today we celebrate bernice birthday.. she is 18 already.
ya. 18.. the best age to be..
i feel so old. haven been seeing many candles on the cake since pass the gate of 21.
LOL

going to have a parth this year for my birthday.
kind of making up for not celebrating my 21st.
why this year then make up lei?.
dunno ...just a random reason for having a party. cause this year the date is special to me.. 20 09 2009.

Today i finally bought the facial wash and stuff.
have been going to faceshop a few times but just cant bring myself to buy. cause very 心痛 to spend so much on that.
but i finally convince myself that i should 宠一宠 pamper myself.
its abt $100+. and i get free membership for life.
LOL.

Got 1 friend told me. Gals should always be at top form.
Dress up. Touch up. Tone Up.
Although i really dunno how to do so. but i do agree to a certain extend, gals really got to look good.
But i dun agree if guys use this as an excuse to stray and like another gal.
cause then the main problem is on the guy not on the gal.
the Guy shouldnt liek the gal for just looks. or being able to look good.

a friend i know from sdu msn me again.
i regret keeping contact with him.
not that he is very bad or what. in fact he is kind enough to have plan treating me a dinner for my birthday. even b4 that. he have been asking me out for dinner and movies.
but i already say clearly the 1st time that i dun mind go out alone with guy cause its not my 1st time anyway.
just to make it clear taht just friend only.
but everytime i seems to get myself into trouble in 1 way or another.
a couple of weeks ago, we argue over on msn . he actually blame me for not free to go out with him as a friend. which i feel ridiculous at that time.
i think to myself if i had once again give wrong signal.
anyway since we argue. i thought thats the end. and its also in a way good for me. getting myself out of trouble.
but a moment ago, he msn me again. ask me to goout for dinner as my birthday treat.
its very nice of him. but... i seriously dun want to make it worse.
but i dunno how to reject.
i dun have a bf i know..
but cant i just be single?
and i seriously dun think we click.
even if just being friends, its also based on a 1st rule.. whether we click or not.
长痛不如短痛
can anyone advise me how to end this?

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