wounded by now.
Overall, its a really FUN night.
I really think its worth everyone to try at least once.

Hey all friends,
when will it be our paintball session?.
Planned to go since ........ dunno when... million years ago.
i will liek to try the 1 at SDC. Crossfire Paintball.
Using diff gun and gear. That will be less painful as of what i know.
i just checkonline and they mention they will cease individual booking form 23 july.
Only open to Coporate and TeamBuilding Booking.
Those who interested, Please get back to me asap.
I will try plan for 1.

Desired
Location: SDC Crossfire Paintball
Date: Try to be before 23 July. Depends on availablility
Time: Should be morning 9am - 12pm. also depends on availability
Price: should be <=$50
Min no.of pax: 6 pax
Max no of pax in 1 round: 10 pax[5 on each side]

Other Alternative Location:
TAG Paintball
Orchid Country Club


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Some Random POST.
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Teacher Jacky bought us cap from his GuangZhou Trip
Left one is for Baby Char, Right one is for me.




Saw my friend appear on Newspaper.
His Photography exhibition is at National Library.








Guess what is this?













The Reasons why Couples got problem giving having Kids.
-See. so many reasons for women are link to age.
Now you know how risky is it for those 高龄产妇.


SIM on newspaper. regarding the cancelling of refreshment.
Which side are you on?








Went to my friend's de exhibition at National Library.












My new HDD 2.5inch , 250gb, $139, 5 yrs warrenty. with free decal

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WOO~

Exam finally over.
Slack for 2 days since then.
But for the exam, both i got no confident at all.
Can only depends on the GOD's decision.

After Exam, we have a last min plan of going KTV.
then after KTV, ZR.. JIN and Me go arcade to play.
Using my TAPP card with $60 free credits[using my mum's vouchers from union].
But the person say must pay $3 GST. hmm

NV wanna think much abt the unhappy things.
Cause my friend say: Happy Everyday
hahaah.
Basically i did have fun the whole day. thats enough.

Next to worry is the FYP.
FULL FORCE ahead.
Still working[DP] on SUN since we discuss and decided not to work[FYP] on SUN.
But i only promise Boss by per mth basis.
Just in case, we need to rush the FYP.

Talk to my friend ytd, he record his voice as ringtone for me.
so cute and funny.
Will use it.

Just view another friend's blog.
She simply use picture to represent her blog, sometime adding a few words.
Simple and yet the meaning is there.
Its ART.
Sometimes words make it complicated.
A picture shows it all.
And everyone see the picture with a diff interpretion.
But there is no right or wrong.
Cause all along its the same picture.

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time to blog again.

Just back from a YuHui's Wedding dinner with Yaxin.
I really got to say that the guys on the same table with us are real gentlemen.
1st, they took the initiative to talk to us 1st.
then they offer to let the ladys eat 1st
and they will help to turn the plates to us so that we dun have to reach out too far.
during photo session, although the photographer request the gals to stand behind while the guys sit. Those Gentlemen on our table requested that the gals shall sit, and they will move to stand behind us.
Last but not least, they offer to give us a ride home.
Opps, but dun get it wrong, most of them are seniors to us and are married.
BUT WOW. those guys are really really nice.
Younger guys out there... please Learn.
Next month still got another wedding dinner to attend.
Haiz.
Friends all getting married.

The exams are getting nearer but i have not started studying.
its like a habit.
Dun feel the urgency yet ba. although i keep telling myself must started.
but somehow i will not move. but the heart still worries.
nvm. tmr i will study and sun too.
Everything will be fine. I hope.
GOD BLESS.

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~YAWN~
Its 2am again.

Have been some time since i last blog.
Really busy for the past few weeks.
Everyone are not getting enough sleep.
Plus the Gals mthly thingy. - damn.
Totally wrong timing lo.

Gals out there. you know what i mean.
1)Feeling damn moody....no reason to it. its just common for gals every mth.
2)Feeling damn pain... cant explaint how pain it is.. if the level of pain is 10..i will say its 11 for this pain. Its even more pain than any wounds i experienced b4.
Tears came running down without control.[1st time pain till like that].
that day got to go home straight. Cannot stay in school any longer.
GUYS will NEVER understand how it feels.
3)No matter how much sleep , will still feel sleepy [especially when i really got not enough sleep].. I feel like a zombie. walking around without soul.
Above all these,
Still got to handle some irritating flies bugging me.

Adding on ... more... will be...
The things happen at home.
My bro CASE.
Finally come to an end and with a VERY lucky ending.
What should i said to him... haiz.. its just damn unlucky for him this time due to his ignorance.
But its over now.
Only 2 weeks... He will be refresh again.

So damn sorry to my team mates.. for not able to help with the programming part.
and my attendance to the group.[Although i know even if i go, i cant do much.. but i will still want to be there to at least show them i really got the heart..]
But there are other things that i mentioned above come into play and cork up the plan.

Whatever it is, finally we finish the Assgs. and now its study week.
and exam coming.. and the FYP.
I am determine to give my best to the FYP. although i know programming i might not be good. but other areas, i am doing my best.

Decided to continue working for july mth.. aug and sept still not sure yet.
probably depends on the FYP.
need the $$. no choice. But FYP is still no. 1

I often watch the 我爱黑涩会 and saw the 美眉 trying their best to do the show well, as well as working and schooling at the same time.
I am using their spirit as a aim.
I will push myself to the max.
Cause i believe that if i have to push myself to be able to see the growth.
Work hard now then the road will be easier up ahead.

For now,the no.1 thing i am worried abt is the EXAM..
how to study for it sia.. no clue at all.
totally ???????

Will practice my popping tmr...b4 the class at night.
Since last week class, i nv even try it at all.
That is also 1 of my important homework.

This week will be busy with exam studying, dance practise, friend's wedding dinner ,visiting my bro.. etc etc..
lucky for me.. working is out for these 2 weeks as i request for leave.

better go sleep now.

~YAWN~ bb

Just read a blog of my team leader for FYP.
and i say team leader .. not friend...

He really pissed me off.
In the 1st place, my impression of him is just that he is not a very outspoken guy. and Maybe not as helpful and very passive and anti-social person.
But who cares.. i mean every1 got his and her unique characteristic.
Maybe we dun click but that doesnt mean he is a bad person. RIGHT?

NO.. i got to totally disagree to this now.
He sucks.
He is not happy abt somthing during the FYP discussion. He did not say on the spot..
he go back "Bitch" on his blog.
All of you should go read what he wrote on 16th May 2008.
He basically "bitch" about something that is not true.

He say we discuss abt roles and responsibility for FYP.
Anyway, just to let you all know, Our FYP is making a RPG game.
Back to it, He mention his name appear only once or twice and our name appear many times.
HEY, i am VERY sure each name appear equal times.

And he said if dunno can try ma, why we think he dunno anything.
But HEY... this is FYP .. you think a lot of time for you to try?.
Of course 1st step is to see who know how to do what then straight away assign that post 1st la..
then No choice kind then got to learn la.

Next he " bitch" about how we change the storyline totally.
HEY.. we did not change the storyline. We just give the story more details.
Previously we only got the basic outline of it lo.

Then he continue on "bitching" about us comparing some games that we played b4 to what we are doing. And that if we dunno how to do something .. just tell him, he will settle it.
Damn... Halo.. Isnt it how we research.. discuss... ok..
maybe we did not play that much games like he do.. but we are voicing our ideas out...
He should have just voice out that he played many games b4 and that he can handle that part etc..
GOD knows what he knows how to do.

[_ Dear Mr Bitcher,.. If you dun wanna voice it out, then dun complain at the back... cause it is not going to help with anything._]

And i really dunno what did we do to you that makes you DUN LIKE US...
but i just wanna let you know.. the feelings are Mutual.

Last but not least,
A sentance that i will like to return to MR Bitcher.... DUN BLOODY PISS ME OFF.
Go back to your SHELL if you hate the outside so much.

You think only you know how to bitch in your blog?..
Let me show you my power

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halo, been a few days since i last update.
Therefore, i will update all at once.
Starting from latest..

Ytd my cousin told me that her friends' de friend.
Went ktv at Marina. Then there is only 2 of them singing. but at end of session,
the cashier demand they pay for 3. and she explains thats because there is a 3rd person. and the "friend" went in after they are seated in the room. and left b4 the session ends.
They even show the CCTV to prove. In the end, they got to pay for 3 persons lor. No choice.
But... dun you all think its weird?.... If i were them.. i will not pay. i will demand the cashier to call the police in lor. i am not afraid since i am sure that there is only 2 of us.
But i agreed that it is damn eery la. lol...

~Hidden Blog Written~

Too bad i cannot lock my blog for blogspot. Therefore, i choose to lock it manually. LOL

Tmr will have another practise. We definately need lots of practise sia.
ok.. Nighty... Hai.. 1am again.. When can i start to get some early sleep.

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Damn... i worte a long blog just now.. and its shows me error...
then i got to post again with this....

forget it..i lazy to type what i wrote just now..
basically its a update of what i did today...

Morning rush to settle some urgent stuff.
afternoon go woodlands library with friends to do assg.
then went popular stroll for 1 hr.
then get home and dinner at 10pm.

then watch the news and focus point on the earthquake issue.

blah blah...
i shared a story in the previous typing.. but... nvm.. tell next time ba..

Let us all take 1 min to pray for everyone who suffer from this disaster.

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This post originally written on 16 may 2008.
I thought its lost due to blog error.
Now then realise its auto save and kept inside.
Wahaha
So now 它终于重见天日了。
Wahaha

--> Reposted on 1st Aug 2008

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Haiz..

This morning, something urgent happen and i got to go and settle.[Long Story]

I went to meet friends at woodlands library to do assg together.
although i not good at it..
but i am really trying very hard to understand and do it.
still no progress at all. left the library at 7plus.
reach JE at 8pm.
Went to Popular..
I really like to visit bookshops. I can stay very long inside even if i have no intention to buy anything.
Just now i stay at popular till almost 9pm.
Bought some bread for tmr morning breakfast, and tabao food for dinner.

Reach home already 9 plus, finish dinner already 10pm.
Shouldnt have dinner that late.. very fattening.
but i really very hungry wor.

Watch tv for a while.
The News and Focus Point[another show after news] are all talking on the earthquake.
Feel really sad when i saw those videos and report on the situation.
Focus Point shows more details and analysis on the situation.
Suddenly at a point, my tears just came running down.
I really hope the rescue process will be smooth and more ppl will be safe.
And i sincerely pray for them.

Sometimes, i wonder... if god really exist.
Then why does he/she do this to humanity?

Then i think again.. Why that Mym Dian[dunno that english name] dont allow help from rescue team from other countries?.

Linking both together, i wonder.
Is it because god see us rejecting help to our own ppl and is testing our humanity level and how far we willing to give to help others.

I cant help but this reminds me of a story i heard somewhere.. it goes like this...
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Once upon a time..... opps... nono.. too old school.
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There was a boy who is very sincere in his religion,living happily in a town.
Then 1 day there is a flood and the whole town starts to be fill with the water.
Everyone was running for life and climbing on to somewhere high.
The boy climb onto the roof of house, praying to god and hope the god will save him.
Then there was this raft that row by and offer to help him get out of there.But the boy insist that he is going to wait for god's help.
Then after a while, there was a small boat which pass by and again offer help, he rejected again.
He waited for some time and there was a Helicopter which fly pass and offering help. He does not want to responce as he deeply believe taht god will save him.
Finally, the water level reach the roof and he died.

When he found himself in Heaven, he ask god:" why didnt you save me?"
GOD answer: " i send you a raft and you rejected me... i send you a small boat, you rejected me again... i send you another helicopter and you continue to reject me... "

What does this mean?...
Different ppl might see it differently.
What did you realise from the story?

Everyone...just use 1 min to ponder and think.

p/s: by the way.. i am not a christian.

~yawn..
its late again.
got to sleep early today.. by 1 hr.. haha

For today post, i will like to special featured the following.

1)
Friends.. please help me to click the google ads if your are currently reading my blog.

2)
introducing 2 songs of Hiro that i personally like alot.
scroll down to the imeem i have at my blog, song number 42 and 43 by Hiro.

3)Welcome you to leave me msg under the Chitty Chatty box.


4)Welcome you to donate $ to me.. HEHEHE

5)Private email me if you wan me to put you under my friends link.

thats all..

p/s: I really miss all my Primary, Sec and TAS friends al much.

today in Dance class,
we learn the精舞门 of 小猪.
Its difficult.
Previously learn a bit of 孤单芭蕾 of 许慧欣.
Also very difficult.

Today i feel "Heavy".
i know in facts, i am ...in terms of weight.
but over here i mean i just had my dinner and i feel heavy and cant move.. lol.
but in the end. it turns out ok la..
think next time dun eat so full for dinner.
i got gastric pain almost near to end of lesson.

must really push myself to stop eating junk food.
make me get fat alot recently.
already so fat. still put on 2 kg more.
and that spare tyre like getting bigger.
causing problem to dance... and of course my health.

Halo.. Dear Regine,
i am suppose to get thinner by dancing.. not fatter lei.
No more junk ok..

basically i am what i eat la.. all fats mostly at stomach.
i tried 1 week eat porrridge, my stomach really become smaller.
Do any1 know the Facts abt fats?
if one with more fats gather at lower body compare to one with more fats gather at stomach,the one with fats at stomach got higher risk of getting health problem and diseases.
Therefore ... gals with lower body more fats, but other parts of body still ok..
Dun worry k.. cause the lower body need a bit of fats also for giving birth next time. i guess thats why old ppl always say.. big bottoms good for giving birth.. lol
but 1 pointer... remember to take lots of calcium... if not the bones cannot support.
While those with big stomach[except those who are preg].. take note of what you eating.

Ok.. a bit too off topic here.

hmm.. today in school. Discuss FYP lor. By thurs neeed to hand in draft of Pitch paper. Sat meet FYP Supervisor. 1st meeting only.. more to come along the weeks.
Fri got to hand in 356 lab 3 assg.--> haven start doing
Wed need to hand in 366 Ubuntu assg 1.--> this 1 DAMN diffcult.
still got the 356 Tank Game assg going on and due in 3 weeks after lab 3.
---> haven start yet.. plus its difficult.

the school think its so easy..
especially for 366. that idiot lecturer... who knows what he is trying to say in lecture sia. and totally not related to any of our assg. nv teach any programming then ask us to program that thing out.
all need to self study and all not enough time.

its again 2am now.. these few weeks.. i almost everyday sleep 2am.
tmr probably going school trying to figure out that ubuntu again.
---> i feel like an idiot. i totally do not understand the codes.. and ya right...
they make it sound so easy. when i said i dun understand i really dun understand la.

Whats the diff between you and the Lecturer if you all insist that i should be able to do it if i Slowly Look and Study the codes..[how do you know i did not try in the 1st place]

Regine... Breathe..
Go sleep now... get enough rest for the road ahead.

YAWN~*

its 215am now.
just finish ANOTHER so-called LAST EDIT of the congrat video.
julia's bro and relative[specifically that ONE] really very inconsiderate.
Taking ppl for granted.

AM i being too good already?

NOT just editing will do ok. i need to RE_RENDERED the whole video.

OH MAN!!. Do you ppl know how troublesome it is not?

today i went to read a few friends de blog.
got a bit emo of my feelings.
there are lots of things in life that we have to realise and reflect on.
did i do that?
if i did, what have i conclude out of it?. whats changes have i made to improve?
makes me ponder a while.

maybe it is not the right time to pause and think now as....
i got lots of assg to be done by weekend.
and i DUNNNO how to do. DAMN

REGINE... breathe....
look into 1 thing at a time... opps
maybe a few things at a time but keep the line clear enough of each.
calm down and things will turn out better. dont panic.
Friends will be there to help.

OHOHOH.. and i found $4 on the floor just now on way home.

and..YAWN~*..
i got to get some sleep b4 tmr long day [ or rather today will be another long day]

just got home from school

the damn lift spoil. someone so violent press the button till stuck there.
then another person more violent to actually force open the lift when it is already not working.
both lift Stuck.
I live 11th floor lor.
Old liao. how can make me climb.. haiyo

today at home...
finish the wedding montage finally. and i mean totally finish...
including the rendering.
left only to burn it out on a dvd and pass to the bride.
why dvd...? cause the file size damn big.. almost 2 gb for 10mins video
in MOV format and in 1024x 786 size.

today in school ....
work on the assg 2 for 356. still haven do assg 1 for 366.
plus today suppose to finish lab 5 and 6 together with tutorial 5 and 6 for 366.
damn difficult and all need to take very long. how to finish????

then got to stay for FYP briefing at 7pm.
talk of that, gabriel told me he read jianwei blog and feel/realise that jianwei is not happy to to same group as us.
What did we do that he dont like. And as if i like working with him in the 1st place. but i nv denied that he is able to work b4.
So whats the problem with him.
If he feel that we wasted the time just now and nv discuss anything ...then why not he take the initiative to start the discussion.
I mean... dun just keep saying what you dont like or why nv do this why nv do that... Take the initiative to do it 1st lor.
Waiting for some1 to do it 1st meh. i waiting for you, you waiting for me. who is going to do it then.
i hate this kind of ppl.
Ownself didnt even MOVE 1st then just complaint ppl nv MOVE.
I can be the Project manager [not as if i nv be leader b4] but i know i cannot commit the time and effort the supervisor expect due to my other commitment outside.
and i am very open to letting them[ the guys] do it,
1st point being i am the only gal in the group, letting the guys lead is a good thing for me to learn to be listening and work more, not talk more.
2nd point being, its good to let them LEAD/ TRY to LEAD. you nv try you nv know your abilities can be more than what you think.
SO. I REALLY DUNNO WHATS the PROBLEM with him.
HATE those ~ZAI2 NAN2.

opps.. i might be a bit of ZAI2 NYU3 too.
who cares.. at least i am more outdoor, more equal on both sides.

Dont try to mess with me... i can be angel this sec and devil at the other.

~ROAR~

WOHOHO,
I got my MacBook ytd night, and i got those needed software installed today.
HAPPY..
BUT....today 1st day using , 1st day bring to school, i got a few scratches on it already. Heart feel pain sia.

Finish the editing of the whole wedding montage this morning.
Just shown it to the bride and groom a while ago.
Rendering now.. there are 12669 Frames to render ok. and thats not the end.

That julia just handed me 2 ADD-ON of the congrat videos.
She said just throw it behind..
but you think i will do so meh.
it will destroy the whole montage.
i have no choice but to RE-edit the congrat video and RE-Render it.
ALthough that is not a VERY LONG/HARD edit. but thats not the point.
I am using my precious school time to do this and PEOPLE please be more considerate.
It not that i am 24/7 free, waiting for you to be READY to pass the video to me.
Anyway, Thats that and it is going to be end of story by this weekend.

I can now focus on my FYP and other incoming assgs. averagely i got to finish 2 assgs each week. 2 only[you might think] but its all programming..OK.. its not easy.

CGOverdrive2008 conference 17-20 June 2008.
Really feel like going.. but under student price[early bird only] it is $280.
Where got that extra $ to go.
Haiz.

The weather recently is DAMN HOT ar.
Just sit there doing nothing also will sweat like hell.
Fan is not of much use.
I need a AIRCON.

kk. thats all for today.

last but not least.. picture of my macbook

Wahaha,
I am very excited. I am going to get my MacBook very soon.
My bro offer to get the laptop for me. How did he know i need 1?......
Thats because i complaint that my old laptop is dying and i cant do my work.
So he actually notice that and on last Sun when i was about to go to work, he suddenly pop out that question. You wanna buy a macbook right, go check out how much and where can use credit installment.
And YTD, i actually placed my order witt APPLE already.
As today is a PH, they cant process my application. Fri morning, they will process it. and Since SAT and SUN is weekend, I will be getting my MacBook on either Mon or Tues. Lucky i do not have school that 2 days. if not i will have to arrange another day for them to deliver it. which mean to wait longer..... and i cant wait any longer. LOL.HOHOHO

YTD night and this morning is a long day for me.
YTD night went to clean my bro house[prepare for new tenant to be in]from 6.30 to 1am with My Bro, His GF, and Me. I bet no 1 can imagine the dirt LEVEL. The toilet is literally BLACK. and i mean BLACK. the window panel and wall tiles in Kitchen is YELLOW[from all the cooking]. My bro basically give the toilet a makeover. now its is at least a bit yellowish only. still not that bad. and his gf and i take charge of the window panel and wall tile now they are shining.

This morning however, i got to bring our old TV over for the new tenent. its heavy. cause i carry it with my mother. she dunno how to carry. i think if i carry with some1 else, it will be better. i hurt my finger because of that. and i can still feel the sore now. I am back home only at 1pm.

Now i am doing the final editing for the wedding montage for dominic and rachel.
Lucky the last rendering works. just now got problem with it sia.
Oh, i realise i actually know rachel SIS. Rebecca from my Work and Travel USA trip. What a small world.
K then. The 1st rendering just done. got to get back to the main video edit.

WOW. just came back from NRA_FANTAZIA performance at NP convention hall. ITS Great. but only for 2 hrs. Wanna have more of it... but without the singers please...opps.

Regret nv join NRA when in NP. but again not that i wanna join i can get in. need to audition. Still remember when we are young, shimin liling xuan and me . we actually wanna try take part in a SPEED dance competition. HAha. but in the end nv go.
By the way, SPEED is our IDOL. JPOP Group. Somehow the 4 of us now are into the dance thingy. but me and xuan is beginner's beginner. lol. shimin and liling already expert. Time flies.... what am i doing when i am in NP?... OH...
I am in TAS[The Adventure Seekers]. Thats not bad too. But i still think i should have join NRA. What to do.. thats already the past and its not going to change.

Only hope that i can improve more on my dancing now. And of course just like what my msn nick says.:" .... to slim down..."
Kind of difficult though. I can see. My mouth just cant stop eating junk food..Opps

OK. Bye for now.. got to sleep.. early class tmr

Damn Stress up these couple of weeks and i can foresee it to continue till May.

School started with 3 individuals assg and 1 group assg.
Other than the regular class time[by the way i am a full-time under-grad student],i need to find time for those assg if not i will not grad.
But i have no time to even start looking at the assg descriptions. Dunno HOW i am suppose to finish it. Got to spare time to meet with group for the assg too.

Dunno why i got accept the job or rather a favour for helping a friend in her cousin's wedding montage. Only making myself more busy.
Lucky still got a friend helping to do it too.
Consider it a experience.. i know but not at this moment where i cant even breathe.
School is definately more important on my point of perspective. Spare a thought for me. I am already trying my best to help. Give me time. Dont come stress me and add on to my stress. It doesnt help at all.

Got the work at Dancepointe. Although on surface only work 1 day.
But i am put to be in-charge of that branch. As mention in previous blog. Very hard for me to know whats going on the past week. I got to keep myself updated and doing the respective management and that means i need extra time to spend on this area too.

Regular Hiphop class. Although on 1 day for the class. But regular practice is also needed. Plus so many events and performance coming up. Need to Spare out extra time for it to0.

SPARE a bit extra time here, NEED a bit extra time there.
~BOMB~. Where to squeeze time?

Sorry to my group mates for not having quality assg time with them.
Sorry to myself for not able to do good for my part as a student.
Sorry to dancepointe if i have miss out some details during work.
Sorry to the bride and groom for not having enough meetings with you for progress of the montage.

Breathe.....
I really wonder how so many of my friends can handle even more stuff than me.
I guess there is still a diff for a Poly Student and a Under-Grad.

Think my laptop no hope liao..
format so many time also still got problem. the standby button [at the "start", together with the shut down and restart] its not working[in grey]..
dunno why..
i dunno how to set up the connection cause i dunno the subnet mask and IP and default gateway. previously i only use SSID and WEP can work le.
it keep showing the wireless is not on. but my laptop dun have a button for me to on off. previously uses the IBM connection manager then can choose to on/off.
i borrow from my friend original win xp cd also still the same.

Time to get a new laptop.... BUT where got $.

Boss ask me work more days... BUT where got time.
i still got school and projects to handle. Plus the external project[Wedding Montage]on the number 1 list.

Damn. at this time the laptop crash. YES.. i can use my desktop to do. but when it come to time when need to discuss or work with my team, then i need the laptop. difficult to work without it.
My term in school probably need to use the laptop for the assgs and lab work too. school lab com sucks.

got to go get ready for school now.

Tmr 1st day of new term. Sun my laptop crush. All my stuff inside. haiz.
Already got plans for the wedding montage. need to use the laptop after class to do it but...
i used my external hdd for laptop now. but haven format it. no more external hdd for me. should have buy 1 during IT show.

As for dance,another event coming up in 25th april. Got to work extra hard from now on if we wanna work towards getting paid for shows. But Always Remember ..dance is abt PASSION not $$.
Tmr after school got practise. then got to format the laptop tmr morning in order to get it ready for thurs use.
Lots of stuff going on.

Got to go sleep now. here are some pictures that i promise will post in previous blog.

haiz....
last fri and sat , went back for extra work.
tmr got to go back again for extra work. Cause its urgent, got to get it done.
i only working sun actually.. but somehow i kind of in-charge of the branch. Anything wrong, i kena. difficult for me cause i might miss out things cause i only working 1 day.
But it is a challenge for me to get it done, balance school and work and external project, as well as handling the stress level.

past 2 days slack at home.
get ready some environment models that can be use for the wedding montage. but got to wait for my friend side to get ready the character models. Damn worry abt the progress too. 1st time doing this. Dont wan to ruin this.

Past few sat went for extra dance classes. every sat can feel the muscles ache like siao. Sat long dance, Sun whole day work. Mon dance again.
BUT... its fun, enjoyable. want more of it.

long time nv blog. tried to use a new skin..edit it half way only then lazy to keep editing it.
So not my character to do this.
Template still best for me..
Just post only. Got very nice template now also. save the trouble.

9th March.....
Big day for us_ Dancepointe Hiphop.
1st time i feel like we are a GROUP.
Should be due to our new costumes & the teacher... etc.

Recently dont really use my camera outside/ during events.
all my friends got camera. then every1 taking again & again.
1 camera after another... same image.. i think.. aiya. just get the pictures from them lor.
Slowly getting rusty in my photography skills liao.

Will upload some of the pictures we took that day during next post ba.

School term_ 3 starting soon 2nd Apr
Getting ready to be damn busy again. thats why feeling lazy these few day.
suppose to be rushing the montage but i just slow down..
MUST push myself to move liao.. no time..Wedding in MAY.. time flies
next term should be fun again.. according to the modules.. haha..
Multimedia Computing, Game Engine Fundamental

Regarding the diet. haiz.
due to the 9th march performance, i need energy, so i stop it.
intend to continue/restart after taht but... haha... you know la... lazy... no motivation...
okok...REGINE...MOVE IT..

thats fast... new year is over( in fact not really over until YuanXiao) but got to go back to school tmr.

already change my nick back to normal. but is everything really back to normal as it seems... still got to observe a while. cant let my guards down.

kind of lazy. must be rest for too long.. got to do the animation. but i just started it just now. realise i dunno how to do video post in 3d max. whatever la.

Still got to try out the assg 5 & 6 for the next 2 classes for CSCI236-3D modelling and animation.

Sianz. suddenly like give everything back to teacher.. forgot how to do everything.. lack of practice and playing around with the software..
hmm.. think must really spend some time on practising liao.

wanna start my next round of detox diet soon.

a bit sore throat also.. must be the food from new year- BA KUA,love letter etc..

sleep a lot still feel very tired or rather just feel very lazy the whole day(in fact.. for the last 2 days)

just a quick blog b4 i go out.
chinese new year is coming. to be exact. chinese new year eve is tmr.

the stupid incident have been bothering me for more than 1 week.
there is 1 friend who told me: why should i be angry if i dun care abt this friend.
and that everybody have a choice. there is a solutions to everything.

i agree that everyproblem got a solution. but that doesn apply to all cases.
in this case it is a bit complicated. it is not just 2 friends who argue. if it is, you can say that if 1 side give in 1st the problem will somehow be solved.
but in this case.. i simply dun have a choice. whether we can still be friends or not. depends on him.
if he thinks that " let be friends again = still have hope between us" then my answer will be " NO... NO MORE FRIENDS".. as simple as that... i wanna stop the cycle.
it have been 2 years. i beat around the bush for 2 years. hinting that it is not possible between us. But he dun get it... in his mind... he equalize friends as hopes between us..
how long can i tahan this. i got to stop this cycle from going all over again.
I want to be friends.. but there are ppl who dun wan to be just purely friends.
So do all of you still think i have another choice other than STOP this friendship?
Dun make it seems like its me that is too Heartless. I have No Choice.

Have been long since i last posted... FINALLY.. know how to change the template... i actually know how to change .. all along its the blogger problem..
if you use layout- default template. you cant use the customized template.
got to change to classic template to be able to change to those blog skins available.

Anyway i did it.. BUT haven finish editing all stuff.
quite troublesome. so not me... i rather use a simple default template to post what i want to say...

Read from somewhere that... Life is already so messy and troublesome. will keep the blog as simple as possible...>> i totally agreed.

but its good to just try new things. if really not used to it.. can change back to template anytime.

Recently a bit Frustrated by an idiot who just dont understand my words.
Long story....really frustrating and irritating...
Haiz.
friends who got my msn will know..
my MSN nick is now...
GET A LIFE.... PLEASE... LEAVE ME ALONE or KILL ME INSTEAD.

yup... thats how frustrated i am..