Once again its emo time.

hey, i am not a free labour.
although i am free at home, doesnt mean i have to help do those editing and let you make use of it to earn $.
for designers and editors, all these works and time spent is assets.
we shouldnt be doing for free.
please do really understand this Fact.
i have already do those design for free during my time at work. which is not my job scope and in the 1st place i should be paid for it. but nv.since its over, i close 1 eye and just tell myself to learn from the lesson.
but again, i stupidly make the smae mistake again.
i have already sent the original work out. and even if further editing need to be done to it for other usage, the new worker should be the 1 doing it.
if want me to do it, its another deal.
make it clear, that cd cover and label,is also not included in the video editing job scope.
Yes ,... it is just simple editing and given that i have the original working files[ as i am the priginal creator of that design] it should be even a easy job for me.
But i still need to spend time doing it.
whats more, after i done it then more changes came in. which mean i have to redo and spend even more time on it.
why not mention all things from the start . why waste my time.

I know my biggest problem is.........
i dunno how to say NO.

but true friends wont make use of me.
Dont you see you becoming more like S-11.
He also making use of those who is useful to him.
You might say you are innocent and that you just dunno this multimedia market work this way.
But now i am telling you straight and i hope you stop making use of me.
if you want do it business way, then please do it throughly.
stop using friends for business purpose.
Think of how ppl contribute and help you,
you should also give back some benefits.
the earth is not just turning upon you as the centre.

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OK.
Given the fact that i am the one who is stupid enough to make the same mistake over and over again.
and Considering the possibilities that she might not be really having that(making use of ppl) in mind(although in fact she already did it without realising.
I will just let this rest.

But please.... we are all human. please do consider my feelings.

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watching Jap drama- Ghost Friends. Ep1.
seems not bad.
after relaxing so long, its also time to THINK.

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confused abt what i should choose.
to go on the course/programme full-time, getting low-pay as apprentice[total of 6 mths but the course is free-sponsored] OR
to wait for replys for resume i sent [without pay while waiting, but if i got the job will be of course of higher pay than being apprentice]

Next step/ decision to make will be whether i should go take up the 1 yr full-time dip... although sponsor by WDA still must put total of abt $8600+.
really interested in the dip but when i grad with that and work in that area, will not be as high pay for a new grad as compare to what i might be already be working as.
wanted to put that aside and not choose now. but the WDA sponsor might end anytime.

What do i really want?
I have got no idea.
stable salary with fix schedule and doing something that is not that boring. best if i am interested in it.
i guess thats abt what i want in a job.

the 1st programme i mention is 6 mths. its neither very long nor short period of time. many things can happen / change.
but i am really not confident i can get a job i want in 6 mths.
then again i got to worry that i still do not have a stable income,CPF and savings.
i have nth.
makes me worry.
....
confused...
................
thinking...
pondering.........
...........

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Still as sick.

my mother asking try chinese physician instead.
so i finally tried it.
seems not bad.
but to know whether its does cure me. will need some time to show.

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stop irritating me..
you are not the only one who is right.
i am not your personal assistant.
if you want to pay your bill at the very last min, and cant even give me instructions clearly. and become uncontactable.
then dun come back and make it seems like its my fault.
saying that i should call you long-distance when you nv reply sms.
or saying sms cant get through and as if i will know that too.
you jolly-well can ask me pay for you earlier and not last min.

By the well. i am doing you a favor.
and AGAIN. i got to state: I am not you Personal Assistant.
and i dun always passby the AXS machine and ATM.

I am not trying to be selfish or as if i cant even help do a simple task.
but please do not make it sounds like i owe you that.

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SICK again
why so sway..
just started work for only 1 week

thinking back and analysing the condition
i think i nv really get well since the concert.
i just seems to be ok liao. but deep inside the body .
the virus is still not totally clear yet.

thats why during new year, relapse again. then.
seems to be better and cure.
then now another relapse.
keep coughing. at night cant sleep well as i will just keep coughing.
morning need to clear the throat and nose as i will feel as if something is stuck there.
cant talk much. as i will tend to feel the condition getting worse if i speak too much.

really need to rest well to regain the body immune system.
i use to be very healthy.
seldom got flu or cough or fever.
but since the concert period. i have been coughing and having flu, lost of voice . on and off.
this seems to show that my body immune system is no longer strong and what it used to be.

i have to get better and regain the body immune system fast.
if not, this will really affect my work in future..
lucky now i am working part time and i can just take off and stop work.
but its does still affect the work and colleagues.

I am so sorry.
but i am really not feeling very well.
i dun mean to sabo you all for this job.
hope i can get well fast and thenget back to finish up the project.
feel so guilty.

at work
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currently working part time as telemarketer.
project-based.
this current project i dealing with is for abt 3 weeks.
not really my cup of tea.
probably wont continue with the next project.
but i got to mention that the colleagues here are all very nice.

meanwhile sending resumes, looking for job.
preferred digital media, multimedia
but dun mind dealing with events, customer services.

if got any lobang .. pls inform me. thanks

enough of updates. then it will be my complaints time.
those who not interested can stop here.

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from now on.
i can go for the extra dance class.
just because she accidentally realise i going that class.
but.. everyone else is also going extra class.
not only me..
so dun treat it as if i am the only 1 "zhan pian yi".
actually also no " zhan" any " pian yi"
all learning same thing. just getting extra chance to use studio to practice more on the "same steps
dunno why must so kaykao.

if want kaykao then i also can kaykao.
... long stories.....
i know... no matter what.. its a business...
but cannot be all good things you BAO.
then ppl no benefits at all.
if want kaykao law by law then i also can do that from all the work i done.

Greed is one of the biggest sin in this world.
pls do think again, if greed is more important than.....blah... many stuff...
what will be you be left at the end of the day.

I realise that point just not long ago.
what i want now is just a stable job that i dun really hate or better if i like it.
Dance while i still can.
earn an amount that is enough to pay off my debt, bills, insurance, daily life and some savings.
Just nice will be enough. dun need too much..
Happy will be the no.1 point i am looking at now.
i wont want to earn alot.. but dragging myself to work everyday. and always moody and stress.

*YAwn*.
still sleepy. but got to get up.
cause later going expo robinson sales

fast updates:
Fri is my graduation day.
Got to wake damn early to get to school.
That very night. i sleep and 8pm and wake 8am the next morning.
Anyway, i finally graduated. Whats next?
LOL.
Sat... which is ytd. went to watch Grrove in the West Hiphop competition at West Coast Plaza. GOt 40 groups sia.
When we reach there is abt the 4th group liao[ i think].
I uploaded 10 of the groups' video.
still got a few with xuan.
my cam batt die on me so i cant record all.
xuan's cam got no more memory space. so also cant record more.
LOL
Semi finals on 11th April. Those who free can go down.
But sad thing is i wont be free.

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recently i am suffering from insomia.
whats happening.
i am so FREE.
slacking at home.
and i am suffering from insomia?.
WHY?
my mother keep asking why i always sleep so late.
but thats only because i need to lie on the bed like abt 1 hour to fall asleep.
and through the night i will keep flipping.
I am a light-sleeper but previously i can still sleep at night without flipping so much.
Must be the stress from not working.[ i guess]

....
got to STOP.
and think of the happy shopping later.
[ ... but try to not spend so much on useless stuff..]

WARNING*****
NO advices nor solutions needed.

incoming hard-feelings
do not continue reading
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confuse~@@~

what is right and what is wrong.
is there a defination?
does it mean that things that you think is wrong.
you will nv do it? OR
there are times where you have to do it even if you know its wrong.

No 1 forcing you.
YES. thats very true.
BUT the situation is forcing you.
things that relates is forcing you.
your heart is forcing you even if your brain tells you the other.
the surroundings factors are forcing you.

Its all abt making choices.
but why cant i say NO.
when i say NO, ppl blame me.
but when i say YES.
anything that happens next is all my responsibilities.

Why is it so unfair?
Why am i so soft-hearted?
Why cant i bring myself to say NO?
Why my mouth say NO. but my action is still being force to do it?
Why must force me?

I just want to be normal.
I just want to be clear from it.
I dun wish to risk my future.
No 1 can promise nth will happen.
I just want to be able to sleep soundly at night.

Who is going to help me when things really happens?
The answer will be NO ONE.
Ppl will say: " You make the choice yourself and no 1 force you. You can say NO. It your responsibilities to know what you have to bear in the end."

WHY CANT LEAVE ME ALONE?

WHY ARE YOU ALL NOT HELPING ME?

AM I HELPING PPL OR AM I JUST PURLY HURTING MYSELF?

I DUN LIKE THIS FEELING.

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Hmm.
I have not been posting for almost coming to a mth.
Basically cause nth special to talk abt.
But here are some recent updates and random thoughts.
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Currently working on a freelance project for DP.
editing the concert video[basic editing only. more can be done if requested]
but with just the basic editing requirement. there is already alot of work.
Not difficult but alot.
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Overstrained my arm during dance all due to the injuries on my elbow from the falling of stair previously.
Elbow still pain then using more power on left arm. and over strain.
Damn.
During cold weather. especially recently raining alot.
ankle, knee cap. all feel the pain. [Rheumatism]

[Injuries List]-only includes from after sec 4 onwards, by sequence.
Left lower last rib
Left ankle
Left knee cap
Left thumb
Right albow
Left arm

Haiz.............
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Haven found a job yet.
To think again.
If i dun have any basic expectation for my job. i can simply find any job and there is quite a handful outside even when the market is not good.
But i believe that it is due to the qualification and expectation for the job and what kind of career/ job we going to work for etc, that make us hard to find a job.
For me. given the certs i have and the actual skills that i possess, it is totally not equivalent.
PPL/ Bosses/ Companies tot i am a IT person. knows how to program.
But actually i took mostly multimedia electives when i am in poly. and in SIM, i only know how to do basic Arts work for games.
Programming i cant do it. Arts i am not good enough.
What can i do?
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Last time i dun like blogging.
Cause i feel.

Blogging = tell ppl things you want them to know = selective informations about yourself = some true, some might not be true.

but i still start to blog after awhile.
cause i slowly feel that there is still a need to give recent updates of myself to friends from pri, sec, poly, uni etc.
As we move on to another part of our life, chances to meet/ keep in contact with friends are really rare.
So blogging is a good way to know whats going on in your friends life.

But again to be frank.
I dunno how others blog.
But according to myself, like i mention above.
I only blog abt things i want ppl to know abt.
I dun blog abt some other things.....
Some feelings and thoughts going through my mind every now and then.
Thats also why recently i nv blog. cause i got nth to say.

but in fact there is a lot going on in my mind.

So i have decided.
From now on. whatever i feel or think of at that moment.
I will blog [provided i remember].
Its going to be a totally NEW STYLE for the way i blog.
I am going to treat it as if no 1 is reading.
From now on

My Blog = as if no 1 is reading = my private diary = writing everything that i can think of and going through in my mind = Unselective Informations = to speak the truth, all the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth

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My latest Fav Song on my Playlist.
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Mei You Ru Guo MV - Liang Jing Ru

SWAY DAY..

Fall from Stairs AGAIN.

Dunno why i always fall from stairs..
3rd time in my Life.
this time is the stairs in ShengSiong Mart.
and i landed on my back.
my right elbow straight away got i big patch of Blue-Black.
my lower back got big area of red patch. probably going to be blue-black too.

Damn.

Very pain. Hope no internal injuries.

So Far, i feel the elbow more painful.

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SWAY

Finally free to Update
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Nothing much since the last post. therefore, i will jump straight to CNY.

CNY is damn boring this year.
why is that so?.
cause of recession?
cause its came too soon right after x mas and new year?

2 day before new year, suddenly caught a FLU.
then day 1 suddenlt on "hold" then day 3 FLU back again.... weird

Day 1
As usual,
went to 3rd uncle house... bring vcd to ktv.
my uncles and auunt went to our 姑婆 house without informing us.
so in the end we just stay in the house whole day.
At night, i went to xuan house, as we want to have other plans for the night.
In the end, movie is out, mahjong is out.
We went Lan Gaming- Left 4 Dead.
It is fun. but i cant play 1st player shooter game for long due to the 1st perspective view.
hence, i got serious headache and i feel like vomiting.
they played for 1 more round and the shop its going to close too.
Then we left.

Day 2
Go 3rd uncle house AGAIN.
stay there whole day AGAIN.
vcd and ktv AGAIN.
went back to xuan house, have dinner.
played PEEK, watched studioDanz showcase '08 DVD.
stayed overnight at xuan house.

Day 3
Work @ DP.

Day 4
Meet francis and leon , go sentosa photo shoot for Sentosa flowers festival.
The sun is damn hot.. and we went during 12-3 plus pm.
Got a little sun burn.
Evening meet emily. suppose to go running. but all of us is damn tired. And i need open door for DP. So in the end, they sat down and we talk.
Ate Malteses and leon said must "Suck" it to taste better.
so i do so..
and who knows... the next day...

Day 5
Sore throat and headache.
All thanks to the malteses and sun.
But i still insist i go for work at DP cause its the last day.

Day 6
Getting more sick.
Cancel all appt to stay home--Alone.
Sorry my dearest TAS and TASA for not able to attend CSM.
Sorry my JUDO peers for not going JUDO.
Sorry to my Aunts for not joining them for Lunch appt.
Sorry to EMILY and LEIA for not going for MODERN.
Sorry to my Sec Clan for not joining the gathering at Ms Lam House.

Day 7
Feeling so much better
Got to go kaiqi house.. long planned.
suppose to meet 130pm. in the end push to 3pm.
so i meet huiling at JP 2pm to settle our stuff then go meet kaiqi.
Played Wii...Mario Sonic Olympics damn fun.
Thanks Marie helped me to massage my stiff shoulders and it helps alot for my headache.
So hungry.. but all heaty and fried food.
No choice. i eat..
Dinner at her house with sec Clan.
Curry,Bee hoon,french loaf bread, chicken wing.
Back home. my throat was DYING.
DAMN DAMN DAMN PAIN.
probably the only way to let you understand how pain its to put a fish bone or needle into your throat.
Thats how pain i am now.

DAY 8- TODAY
Going to see a doc later. cause i wake late at 12pm. its clinic lunch time.
Cleared my nose and realise my mucus from white become green and in lump.
Meaning i am getting over heaty. and Yes. i do feel i am on heat all over.
And i feel pain when i try to speak.
Should be the 2ND time i going to lost my voice.
Doubt i can go dance tonight.
almost 2 weeks nv dance already.
Whole body feeling weird.
i want to dance.
.. but i know i am too sick..
i should concentrate to get well soon. to be able to dance asap and for upcoming gatherings... job interviews.. etc

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1st time so early home on a SUN.
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Time for updates
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WED--->Work at JW
as usual.. nth to say.

Thurs , meet up with emily to go VT get her keys.
While b4 that i went Sim lim to buy my new Camera.
->Canon ixus 80[brown] reserved by steven[june's bf]'s friend named BEN[Qingli].
LOL
Love my new "toy".
Then after VT, we going to meet limei and john for gym.
Then just when we are abt to reach, john sms us to inform that whole SRC and gym closed due to their annual dinner & dance.
-.-"
but nvm. We still meet up with jacky at JW. cause emily need to learn the high school musical choreo for her school mass dance workout every fri morning.
Me and limei joined in and learn it too.
Then all of us realise that its too simple that all 3 of us got problem with the steps.
WAHAHA.

Then john came back from JP[he from JW-JP-JW]. Then we went for dinner at nihon mura.
After which, its the breaking class which got only 6 of us.
Me, Xuan, Limei, Emily, John, Sean.
We learn some foot work, the steps are not easy ok.
then its the freeze. Shoulder freeze till i got bruise on my shoulder.
and head freeze till my head got BALUKU.
which reminds me of my hk mini head freeze and BALUKU.

Then its fri----> WORK @ JW.
nth much too.. usual stories.

SAT
morning went judo.
kim too tired so cant wake on time.
in the end i went in tjeon car to RI.
Amanda drove me home after that.\
By then its already 2.30pm.
Then i took a short nap. Left house @3.30pm.
almost late for MODERN @ 4pm.
Emily and Rachel joined me for MODERN too.
Then we went down to Aaron house while rachel need to continue working.

AT aaron's house.
his house is amazing.
Got KTV ok.
really can select songs accordingly.
Then of course its the nice food. Curry and bread plus chicken wings and bee hoon.
His mother can sing really very well. Got lots of trophies and achievements inside the glass cabinet.
Then we played cludeo.Which is very diff from mine version.
And the new version is so many nicer in design.
New design, new rules, new list, more weapons, more cards
Totally Newly Integrated Version.
Who won? Its JOHN.. heard from aaron he won the previous time too.
Anw, by the time we finish teh game its 10.30 pm.
got to leave early as still got to work at JW the next day...
Which is TODAY.

Last Sun i run 2 branch. JW - TJ - JW.
Today i predict will also have to do that.
And just like what i guess, i morning at JW, afternoon go down to TJ.
But i only work till 6pm at TJ. Thats why i am home early.

I went to market to walk walk,
Deposit the cheques,
Go get the telephone- 2 line spliter.
Buy Little Nonya pack 2 for my mother.
The TS gal was irritating.
When i use my mother TS membership card.
She look at me as if i am stealing someone's card.
Halo. i patronize them to buy so many HK vcds OK.
She forget nvm.
But HEY. do i look like a baddies?
I told them JP let me use the card and redeem the points and i sign on my mother behalf. They insist NO initially. then they see my irritated face. and i wanted to call my mother. Then another bigger "rank" sales came and said . its ok..
In the end, i got my voucher redeem.
I am paying anyway. not as if i redeem and get the vcd free and run away.
I bought 2 more other shows.
Sleeping beauty-disney 50 ann edition
The Eagle Shooting Heroes
[In fact it should be call - The Legend of Condor Heroes 射鵰英雄傳]
China,HK,TW combine version-2008

BUT NOW... i damn angry...
I really cannot tahan my mother.
The say she wants the little nonya.
i want go buy my vcd. so i bought it for her.
then now she ask abt dunno what free gift with teh show.
how will i know when the sales nv mention and she nv told me when i bought the pack 1.
She is always annoy over some simple stuff like no no free gift .. when it is not even my fault.
Then she said she want buy it herself why i go buy for her.
DUn buy kena scold. BUY also kena scold.
IDIOT..........
很难伺候.

i so damn tired from work. come back still must listen to her nagging.
i know when and how to do my own stuff.
Dun need her keep nagging.
it is VERY VERY VERY VERY IRRITATING.
i believe i am going to go crazy and have mental problem very soon.
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today actually wanted to do lots of things.

but i make a wasted trip to jp. cause i though go there in the evening then go straight for dance. but i forgot its peak hours.
So i spent quite some time there. without getting much things done
or rather, the things i settle or not my personal stuff.

i nv manage to get my things done. and the queue is damn long everywhwere

the ticket office for changing ezlink, popular, ATM, buses...

Then i made limei wait for me very long.
Sorry Dear.

Then had dinner with limei.
on the way back for class.
Then saw her.
Scare me for a moment. thought she joining our class.
later i tio heart attack sia.
Then realise 1 more fact.......*secret-Sensitive*

Finish learning Elevator today.
got bruise all over my knee cap.
Damn.
At the same time, me xuan julia make the studio floor all over with black "strips" with our adidas shoe- black soles... due to friction.
But lucky its is removable la.
LOL

Light Supper at the market with xuan leon julia
Update them with INTERESTING stories

Back home

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My Dog - Chilli [ Female,Silky Terrier, Age-abt 3 to 4 yrs.]
My bro bought it 2nd-hand from his friend. And he dunno any info abt the dog.
Ketchup & Tomato:
23rd birthday present from a friend ,using "Make a Bear" Vouchers

Wasabi:
24th birthday present from my Hiphop Gang

Mustard from Ocean Park HK [got it by playing "bull eyes"],
Mayonnaise from 7-11 Mart.

Family photo without Chilli. As chilli dun really like to pose for pictures.

I always cannot remember, 主観 in english is Subjective or Objective?
So i must make a point to remember.

主観 is Subjective.
pertaining to or characteristic of an individual; personal; individual: a subjective evaluation.

Objective
Uninfluenced by emotions or personal prejudices: an objective critic.

I learnt 1 more new word.
Procrastinate
To put off doing something, especially out of habitual carelessness or laziness.
To postpone or delay needlessly.

OK. I shall not procrastinate.
I will have to get my things done.
Chinese new year is coming. i dun have much time.

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Tidy room
Categorize my stuffs
Buy new year clothes
Find a job
Do more dance
Slim down
Do my multimedia portfolio
Go holiday
Learn Guitar
Learn Drums
Find a Career
Find a BF
Revamp my Room
Continue to Slim down

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Why is there only 24hrs in a day?.
Why do we have to spend so many hrs sleeping?
I wish someone invent a Teleport Machine so that we dun waste time travelling around.
Why is everything increasing in price but PAYROLL nv ever increase?
I wish i can be financial free. I promise to do lots of good deeds with the $ i have.
I wish i can find a career which is also my hobby so that i will enjoy going to work everyday.
I wish i had someone who really understands me without me saying a word.

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random
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feeling curious, create wordpress.
cause it can set individual post to private and other post to public.
Can blogspot do so. Maybe can but i dunno abt it.
Wordpress doesnt seems user friendly, will try to figure out how to use before moving to it totally.

Sianz
Last min got to work tmr.
Helping rachel cover her shift.
Anw i will be there for modern trial so nvm la.
Just help whatever i can lo.

Double Sianz.
Got to postpone my things again due to work tmr.
Always got to keep postponing my stuff.
By when can i get it done then?

Feeling Emo.
Must be as usual...
I know.
So... i must control...

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Updates of this week.
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Mon 5th Jan 09
As usual, stay home, at night go dance.
Jacky continue teaching Elevator.
Its fun.

Tues 6th Jan 09
Meet Limei go IMM buy her IPzone Stuff.
Saw BodyShop Discounts.
But i manage to control and not buy anything.
Continue with itinerary to meet John and Leon @ JE 3.45pm.
Going down California Fitness tgt for the free 2 week unlimited trial.

At 1st, all of us very excited abt it.
but the sales promoter was kind of irritating.
Probably due to those slimming centre and MLM experiences,
Leon and Me was sort of Immune to these.
So we are not affected by him.
We only care and know 1 thing in mind.. we dun intend to join at all.
we just want the 2 weeks free trial.
But the sales keep beating round the bush acting he dun understand our hint and
in his words, i feel that he forcing and insist that we join b4 giving us trial.
Then a 2nd promoter came. and he is so much better. if he was the 1st to serve us, he probably understand what we want and issue us those pass straight away..
Dun even have to waste his time, waste our time.
The 2nd promoter talk to us for less than a 5 mins and he said wanna issue us those pass for trials.
But by then, Limei and John was kind of turn off totally already.
So as we went in as a group, i insist we decide as a group and so we left without
going trial.

Then we went HK cafe for dinner. i can finally use my card for point and my voucher.
I forgot that the vocher is not free voucher. it is a cash voucher.
Previously i pay that amount and i got it in voucher back and at the same time get the member card.
So i used the $10 voucher for the bill and i still pay $20 for the dinner.
So total i pay $30 and told myself, since everyone out to dinner tgt then nvm la..
As long as everyone full and happy.
Thats all that matters.
Dun misunderstand. I am not rich.

Anw, we are kind of late for class. especially limei.
So we seperate into 2 cab and get ourselves down to TJ for masters class.
We only realise that it is Girly instead of Breaking.
And it was reallly FUN.
Next week -Masters class back to thurs
but i dunno what style will it be for next week.

Wed 7th Jan 09
As usual, Whole day work at DP.
settle quite a few stuff.
Limei Emily John Rachel meeting for gym.
So sad i working cannot join them.
Hiphop class @7pm only 4 came. 3 terminating.
Just happen that edith return me my shorts.
Therefore i join in for the class.
The 8pm class doing "Ben & Jerry".
I nv join in cause need to settle some work and close acc.
the gang came down after their dinner to have a look but left shortly.
As usual, jacky sent me home.
Really thank him for that.

Today
Thurs 8th Jan 09
Wake up late.
Bring Chilli for grooming.
The pet shop owner told me chilli is on heat.
I nv even realise.
I am such a bad owner.
I really need trainings on that.
I dunno what to do when she is sick.
the pet shop owner also nv advise me.
and i cant force chilli to drink more water like what a human will do.
Back home, I finally start tidying my room.
Not really looking into the things . but rather just sort and put it on to the shelves.
At least now its is better.[ still a bit messy la.. but better]
probably need another 2 days to clear.

Feel very sleepy the whole day.
and very hungry for the past few days..
Ya.. i know what it means..

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Cassie-Is It You
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I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you
And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there, Wants to share, shows he cares Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for
Is it you? is it you? Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you? Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? (Could you be?)
Could you be the one I need?
I'm looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)
Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with through the night
Someone who I can trust who's heart is right And I'm looking for someone
And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always Baby I like to have you in my way And I'm looking for someone who takes me there, Want to share, shows he cares Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for
Is it you? is it you? Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you? Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? Could you be the one I need?
Take for grant How much I care (How much I care)
And appreciates that I'm there Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of thought to share
Is it you? is it you? Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you? Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? Could you be the one I need?

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Youtube- Cassie_Is It You

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Confused feelings
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recently the problem of $ come hard on me again.
in fact all along, the problem is there. but somehow i managed to solved.
But as time goes by, interm of my passion for dance, the bond with the dance mates,
the fun i had etc. I wanted to do dance even more.

Then .. this is where problem rise to the TOP.
Mon class $180 per term.
Masters $100 per term.
Modern $180 per term.
Studio Wu $180 per 3 mths.
Judo $15 per mth.

In terms of per mth, i need pay ~~$230.
I does not have a job now. i only working part time... while looking for jobs and working on port folio.
and i only earn last than $400 per mth.

I still need to pay my insurance which is $75 per mth.
and i still need to eat, transport, entertainment..
not even considering of having any savings yet.

as for JOBs. what kind of jobs can i look for?
i am really LOST.
i thinking might as well go do gov job for 2 years and then see how.
market is not good now anw.

$, career, life

I really hope i am still a student.

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I am really glad that i had the company of my dance mates.
Whenever with them. I can forget my troubles for that moment.

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conclusions?

FOR now, i dun join Judo,Studio Wu,Modern.
I just go mon and masters.
Quickly decide on a plan for job.
Tidy my room for new year.
Bring chilli for Grooming on Thurs.

Other stuffs/plans will have to wait till i find my job 1st.
example:
Whether need stop DP work?
Join Judo ,Studio Wu, Modern.
Work on my port folio.
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Yesterday
Sat 3rd Jan 2009 - Sentosa Outing with DP Gang
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We arrange to meet 10am at JP for Brunch. Then planned to be at sentosa by noon.
But ya.. we are late in our itinerary. haha
We ate Long john breakfast at jp then around 12 we left jp.
By the time we reached sentosa, its erm... lost count of time.

Anyway, we took damn long to settle down. Then we started playing frisbee. Each of the team win once.
Then we started playing Twister. Newly bought by John from toy'r'us in the morning.
Its very fun.
Xuan leg was stuck in between john and edith.
and julia literally sat on limei legs while she is doing her splits.
And i was in a position as if i am doing squats.
The losers of each round[who is julia and edith] got to do forfeit.
The forfeit- take the twister mat, use it as scarf and run to the next person on the other side of beach,fitting into the theme of a romance story. The next person got to run back the this side of the beach in the same "romantic" way.
Both of them are really funny. especially julia.

We started taking pictures. lots of pictures.
All of them are in bikinis and guys with top off.and because of some reason, me and julia nv take off our top.
Till its so hot that i cannot tahan then i went to 7-11.
And when i am finally back and intend to take off my top and join the gang in water.

I heard leon shorting aaron is injured.
Aaron slip off the rocks. and had some abrasions and a big cut on his toe.
I quickly ask aaron to lie down and lift his right leg and right arm.
As we do not have any antiseptic with us, edith faster went to look for the lifeguard to look for 1st aid box.
we waited a while and they are still not back.
So me and xuan went to islandlife to borrow the 1st aid box.
when we are back, we saw the nurse there trying to "help".. She is indeed very "helpful".
She not only argue with aaron, she even talk to us in a nasty way.
And she wrap the wound into a very ugly looking "bun"
and when we request to treat other smaller wounded areas.
She is like.... " that 1 nvm la"
Ya.. but halo, at least clean it la.

Its abt 5pm by then. we all sat down and started talking for a while b4 we packed up and go bath.
Aaron was like a king as he is piggy-backed by leon and john help him wash his hair.
LOL
we actually think he ahould still go see a doc to get injections and see whether the wound needs to be stitch.
But aaron insist tht he is hungry and will like to eat 1st.
So we all went vivo kopitiam to eat dinner. and john sent him back.

The rest of us decided to go watch movie-bedtime stories.
And anyway. it is not very nice. it is just OK. but my advise is not to watch it at night when you are really tired.. if not it will really be the bedtime stories for you.LOL.....

After movie. its 1 plus and i gave john a call to check on aaron status.
He got injections and 2 stitches.
Which means he is ok and the wound is not that bad.
As least he is fine now.
He really scared the hell out of us.

It is just too sad that he will not be able to join us for our studio wu plan and our weekly dance classes for awhile.
My advise: Lets all be really careful next time. safety 1st when playing. Dun ever cross out any possibility that you will be hurt in any ways.

By the time we reach home after movies, its already 2am. i nv even unpack any stuff. i just drop dead" on my bed. LOL.
Thats because i still have to work this morning at DP.
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4 Jan 09
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Today work at DP was fun too.
Since morning.. or rather noon. i had the company of rachel. she came to help as asst teacher for crystal class.
Then she got ballet at 5pm. therefore she did not go home.
Then Limei came in at 2.30 for her G8.
From 4pm till 5pm, we all are like crazy playing, laughing.
Me and limei was fighting over the msn and we actually make the "B" key on the keyboard flip out.
Then we look at the photos on facebook, added by julia.
Its so DAMN Funny lo.
LMAO.
I put some interesting comments on the picture of Julia and limei.
Damn Funny.

At the end of class, we look at the concert photos tgt. adn the ballerinas were very excited over their photos.

HAHA.

Its such a fun day.

Tmr no work.
Got to clean room.
Go Market.
Book tickets for BREAKOUT
Go dance at night.

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